Auscultating : Date 1

So L and I had our date in NU Sentral today.

It was okay, very decent dinner and discussion over 2 hours.

We talked about our work, our family, our high school and tertiary.

Just like any adults would.

L had to head back to work after due to peak season around the work place, so it ended there.

L insisted for a 2nd date, which I was okay with it.

However, a little voice inside me somehow sounded different.

To be realistic, L is pretty okay as a candidate. Working at a very young age and seemingly able to get promoted to the next level quite quickly. L had vision, have great plans for future career pathway, as well as a decent familial background.

Despite all these traits, I don't seemed to feel the romance.

Maybe its me being overly rational, or very steady. Or maybe because I'm older.

Or maybe because I was expecting a more dominant personality, which I think L probably wouldn't be offering.

I don't know. L doesn't seemed to be the one.

Or, its me because I don't need this yet. I don't have the need to be bound while I'm trying to seek for myself in my studies as well as my future career outcomes.

People often say, get one while you are progressing so the one will be your catalyst to a higher level.

But I feel like, I probably do not need this right now. All I need is to study hard, get to my dream job and dream place, and let relationship start after I'm all settled.

At least that's how I interpreted the date.

So as so, I've decided to give 2 more swipes in the social app, and plan to deactivate and uninstall it at 12am today; which I actually did.

The last chat was pretty much lame because the person wanted a fling, an experienced one so to speak; which I couldn't offer because I'm still a virgin. The precise words were:

"Virgin isn't an added value. I need experienced life partner."

Which I didn't find it offensive, but the person being really sex driven.

Of course all human are sexually driven, boys like me even more. But really, there are other apps for sex or flings out there.

Thanks to that, I've uninstalled the application and I'm now again a free man.

Well, I still have a date with L again; but that's after CNY anyways.

I promised to keep in touch, but I really have no idea should I be bothered to go on to more than just dates.

Buffetting : Small Ruminant Farm Practical Week 2 and 3

3 weeks passed by, somehow too fast yet too slow.

Fast because the people and environment were too conducive to learn:

1- I've learned to perform Artificial Insemination in goats. There is no way the university could have offered the chance to
2- I've learned to perform ultrasound pregnancy diagnosis on does with several indications, another chance the university probably wouldn't be able to offer.
3- I've also managed grab the chance to have my first horse-riding. Tiring, but it was certainly fun. Gives and idea on other riding opportunities*if you know what I mean*
4- People were nice, and veterinarian was extremely helpful and willingful to teach us all about small ruminant. Definitely have more to learn.

Slow because routine can be boring when the veterinarian is busy with office work, while we can't really do much with our limited knowledge,as well as access to treatments.

Ending the practical does tell me a few matters:

1- There is no way I will be in another practical with Gaga. Not a chance in hell. It's one thing if I were the only bitch, another when the whole group is definitely not into association.

2- Small ruminant IS a growing business; and an opportunity I would put serious thought about considering in my future investments. Large ruminant was what I intended, maybe it was the company; maybe it was the place. But this farm experience did cast a large impact on what I had in mind for my future farming prospects.

3- The original group I went with is still the most awesome group ever. Lady Boss, Ice Queen and Doraemi(named after her fanatic over Doraemon) were extremely nice and considerate in the whole practical. It was a blessing in disguise, and I'm surely looking forward for the upcoming 2 weeks practical with them.

managed to celebrate Ice Queen's 22nd Birthday with her family

Towards the end of the practical, I've managed to have some alone time with Lady Boss to talk about; plenty.

It has been a crazy academic year for both of us, and things began to change in various ways. We certainly have became extremely close in terms of friendship; and I truly appreciate the trust she lay on me about stuffs we discuss.

T left, and she certainly have dismissed the fact that T was pretty irresponsible for leaving me high and dry in the faithful Wesak.

能做你的好姐妹，才是我的福气。

But Lady Boss is an extremely nice person; and she still managed to light me up:

错过的是他不是你。要找到更好的。以你的人，不用怕。

True enough. It would be easier if some things were different. But the cards have been dealt, I guess I just have to play my way to the end of the game.

Maybe after I graduate, maybe not. Some how, I feel like I am traumatized in a certain mild way in this territory of life.

Buffetting : Being Leo

Few conversations with a friend made me rethink on where I would go being a Leo;

in work,

in friendship,

in love.

I'm typical in the first 2, but was indifferent in the last one.

Although I'm still in this void, it got me thinking a lot; on how I interacted with T.

I don't know, its something quite confusing to think about.

But I should just bare in mind until the next bud emerges.

It's a confusing post I know; but read between the lines then.

Buffetting : Who?

Just a random thought when I saw this post on the social media:

21 signs of you having a great boyfriend

Not hoping much from T, but I guess I should be the one working hard to become THE great boyfriend.

No point comparing all the time ait?

Bacteriology here we go~

Buffetting : It's a Marathon

Talked to Queen last night about all we have missed in each other's life.

She's finally made it clear with her useless baby-sitting-required ex of her, diplomatically.

Which is good, because she deserve so much more.

While talking about T it is so obvious that the whole sacrifice thing is lopsided.

I at some point give up in trying to seek attention.

This is a different type of relationship than the one I imagined for my first love, but well, who am I to complain right?

I am all for the marathon, but as of now I give up in trying to get T's attention.

I have dignity.

Buffetting : Love Aches

Literally.

It's like you just can't seemed to go between any fine line of balance.

For a person who has been logical and done things in-programmed, this is a very subtle matter to dabble around.

I feel like bursting, but my logical side gets me composed.

3 days, until I've posted something and T buzzed me in the app.

It's really frustrating, because the initiative isn't there.

Soulchild's post on just love didn't help me much.

I can do most of the things stated, but really, initiative.

the four letter word is not as simple as it spells.

Or I should just let it go*sing hard*

Lady boss and I talked over lunch, and we have come to conclusion that, T is a straight bloke, like really,

Similarly to anyone out there who puts in effort before the relationship is established, but everything just tone-out right after.

It's not like T is cheating on me or anything, or nor T has less affection; its more like, a natural thing to do, knowing the relationship is so to speak, "stable".

"If T is actually expecting you to be in Chiang Mai, and is willing to stay for you; its not what you are thinking. So just stay put and wait till you see T there again"- Lady Boss.

I guess I should. I shouldn't be imposing much on T.

Man, its like every post seemed to be a repeating episode. This sucks.

On the side note, Vet Dinner 2014 is back, a post will be dedicated there after.

Buffetting : Marriage

I've finally gotten my first invitation to my friend's wedding in my life!!!

She was my high school friend, although we were only classmates for 3 years, not that close of a friend, at least not like me and Best Bud; she'd actually remembered me.

To my surprise, she'd actually invited me for her wedding; to which I was flattered and honored because I wasn't expecting this at all, both the marriage AND the invitation.

To be honest, I was just thinking about "if anyone would invite me to their wedding, seeing how my records have reflected me" in the car about a few days ago, and walah.

Bad news is, I will be away on the wedding day, because its on mid April, and I will be half way enjoying my time in Chiang Mai with T.

Yet, I've accepted the invitation and she actually did offer me, so I've decided to send a wedding gift regardless. On the side note, she actually asked if I need any introduction to any girls, seeing I became "better-looking" from before, but still claiming to be "girl friend-less". Same ol answer.

Marriage, sometimes I wish I could dream about it, see it happen. But its just something so far to be achieved. T and I, honestly now really just depend on our trust for each other , and the faith in this relationship.

At least I'm trying.

I was sulking a little on how T didn't text for the past few days, like how busy can you get even in a bovine restrain course right? You've just finished your finals!

But Lady Boss feels that T may put in more faith than I think in this relationship, being the reason of the hanging texts all the time. Meaning, T trust me so much more than I trust myself or T.

Really? Hmm, guess I'm always the insecure one?

I did have history on being insecure when we first started out, because I thought T was too good for me, sometimes even till now.

Another 4 and a half weeks and still counting. Gosh I really have no idea what to expect. Its really, exciting yet stressful

Buffetting: Pure Mind

I strongly believe either T has an extremely pure mind, unlike mine.

Or its just the communication barrier messing around.

I did try my best to drop hints here and there about the, ya know big "S" but T didn't really get me.

Heck I even tried to link this with teriology the subject on mating and breeding, but it was just even more confusing.

I guess the cultural and communication difference can and will be a problem in this LDR.

But April will be stepping in soon.

To Biolexus: I TOLD YOU T IS LIKE SUPER DUPER PUUUREEEE. Like tomato pureee pure.

We've definitely gone past the hot period. As in, things will be parts of our lives to distract us from each other, and we will only get to each other when we are available.

More like most of the time, when T is available.

It's a give or take being in the LDR.

I can't be too worked up over the time that T is not investing, nor can T when I'm not around.

I can't be stalking T*which I am gulp* all the time, because knowing some details might just make me wonder too much.

The really important thing is space.

Sometimes I do wonder how long I can keep up, like will I give up in the middle of this?

Let's not think about that. We have our promises, our future visions.

T's graduation, and mine. Maybe a trip to Japan for T's work and my practical?

Maybe I'm overthinking about the last one.

Lectures were fun, posting on the CNY gathering with thy coursemates in the next post!

Buffetting : Right Time

It really fascinates me on how T actually does this magically all the time.

T finds the right time, and the right occasion to drop by Line with the simplest words to make my day, and make me feel so much better and reassured on where our relationship is going.

And the funniest English which leaves me wondering until explanations are made. Haha.

I admit, sometimes I think, a lot.

Just on yesterday's post proves how much I think over a busy week.

What I'm hoping is, the horoscope really speaks what an Aquarius look at the relationships.

Serious, logical and long term.

At least that is what I'm looking at.

First week has been awesome. I can totally feel my gear on 5 roaring towards the end of the semester for a fruitful one.

To a great semester, and I wish April comes fast and slow at the same time.

Slow enough for me to lose my spare tyre

Quoted from Hottie "The people love you for who you are, not your looks. So chill out."

But I wanna present the best, mar.

Buffetting : New Semester

Well, its another new semester again!

New subjects, New lecturers, New labs, and definitely new experiences.

I'm pretty much done with the activities now, so its time to focus back on my self-development.

Academics, Music, Health and Love.

Definitely new elements into my life of now.

So and so to the point that people like Biolexus and Jboy would really think I should totally be prepared for the big "S" when I visit T in April.

It's definitely something huge, like freaking huge.

The intensive workshop on the outing was, mind-blowing literally.

Touch of Midas, readups, sharing of experiences and me being innocent me; well, its really something huge to take on.

I guess I shouldn't think too much as of now, like what Best bud have said. Just let it happen if it does, with preparation.

Geez, preparation and expectation, where to draw the lines?

On the side note, I've taken up the initiative as the course rep for an important subject, vet pathology this semester. Let's hope that wouldn't eat up my life.

With another semester as VP of the cultural club, Malaysia Vet Student Association on its roll, and the vending machines; I better be free enough for myself this semester.

Targets for this semester:

1- GRADES! Don't slack anymore!
2- WEIGHT! Health and looks all in a package! It's time to keep the waistline less than 34"!
3- MUSIC! That sax is piling on dirt! No more delay!
4- BACK! If not there goes Fathers' day and everything that comes with it.
5- T! Learn more and start to go deeper in aspects of life!

Buffetting : Mailed Love

Just got another mail done today to T.

It's the 2nd to T in our relationship, I wonder if I can keep on doing this in the long term though.

The V-bomb will be dropping in this Friday, what's lucky is that those who knew aren't around me to tease me, while I'm still single among the people away from university.



Speaking of which, I managed to come across an article on both our horoscopes:

On T(Aquarius)

水瓶理性的可怕。会很现实的考虑两个人的将来，
如果觉得没有未来，就放开。

水瓶座不会随便爱上一个人，一旦真正喜欢就会很致命，会一直把你牢记在心。

如果水瓶座决定和你在一起了，那就说明你是他们这一生都认定的人了。

你会很少听到他们说我喜欢你我爱你这样的话。
至多他们在热恋的时候会说句我想你了。
他们会在你很不在意的时候说一句我爱你，在你诧异的同时，不会再听到第二遍了，
并且瓶子脸上的表情不像是在表白。很纠结吧！

(Aquariuses are horrifically rational, materialistically consider the future of their partners; if they think there's no possibility, they would just let go. Aquariuses wouldn't fall in love easily, but once in love it would be deadly, and remember the person vividly. If an Aquarius decided to be with you, it means you are the one and only forever. It's not easy to hear "I love you" or the lovey doveys from them, probably just " I miss you" during the hot season. But, they would just startle you with the 3 words in situations when you are amazingly unaware; while when you tried to get those words back they wouldn't. What's worse is, their faces wouldn't be showing any signs of confession or anything.)

Some parts are true though, but there's was an ex. So what happened to that?!

I like this part, because it somehow soothes me a little thinking that T really went through this before the confession was made. Let's hope the stereotypical Aquarius is in T.

有条不紊的瓶子很少情绪失控，也很少有人能让水瓶情绪失控，
如果有就是看的很重的事或人。水瓶的理性有时候也会很伤人，
比如，两个互相相爱的人，水瓶觉得自己的存在阻碍对方的前途或发展，
会选择自动离开。而且不给任何理由

(The rational Aquarius doesn't usually lose their temper, nor many people can do that either; unless those are important matters. Being logical too can cause Aquariuses to impose on others ie: Even when both are madly in love, if Aquarius were to think that they are actually a bother or wall in blocking the partner's future, they would choose to leave without any reasons)

水瓶座总觉得自己很孤独，其实并不是没人在身边，只是想要的人不在。
瓶子出门时总会时不时看看手机，
如果你发现瓶子和你出去时不玩手机了，那么你就是她最珍惜的那个人

水瓶座是个慢热的星座，表面看起来朋友很多，
但真正令他挂念和在乎的或许只有那几个人而已。
大部分的人，水瓶座可能只是把他划分在“认识”的这一层面上。
当然也就不会去主动联系了。
所以，如果你是水瓶座会主动联系的人，那你对他来说就已经很重要了

(Aquariuses usually think that they are lonely; but the real thing is, its not that there aren't anyone around, its the person they wish to see is not around.

Aquariuses have the habit of looking into their phones when they are out; if they don't look into the phone when they are out with you, its obvious that you mean a lot to them.

Aquariuses take time to kick into the mood, although it might seemed that they have lots of friends; the ones that matters to them are usually that few. Most of the people they know can only be labelled as "Acquaintances", and usually wouldn't be bothered to contact them. If you are being called by initiative by Aquariuses, then it really means that you are something to them.)

I should totally start reading more on Aquarius these days.

On Me (Leo)

I've decided to go everything on handmade before I get my own income to get like fancy gifts for T. It's unfair to my parents to actually spend on someone else instead of me; but minute amount less than RM20 in budget would probably be better since eating out with the family can sum up to more than RM30 per head.

I guess; in fact I believe with a small budget plus a genuine feeling and love will do the job.

Plus, I can get crafty with my right brain now since I have to go handmade; which can kill my time more.

有人说，别轻易和狮子座谈恋爱，
这是事实，因为狮子座总是拿自己的全部去赌爱情，
如果你没有办法把爱情当成自己的全部，就别和他（她）们赌，
否则最后，虽然败俱伤，
但是，你永远不知道，在狮子座的心中，这道伤痕划下的有多深，
更不知道自己得付出多少代价！

(Some said, never get into a relationship with a Leo easily; because Leos will take everything to gamble with love. If you can't make love your everything, be sure not to gamble with a Leo. Or else, you might end up with a very deep scar in the Leo, or worse, the price you would need to pay playing with the fire.)


*ROAR LEO*

狮子座是骄傲的。这从他们的走路姿态就能看出来。
昂首挺胸，尤其是狮女，还会轻轻扬起她们的下巴，
抬起她们高贵的头颅，一副凛然不可侵犯的样子。
不过，他们同时也是敏感的，缺乏安全感的。
有人总结狮子座是“最阴郁的阳光”，真是精妙。
狮子座的致命弱点:脾气有点大，
表面温和到别人误以为很好欺负，
其实内心脾气大的可怕；性格矛盾分裂，自尊超强；
太现实了，认真，看问题太透；孤独，缺乏安全感，自闭，忧郁；
爱太深，比较容易受伤，受伤就选择逃避；
喜欢乱想，想太多，爱纠结，超倔强。
狮子女爱上了一个人就会深爱,也许她一辈子只爱一个人,
狮子女的感情很珍贵,她很难才能爱上一个人,
当她爱上你请好好对待,狮子座忘记一个人需要一辈子,
如果爱上狮子，请深深爱。

(Leos are proud, its obvious from the may they walk. However, as proud as they look they are sensitive at the same time, lack of security. Leos are usually quite the big temper, often mistaken as an easy bully target from their warm outlook; yet they can be really nasty, astonishingly conflicting in their personality, super high self esteem, very materialistic, serious, looking into problems too clearly and swirling with storms inside. Once a Leo fall in love, its probably the one and only in the life time. A Leo's love is very very precious, because its extremely hard for a Leo to fall in love; forgetting this first love probably takes forever.)

狮子座天性好玩，好奇心重，不管他多大，童心一直不会变，
跟他在一起，请不要用一成不变的感情生活代替一切，
除了感情，他更欣赏一个能和他一起探索一起前进一起享受的伴侣，
他会带给你更多惊喜。看他孩子气时，请不要指责他幼稚，
他的孩子气只会展现在最在乎的人面前，这
时候的他是最可爱最纯真的
子座绝对不会对自己不喜欢的人花言巧语，更不会为其它而放弃真爱。
所以当狮子爱上你的时候，不用怀疑，你已经成为世界上最幸福的人。
只要给狮子绝对的信任，狮子会还给你最浪漫最温暖的一生。只是，很少人能让狮子爱上。

(Leos are playful in nature, inquisitive and retain their childishness no matter how old they are. Being with them, just be more creative and colorful; if possible they would cherish partners who can be part of their growth and discovery in life. When his being childish, don't say that he's being immature because he's only childish in front of the person he care most; this is also when he's being the cutest and most innocent. Leo's will not succumb to sweet talks of people they don't like, nor will give up love because of them. When a Leo decides to be in love with you, without a doubt you are definitely the happiest person on earth. Give Leo your utmost trust, Leos will return you with the most romantic life ever. The sad part is, Leos don't give into love easily.

狮子对谁都很好，似乎对人好已经成了一种习惯，
以至给人感觉狮子跟很多人暧昧不清。
对喜欢的人掏心掏肺，
喜欢的人多看一眼的东西TA就会买来，
喜欢的人随口说的一个想法TA会牢记在心并为TA实现，
对于狮子来说，朋友是亲人，而喜欢的人是太阳，亲人一直放在心里，
心却永远围着太阳转

(Leos are generally nice to everyone, because its like 2nd nature to be nice to them; usually giving wrong vibes and signs that they are interested and involved with multiple people. They would do anything for people that they like, buying things for the people the like, remembering words of the people they like. To Leos, friends are like family, while lovers are like the sun; family situated in the heart, but the heart is always revolving the the Sun)

Pretty true on me with all the scandalous gossips about me with multiple girls and on how I'd actually became a huge mountain preventing admirers from advancing to the girls I'm being involved in those scandals, but I have more to discover about T.

I'm dateless on Valentines this year, as of always; but I'm not exactly the dating type, so I guess I shall be the otaku waiting for T's messages on Line in my bed~

PS: ALEX I DID WHAT YOU ASKED! I WANT CAKES!

Buffetting : As Per Told

So it came among the elder generation about the future spouses of our generation;

The choices, the timing and the decency.

Apparently, we should be doing what we were told.

The comparison was made between my elder sis and another cousin of mine same age as me. I'm only one year younger than my elder sis.

The verdict was, my sis should take her time while my cousin sis should get married ASAP.

Both eldest in the family, what we were told of the difference is that 'we have our reasons, you will see. Just follow as we speak'.

Oh great, apart from my core family, the extended family is involved too.

Well, we are THAT close, but bringing up my nature of relationship, with T even more; feels like having a death sentence when they were talking about my sis' situation.

Still single, I mean my sis; although there are admirers. She "should" take her time, as they say.

I of course took my own sweet time. No THE question bombed on me this CNY, thank goodness. 

I guess knowing that I have 3 and a half more years plus being ambitious drew the lines; little do they know I'm with T now.

I just wish, things would be easier even among the extended family once we have decided to take this long term; because so far I see it as me only instead of we, YET.

What are the chances right? 

Speaking of which, T's account on the social media states "in a complicated relationship". 

If I'd changed to that I would receive millions of questions. I guess I should still be decent and keep a low profile.

OMG CNY FAT FOOD STORM!!! I need to shed shed shed before April!!!!

Buffetting : Way to Go

Procrastination at work, rest assured.

3 more papers out of 4, and my finals mood is totally still on mid semester break.

Woo hoo, way to go.

Best bud and I have been talking a lot these days, about our relationships and situations.

I'm probably the amateur here, seeing how experienced he have been, after all the time which I have been missing with him growing up in this part of his growth.

Being together with T tells me one thing, as possessive as a Leo can and should be, I need to know that T is still a very busy person.

Like it or not, T made efforts during the holidays in Thailand, and not being able to stay in touch after the university starts means that T is in fact busy.

From the days which I use to be so upset for T to not reply or even drop in a note; I'd realized these days I don't get so upset over it anymore; or at least after T's semester resumes.

I guess we need space, and I should totally begin do what I like to do.

T is pretty crafty, while I'm more of the ship wrecker XD

I chose to be in love with  T, because all the criteria were met; and T couldn't have picked the best time to appear in my life. I don't know how well I fare in the circle in Malaysia, probably not so good; maybe I might get some degree of attention; and being able to get physical here in Malaysia totally outweighs everything.

But I chose to be in love with T, and let those chances here be.

The way to go, at least how I see in relationships is, go all out if you know that's what you want in life. Distance, is just an excuse; of course a very good one, but really, if distance were to be a problem to begin with, you might just not be into that person after all.


After all, being in love is getting over crazy someone right, T?

Buffetting : Not Nice

I'm not that nice, I guess.

The thing is, I'm a very, demanding person I guess? So and so to an extend of a demanding lover.

I guess being a Leo, the attention seeking part is pretty intense.

The attention span of T gets lesser by the day, and I swear I could have suggested us to have a scheduled LIne session daily seeing how, busy we can get.

So and so when I was browsing through the social media, W came into the picture.

I met W too in the conference, and W was my group's facilitator. We had some chats over the tea breaks and we managed to be friends over the social media, seeing how W even turned off the setting to search for the profile.

We sometimes comment on each others' posts, but everything is harmless.

Until today, when the thought of :

"If W really asks, I might even say yes."

I think I'm a bad, very very bad lover. I can't even be loyal to a relationship, well at least that's how I feel.

This article on "Love is for the partner, not you" really bit me, but Pete knows why am I this fickle-minded.

Maybe I need a MAJOR DISTRACTION to keep myself occupied and loyal to T. Gosh, is this the first strike?

Man, I'm freakin out.

Buffetting : Future and Promises

So finally the girls knew who T is. Some surprised, some took it well.

It became real casual talking about T, and since the nature of our relationship is based merely on trust and mutual respect, it became really abstract without the physical contact part in a relationship.

What I am facing now is, security. T is not a fan of the future, all the time. On the other hand, I need assurance of the future, at least a direction where I know I'm heading.

Big Sis mentioned that she's the type going on:

"Take one step at a time. T didn't give promises because things might change in the future."

On the other hand, we used the 2nd chance's as example, and quoted:

"Polar bear went all out, going for a 2nd time to get together with Heart. There's got to be some credit for him, and its so unfair to say that this relationship is not given a direction of going far as to getting to the marital stage."

just little things we share over LINE to spice up our conversations

It's like a dilemma.

On one hand, we don't make promises because we might not be able to take on the variables in our environment. On the other, we all wish to have some sort of assurance, or direction on where we are heading now after.

Side note, T and I are planning to go further. If we have the chance, any at all; our graduation pictures should include both of us.

One in 2016, where I'd probably will be having my clinical practicals in one of the vet universities in T's place; one in 2017, where I'd host T while having T in my graduation pictures.

I wonder how my family would react to as T coming over just to be in my pictures. Will the cat be out of the bag?

Buffetting : In the Midst

I find myself unbelievable doing this right now.

In the midst of trying to find time to post about the rest of the Chiang Mai trip, juggling my driver duties, dealing with new semester, sorting the issues within the Dogathon event, not to mention another potluck this Saturday; I found time to wish T.

T's got a semifinals(Pete knows why they use this term. It's test 2 here in Malaysia) on Saturday, a 31st August imagine that, and well, I'd figure something like this would be some sort of motivatoin

I guess all these little things are part of everyone's love life.

Still feels like a dream.

Now lets try getting the mood to post about the rest of Chiang Mai.

Buffetting : Those words

"I love you because you are you."

I don't think I can sleep tonight, T.

No one have ever uttered those words before, not even my family.

Thanks for making me feeling so special.

Buffetting : 4th IVSA Asia Conference, Chiang Mai

So this was really spontaneous decision with me, Gummi bear, Bimbo and her copy FabP we had in the faculty. Within minutes we got our tickets and approvals, and here we come Thailand!

            The first night on the 9th was really brief because the welcoming dinner started 6pm after our Chiang Mai University (CMU) hosts picked us up from the airport. The dinner ended at about 10pm when we were sent back to our hotel, Chateau Chiang Mai in the disco lit double decker. I got to know Bum, Meow, Pare, Ong, and Numphung who were hosting my table.

The 4 of us spent our night color coding as well as panicking over our plans post conference period, which we didn't manage to have any outcome. Oh well, we were THAT excited.

Exclusive view on Chiang Mai Airport. What more you can ask for ait?

It's nice to know that Thais actually have given names and nick names, the latter which are made easier for them to be addressed. Some would have meaning while some are just short forms of the original name. Nicknames with meaning would like : Numphung meaning honey; Fah meaning sky; Fon meaning rain.

              The 2nd day on the 10th was spent mostly indoor with ice-breaking games and lecture topics. The topic was quite interesting because the whole conference was about joining the ideas of Asian countries in solving veterinary, or even fields which integrates with the field such as law, human medicine, humanities as well as environmental studies. The topic of the day was on rabies, something which vet students from South East Asia would be more familiar with.

The concept of one world, one health emphasizes on how people from different discipline and background come together in solving a problem. With globalization at its rise, we can't really spend our time dabbling only in our grounds, while there are resources out there which can fit into our shoes in bringing us more miles further. In solving rabies, disciplines from veterinary, human medicine, public relationship, legislative and even environmental backgrounds play huge and very important roles. From the discussion of the whole day, I've finally understood that integration is really the key to one health concept.

We took a short trip around the vet faculty of CMU, a place which I found out how inferior I am:

1- I am not required to know to ride a military horse, the CMU students do.

2- I am not required to know how to deal with a horse in a stable, including cleaning it since year one, they do.

3- I have really limited skills possessed. Next sem is a skill drill semester.

Their vet fac is surrounded by a dazzling mass of greenery, with a hill just right behind them, just like the universities you see on TV. UPM is really nice, but CMU brought it up into a whole new level.

The night was spent in the night safari restaurant, which the restaurant in enclosed within animal enclosures. Something which I don't really agree to, unless they feed the animals before the humans' food is served, because of the emotional stress issue. And the tigers looked really emaciated.

I couldn't take part on the post-dinner bazaar walk because I was almost passing out from the headache and sickness I infected latent-ly from my father. I spent my night in the hotel room recuperating and, Candy Crushing hahaha.

                 The 3rd day on the 11th, we spent our day in the Thai Elephant Conservation Center(TECC), a forest region near Chiang Mai city. About half an hour ride from the main city if my memory doesn't fail me. The whole day trip was meant for us to discover and understand the whole mechanism of the center, how it works, the units, the role of veterinarians, the role of the center, their husbandry and policies. 

It's a great place to be when people go to Chiang Mai, because there are plenty of matters revolving elephants installed here. The first place we headed was the elephant hospital, in which the veterinarian on duty, also the director of the center,Dr Sittidet showed us some cases of the elephants injured brought into the custody of the center.

One of them had a shot wound because it had to be taken down for its annual musth in the forest. Another one had skin lesions which are caused by attacks and restrains of illegal poachers. The hospital is mainly attraction for the veterinarians and biologists, but tourists ought to take a good look on how veterinarians play their roles in sustaining the animal biodiversity. 

Another attraction in the center was the elephant show, spanning over 40 minutes with elephants showing different tricks. Nothing new, what the 4 Malaysians(US) really were doing was asking intensely about the animal welfare of the elephants when they are being trained.

Apparently they use the carrot and stick method to train them, so I guess(I sure hope) there is minimal stress upon the elephants during training. They do offer elephant back riding too, but I sat the session out with Bimbo instead because we simply don't really like the idea. We ended up having sisterly chats as well as snapping shots for Gummi bear and FabP.

The evening was indeed awesome. We were told to get our traditional clothes ready, which I got my SamFoo from Pasar Seni so I can wear them in future international occasions; while we get to enjoy a whole heaps of other clothes from other countries, including 20 stunning Yukata and one funky Junpei from Japan; the only Hanbuk from South Korea, Kebaya and Baju Kurung from Indonesia and Malaysia; Cheong Sam from Taiwan; and well, civilian clothing from the rest of the crowd.

We were hosted through a traditional Lanna-dinner, or also known as the Northern Thailand style dinner known as the Khantoke Dinner. I'm very impressed with the ability of the faculty to pull off this dinner for 80 participants with the good food, as well as good entertainment. 

Along the serving of khantoke dishes, there were several different Thai traditional dances and rhythmic performances shown in front of us. Even the native Thais, are still very intrigued and blown away by the performances held that night. 

Before we ended our dinner with Disco moment, we had a short lantern releasing session with the local Thai students. It was held because the CMU students wish to have us to remember the Lanna traditions, including the releasing of Khom tue with respect to Yi Peng.

This is the interesting part, apparently T noticed me during this session when I barged into the circle to join Bimbo and FabP. I was quite surprised when T told me this, simply because I felt hideous and extremely unattractive the whole night, especially that moment.

 I guess my SamFoo really did the trick.

We ended with Disco dances and several pictures, while I went back to the hotel getting acquainted with the Taiwanese vet students. 

The last day on 12th August, we had our last lecture session on One World One Health again, but this time on the issue of elephants. How are we going to solve the problems to co-exist with the elephants, when the population shrinks while they continue harm us in ways we can never think of. I liked this session because I get to see how the policies of different countries had in dealing with their wildlife, even with companion animals. In South Korea, it was mandated for all cats and dogs to be microchipped so the strays can be controlled in the minimal. Sweet right?

The half day session ended with a simple closing ceremony and plenty of picture snapping; and lo and behold; apparently I'm the only one in the whole room having birthday on 12th of August! 

12ians of August rock like that baby!

To my surprise, it was also Mother's day in Thailand, for their Queen shares the same birthday, and it was also a holiday! Wow, I feel like I'm in a whole new league in Thailand. I should call it my 3rd home, or did it become 2nd now?

The committee was really sweet and they got me a 2 pound birthday cake, with relation to our future profession as veterinarian; the cake's design was supppperr cute even the Japanese couldn't take it!!!!!!

I was really touched and happy. It shows the commitment and how genuine the Exchange officer and the committee is in organizing this conference. IF the next conference were to be held by Malaysia chapter, I feel super stressed out now!

The conference ended but our trip did not. We extended our stay till 16th, which I think I should save it for another post.

One of my FAVORITE shots*hint hint*

That night, T texted me for the first time. I didn't notice anything that night though.

On the side note, it is kind of official...? I mean, its through messaging and all you know how complicated things can get. But at least I know this is mutual, because I'm T's gorilla and T's my bear now. 

We had this chat when I was asking if T met someone new from the conference T had today, and T asked if I were jealous. 

T: Are you jealous?

Me: NO(a big fat YES), because I know where your heart belongs

T: Who is it?

Me:(Direct hit? No, its so not me) I think I know, but I'm not really sure...

T: I think you are absolutely right.

Me: (Like seriously you read my mind?) How do you know who am I thinking?

T: I don't know. Why don't you tell me?

Me: (SERIOUSLY??!!!) Well... (I struggled like nuts)

T: If you don't wanna answer the question, I won't ask you. (with a crying sticker)

Me: I want to answer!!!!!!!  But I'm scared! You want to answer for me?

T: *Love letter , love hug and kiss sticker*

Me: (Oemm GEE is this for real?) So I'm your gorilla, and you are my bear?

T: My gorilla is really warm and understanding.

Well, I guess that's enough. We have much to keep to ourselves.

I really hope this goes really well though! I'm looking forward in knowing more about T, and exploring both of ourselves for each other. I've been believing that, I would meet someone, some day, without the need to explore into dark lights and smoke smothering alcoholic venues; but just as two person who connects and really wish to spend the rest of their lives together.

I wonder how far we can make it.

Dreaming about T again tonight.

Buffetting : 1 week with T

It has been one week since T has started engaging with me, from the conference.

Great, I have yet to post about the 4th IVSA Asian Conference had I?

With busy family commitments, driver duties, and spending time (like all of it) with T; I guess posting about the experience will probably have to wait.

I'd promise I will post about it, it was where I got to meet T anyway.

We are still texting, that's for sure. 3 hours flight from each other, its like the only mean we have contacting each other.

Just 10 minutes ago, T was asking about a status I posted on the social media.

He asked, who is the "you" I have mentioned.

I was trying to be discreet and all, but hinting T by printing T's name in capslock.

T didn't exactly get it, when the conversation goes like this:

T: Who is the "you" in the status?

Tempus: Who do you think, CAPSLOCK NAME

T: I think its someone you miss a lot.

Tempus: Yes T. I miss meeting this person everyday face to face. Do you have someone you miss?

T: Yes I have.

Tempus: And who would that be?

T: I think you know my answer.

Tempus: Do yo know my answer?

T: Yes.

Green light? Yes, no? T did mention that knowing this person more will make T sure of whether this person is the person T has been looking for.

I mean, we do stuffs like, posting our meals for each other to see if we are actually eating, posting pictures of our daily lives like T in the field and me in the badminton court, T in lecture while me busy driving the sister around.

I guess we both needed more assurance, and hell I'd wish I can be assured, and be T's assurance.

I guess time would be our best aid as of now.

Will be dreaming about T tonight~

Buffetting : Promise

T and I have a promise now.

The next time I meet T, I would play the saxophone; and T would be singing the song I'm playing to me.

And the song, well, the MV speaks a million words.

Which song? Hmm, I wonder if I even should post it here.

As of now, I'm pretty sure its like, we are "Doing this" kind of thing, but we aren't EXACTLY yet?

But deep down inside I do ask myself, what does T really sees in me?

Would this be, just a surge like Bimbo had with her other copy in Chiang Mai, or would it be, for real good?


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