I can easily count the number of dates I have had before;
1st before I entered university in 2011
2nd when I was still with T in 2014
3rd when I got hooked up with Tinder thanks to Alex L in early 2016
4th when I really got hooked up with so many different other applications in mid 2016
And, I guess that was it.
There wasn't any common denominator among all the dates to boot.
To convince me to go for a date is pretty easy, just make me do it.
Most people I've met on applications are probably not daring enough to make me go for the dates, except for the 2 whom I have stated above.
Succumbing to SLSE myself, I guess. Not too sure it would be the same if I had my physique back in my primes.
However, there are some criteria I would really appreciate if the dates had:
- 178cm and above, because I'm already 185 myself. Can't really imagine a 170cm beside me though. This is not absolute, but height definitely would be one of the top considerations
- Physique, best would be those with regular sports like basketball or badminton. Gym physique ain't all that high and mighty, heck sometimes even with a little tummy it can be quite appealing. Plus I', no where near fit right now.
- Educated, not professor level but enough to put up an intelligent conversation which we both can enjoy our times together, or even joke about because time wouldn't be stretchy with the boring ones.
- Asians, East Asians are definitely best; but knowing myself with my mysterious foreigner magnet; I'm probably open to most. But the cinabengs, maybe not too appealing.
- Definitely someone who have at least got through college; meaning they are at least 24 years old. Some youngsters can be a pain, but that's because they have been through less comparatively.
- People who know what they want in life, are working for it, and actually would make effort to get me to the dates. If you want me, you need to come get it.
Saying all these, I'm still not going for any dates after the last one. Probably because I'm not the dating type.
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Sunday, August 28, 2016
Monday, August 22, 2016
Auscultating : Attention seeker
Living alone in my own house away from my family made me realize how much I'd actually deprive from attention, from my family that is.
I probably brought the whole formula to myself.
At one point, when I go home, my family would be talking about each other's life like my elder sister's daughter, my brother's and younger sister's badminton log books; seldom about me. At most times I just feel like my presence there is just to fill the family quota full or do my job as a family member there. When I talk about my stuffs, most of the time its just a touch and go, like my grades, a bit of my plans, or my work which no one in the family could relate to. Fair enough, I couldn't relate to their badminton lives as well.
On the other hand, I avoid questions like when will I start dating; am I still together with Queen(which obviously she and I laughed about all the time). Ever since high school I've managed to sort things out for myself most of the time, and things usually work out well to my satisfaction without any need of parental or familial involvement. Most of the time I only consult them in matters which matter.
You see, I've made myself so much as a negligible presence in the equation; intentionally and unintentionally. I do enjoy the freedom from home like sparing myself from the ache of thinking what's today's dinner, the endless chores or unnecessary work at home; yet when I'm back at home sitting with everyone, I can't help feeling that I no longer fit into the family, as in what I do doesn't really matter or change anything around.
Even when I talked about my grades recently, the conversation held about 5 minutes and it ends abruptly.
I believe I am an attention seeker. Probably the attention I lack or do not want from the family brought me to other platforms like school and university. Weird enough I connect better with non-familial backgrounds than my own family.
Maybe again, its because I have extra time that I could think about this. In 2 weeks' time I probably would just immerse in school work again until I finally would graduate.
It's just another 9 more months and I will be in the market. I really wonder on which should I be prioritizing in life- family, friends, health, career or passion.
Dates? Haha, I wonder who would want to date a person like me.
I probably brought the whole formula to myself.
At one point, when I go home, my family would be talking about each other's life like my elder sister's daughter, my brother's and younger sister's badminton log books; seldom about me. At most times I just feel like my presence there is just to fill the family quota full or do my job as a family member there. When I talk about my stuffs, most of the time its just a touch and go, like my grades, a bit of my plans, or my work which no one in the family could relate to. Fair enough, I couldn't relate to their badminton lives as well.
On the other hand, I avoid questions like when will I start dating; am I still together with Queen(which obviously she and I laughed about all the time). Ever since high school I've managed to sort things out for myself most of the time, and things usually work out well to my satisfaction without any need of parental or familial involvement. Most of the time I only consult them in matters which matter.
You see, I've made myself so much as a negligible presence in the equation; intentionally and unintentionally. I do enjoy the freedom from home like sparing myself from the ache of thinking what's today's dinner, the endless chores or unnecessary work at home; yet when I'm back at home sitting with everyone, I can't help feeling that I no longer fit into the family, as in what I do doesn't really matter or change anything around.
Even when I talked about my grades recently, the conversation held about 5 minutes and it ends abruptly.
I believe I am an attention seeker. Probably the attention I lack or do not want from the family brought me to other platforms like school and university. Weird enough I connect better with non-familial backgrounds than my own family.
Maybe again, its because I have extra time that I could think about this. In 2 weeks' time I probably would just immerse in school work again until I finally would graduate.
It's just another 9 more months and I will be in the market. I really wonder on which should I be prioritizing in life- family, friends, health, career or passion.
Dates? Haha, I wonder who would want to date a person like me.
Friday, July 29, 2016
Auscultating : Finally Sax
I've finally sat down, made a call, decided that it's high time for me to take saxophone classes seriously.
Albeit stepping into final year, I'd figure saxophone classes would give myself some me time, away from the faculty, classes and hell ya drama before I step into the crude working world.
That aside, it has been my dream to learn about the ever mind boggling music notes so that I would be music literate at least.
Of course I don't see myself making a name out of the jazz biz, but I do see myself hanging out in jazz bistro with the vest and bow tie one day, jazzing my way out into meeting someone maybe.
Because apps haven't been of real use to meet people, and they are usually taken.
It's alright, I'd figure I'm probably not the app user type; saxophone or a new hobby puts me out there to meet more new people, hopefully.
Wow, its gonna be August already. Wasn't it like yesterday when 2016 just knocked? Here comes 2017, and hell yes graduation.
Probably would be a good idea to set targets before I get astray by the end of the year.
Till the next post on the graduation trip!
Albeit stepping into final year, I'd figure saxophone classes would give myself some me time, away from the faculty, classes and hell ya drama before I step into the crude working world.
That aside, it has been my dream to learn about the ever mind boggling music notes so that I would be music literate at least.
Of course I don't see myself making a name out of the jazz biz, but I do see myself hanging out in jazz bistro with the vest and bow tie one day, jazzing my way out into meeting someone maybe.
Because apps haven't been of real use to meet people, and they are usually taken.
It's alright, I'd figure I'm probably not the app user type; saxophone or a new hobby puts me out there to meet more new people, hopefully.
Wow, its gonna be August already. Wasn't it like yesterday when 2016 just knocked? Here comes 2017, and hell yes graduation.
Probably would be a good idea to set targets before I get astray by the end of the year.
Till the next post on the graduation trip!
Friday, March 11, 2016
Auscultating : Dogathon 2015
It happened in 2016 this time round due to a rabies outbreak last year, leading to a ban in dog activities by our dean in September.
However, the spirit still remains and the crowd we had this year was rowdier than ever!
Being my 5th year in Dogathon, I've finally jumped out the force labor bandwagon and get into skilled labor this year instead.
Medieval called this year with our furry friends, for the theme revolving all elements to make Dogathon 2015 a success; bravo to all decor, promotional leaflets, videos as well games!
Being the skilled labor, I volunteered in the Physical Examination booth for the event in the earliest slot. Plenty of people do not understand why I had to wake up at 5.30 am in that morning to help out; because I had to attend the shift for dog race participants come at 6 am!
I had to pair with a 5th year senior for her to guide me through the PE since she was the experienced one, but I basically work well with all DVM 5s so the whole day was a breeze~What we do as volunteers there basically is to check on the basic health of the dogs participating Dogathon to see if they are fit with criteria such as:
- not severely infested with tick
- puppies unvaccinated completely
- bitches on heat
- overly uncooperative dogs.
It was really fun being the PE labor because I get to see a lot of different owners and dogs, communicating with them as well as practicing history taking. While I need to be extremely careful to not make any suggestions to the owners as I am yet a licensed vet, I enjoyed the whole process despite the sweat and a dog bite from a 30kg German Shepard Dog.
This year, I even had the chance to help out in performing the PE for Malaysia's Fire Fighting Squad dogs, for they are the sweetest dogs around! They were Cockerspaniels and Labradors trained in UK to scent out flammables like kerosene when they work with their partners in missions. I didn't realize I was being filmed, despite that my senior managed to mask my face.
I only had till 10.30 am around the event bec
ause I had to attend cases in the Large Animal Ward under my ruminant rotation, but it was good enough for me to make a good stroll to meet people I know.
The event is a noble and fun one, hopefully it doesn't stop after this year's!
However, the spirit still remains and the crowd we had this year was rowdier than ever!
Being my 5th year in Dogathon, I've finally jumped out the force labor bandwagon and get into skilled labor this year instead.
Medieval called this year with our furry friends, for the theme revolving all elements to make Dogathon 2015 a success; bravo to all decor, promotional leaflets, videos as well games!
Being the skilled labor, I volunteered in the Physical Examination booth for the event in the earliest slot. Plenty of people do not understand why I had to wake up at 5.30 am in that morning to help out; because I had to attend the shift for dog race participants come at 6 am!
I had to pair with a 5th year senior for her to guide me through the PE since she was the experienced one, but I basically work well with all DVM 5s so the whole day was a breeze~What we do as volunteers there basically is to check on the basic health of the dogs participating Dogathon to see if they are fit with criteria such as:
- not severely infested with tick
- puppies unvaccinated completely
- bitches on heat
- overly uncooperative dogs.
It was really fun being the PE labor because I get to see a lot of different owners and dogs, communicating with them as well as practicing history taking. While I need to be extremely careful to not make any suggestions to the owners as I am yet a licensed vet, I enjoyed the whole process despite the sweat and a dog bite from a 30kg German Shepard Dog.
This year, I even had the chance to help out in performing the PE for Malaysia's Fire Fighting Squad dogs, for they are the sweetest dogs around! They were Cockerspaniels and Labradors trained in UK to scent out flammables like kerosene when they work with their partners in missions. I didn't realize I was being filmed, despite that my senior managed to mask my face.
I only had till 10.30 am around the event bec
The event is a noble and fun one, hopefully it doesn't stop after this year's!
Friday, February 26, 2016
Auscultating : Holy Matrimony
Marriage have been a tradition to tie two person, traditionally a man and woman together as an official ritual that they will forever be as one until death do them apart.
However, how holy have past marriages in histories were?
1- Princes and princesses married because they had to foster ties between countries to prevent war. Holy perhaps.
2- People from influential families with businesses married they children to foster better trading relationships. Holy, for who?
3- A guy who couldn't hold his lust back married with the lady he trampled physically. Holy, really?
Today, we constantly say that we should be together and be married to the person we hold dear most. How far out possible would that be?
Watching the "Little Nyonya", we had 2 distinct examples in ladies fighting for their marriages.
a- Yue Niang, who have been a fighter to begin with; beat all odds and managed to only marry the man she knew she loved, Paul.
b- Yu Zhu, who have been nothing but a Malacca sweetheart from the dawn of the series; wished to fight like Yue Niang whom she looked up to, only to succumb to her familial responsibilities and married the man who trampled her before and after marriage.
Now what about us? Will we choose to marry the people whom we only see dear in our eyes?
Or would be be subjected to familial, peer or social obligations to marry someone else whom we had to marry, just because the reasons of which everyone else but ourselves pin on us?
Yue Niang defied everyone, got hurt and scalded herself throughout her struggle to liberty; and she had what she wanted despite all odd.
Yu Zhu, although the nicest darling of all time; in the end gave in to fate because she had to be the catalyst for the incompetence her brother and father pulled off in business.
Which route would you pick for your own? Be mindful that we can always speak what we want right now; when the situation is subjugated by everything else but ourselves, will you struggle?
However, how holy have past marriages in histories were?
1- Princes and princesses married because they had to foster ties between countries to prevent war. Holy perhaps.
2- People from influential families with businesses married they children to foster better trading relationships. Holy, for who?
3- A guy who couldn't hold his lust back married with the lady he trampled physically. Holy, really?
Today, we constantly say that we should be together and be married to the person we hold dear most. How far out possible would that be?
Watching the "Little Nyonya", we had 2 distinct examples in ladies fighting for their marriages.
a- Yue Niang, who have been a fighter to begin with; beat all odds and managed to only marry the man she knew she loved, Paul.
b- Yu Zhu, who have been nothing but a Malacca sweetheart from the dawn of the series; wished to fight like Yue Niang whom she looked up to, only to succumb to her familial responsibilities and married the man who trampled her before and after marriage.
Now what about us? Will we choose to marry the people whom we only see dear in our eyes?
Or would be be subjected to familial, peer or social obligations to marry someone else whom we had to marry, just because the reasons of which everyone else but ourselves pin on us?
Yue Niang defied everyone, got hurt and scalded herself throughout her struggle to liberty; and she had what she wanted despite all odd.
Yu Zhu, although the nicest darling of all time; in the end gave in to fate because she had to be the catalyst for the incompetence her brother and father pulled off in business.
Which route would you pick for your own? Be mindful that we can always speak what we want right now; when the situation is subjugated by everything else but ourselves, will you struggle?
Monday, January 18, 2016
Auscultating : Date 1
So L and I had our date in NU Sentral today.
It was okay, very decent dinner and discussion over 2 hours.
We talked about our work, our family, our high school and tertiary.
Just like any adults would.
L had to head back to work after due to peak season around the work place, so it ended there.
L insisted for a 2nd date, which I was okay with it.
However, a little voice inside me somehow sounded different.
To be realistic, L is pretty okay as a candidate. Working at a very young age and seemingly able to get promoted to the next level quite quickly. L had vision, have great plans for future career pathway, as well as a decent familial background.
Despite all these traits, I don't seemed to feel the romance.
Maybe its me being overly rational, or very steady. Or maybe because I'm older.
Or maybe because I was expecting a more dominant personality, which I think L probably wouldn't be offering.
I don't know. L doesn't seemed to be the one.
Or, its me because I don't need this yet. I don't have the need to be bound while I'm trying to seek for myself in my studies as well as my future career outcomes.
People often say, get one while you are progressing so the one will be your catalyst to a higher level.
But I feel like, I probably do not need this right now. All I need is to study hard, get to my dream job and dream place, and let relationship start after I'm all settled.
At least that's how I interpreted the date.
So as so, I've decided to give 2 more swipes in the social app, and plan to deactivate and uninstall it at 12am today; which I actually did.
The last chat was pretty much lame because the person wanted a fling, an experienced one so to speak; which I couldn't offer because I'm still a virgin. The precise words were:
"Virgin isn't an added value. I need experienced life partner."
Which I didn't find it offensive, but the person being really sex driven.
Of course all human are sexually driven, boys like me even more. But really, there are other apps for sex or flings out there.
Thanks to that, I've uninstalled the application and I'm now again a free man.
Well, I still have a date with L again; but that's after CNY anyways.
I promised to keep in touch, but I really have no idea should I be bothered to go on to more than just dates.
It was okay, very decent dinner and discussion over 2 hours.
We talked about our work, our family, our high school and tertiary.
Just like any adults would.
L had to head back to work after due to peak season around the work place, so it ended there.
L insisted for a 2nd date, which I was okay with it.
However, a little voice inside me somehow sounded different.
To be realistic, L is pretty okay as a candidate. Working at a very young age and seemingly able to get promoted to the next level quite quickly. L had vision, have great plans for future career pathway, as well as a decent familial background.
Despite all these traits, I don't seemed to feel the romance.
Maybe its me being overly rational, or very steady. Or maybe because I'm older.
Or maybe because I was expecting a more dominant personality, which I think L probably wouldn't be offering.
I don't know. L doesn't seemed to be the one.
Or, its me because I don't need this yet. I don't have the need to be bound while I'm trying to seek for myself in my studies as well as my future career outcomes.
People often say, get one while you are progressing so the one will be your catalyst to a higher level.
But I feel like, I probably do not need this right now. All I need is to study hard, get to my dream job and dream place, and let relationship start after I'm all settled.
At least that's how I interpreted the date.
So as so, I've decided to give 2 more swipes in the social app, and plan to deactivate and uninstall it at 12am today; which I actually did.
The last chat was pretty much lame because the person wanted a fling, an experienced one so to speak; which I couldn't offer because I'm still a virgin. The precise words were:
"Virgin isn't an added value. I need experienced life partner."
Which I didn't find it offensive, but the person being really sex driven.
Of course all human are sexually driven, boys like me even more. But really, there are other apps for sex or flings out there.
Thanks to that, I've uninstalled the application and I'm now again a free man.
Well, I still have a date with L again; but that's after CNY anyways.
I promised to keep in touch, but I really have no idea should I be bothered to go on to more than just dates.
Friday, January 15, 2016
Auscultating : What is it for you?
Stepping into clinical years seemed to have push all vet students beyond their limits.
Catching up with grades, picking up skills while not forgetting them, and the hardest one among the bunch; deciding our direction.
Veterinary medicine, unlike human medicine offers several different sub branches depending on their species including:
1- Feline and canine medicine
2- Exotic medicine
3- Wildlife and conservation medicine
4- Marine medicine
5- Aquatic medicine
6- Avian medicine
7- Equine medicine
8- Ruminant medicine
9- Population medicine
with each medicine branch of species, there are sub-branches which we usually see in human medicine:
1- Internal medicine
2- Anesthesiology and emergency medicine
3- Radiology
4- Cardiology
5- Hepatobiliary
6- Urogenital
7- Neonatal/Pediatric
8- Dermatology
9- Pulmonary
10- Sports and orthopaedics
And the list goes on.
So the question now is, what is it for you? In this case what is it for me?
Looking through profiles these days, I sometimes do wonder if it would be easier if I'd just taken human medicine and have a diploma in aesthetic medicine aka plastic surgery and make a good living in the city as a typical city boy.
But I feel like I wouldn't be done there. I will have decent living and great pay, but life is pretty meaningless, at least from my end. While I've done the 16personalities.com test and found out I am a ESFJ-T, I know I wouldn't be satisfied with just the usual decent living.
Add that to my recent exposure to multiple episodes of delivering information, I somewhat feel like the veterinary profession really have had been a true calling for me.
I've never been so excited to get into a case scenario, trying to build all stages of process for the patient's time line including:
History- Signs- Physical Examination - Ancillary Tests - Diagnostic Tools - Treatment - Follow Up.
Every stage requires skill and decent knowledge to direct the practitioner to the correct path in getting the disease proven with evidence and proceed to treatment. Unlike humans, our patients can't tell us what they are suffering from and we need to pay an extra care in digging more history as well as picking up signs or thorough physical examination.
And explaining the causes, the predisposition, the processes and effect to both clients and my colleagues seemed to be an enthralling experience for me too. I've yet to confirm whether if I'd actually enjoy teaching or just simply because I'd enjoy the process of knowing something someone else doesn't; but I know throughout the process when someone else nods and tells me
" It became so much easier when you said it Robinn!"
It becomes a higher drive for me to learn more and re-iterate them to people so they can pick things up easier.
On the other hand. working in medicine with direct hands on skills such as anesthesia usage, venipuncture, diagnostic tools handling like ultrasound or radiographs too fascinates me a lot. I would definitely wish to dwell in so much more clinical work so I get to be skilled over just theories in my head.
To date, I've decided to aim for the Japanese government scholarship again, and hopefully I do get a positive response by April 2017, then I will begin my journey to my next phase of PhD in October 2017, hopefully after my graduation.
On the other hand, I'll be heading for my first date through the app Alex insisted for me to use, let's call this person L. L is pretty enthusiastic from all the voice messages sent, hopefully it would be a good one.
Goodness, there goes my principle of not going into the dating game.
Catching up with grades, picking up skills while not forgetting them, and the hardest one among the bunch; deciding our direction.
Veterinary medicine, unlike human medicine offers several different sub branches depending on their species including:
1- Feline and canine medicine
2- Exotic medicine
3- Wildlife and conservation medicine
4- Marine medicine
5- Aquatic medicine
6- Avian medicine
7- Equine medicine
8- Ruminant medicine
9- Population medicine
with each medicine branch of species, there are sub-branches which we usually see in human medicine:
1- Internal medicine
2- Anesthesiology and emergency medicine
3- Radiology
4- Cardiology
5- Hepatobiliary
6- Urogenital
7- Neonatal/Pediatric
8- Dermatology
9- Pulmonary
10- Sports and orthopaedics
And the list goes on.
So the question now is, what is it for you? In this case what is it for me?
Looking through profiles these days, I sometimes do wonder if it would be easier if I'd just taken human medicine and have a diploma in aesthetic medicine aka plastic surgery and make a good living in the city as a typical city boy.
But I feel like I wouldn't be done there. I will have decent living and great pay, but life is pretty meaningless, at least from my end. While I've done the 16personalities.com test and found out I am a ESFJ-T, I know I wouldn't be satisfied with just the usual decent living.
Add that to my recent exposure to multiple episodes of delivering information, I somewhat feel like the veterinary profession really have had been a true calling for me.
I've never been so excited to get into a case scenario, trying to build all stages of process for the patient's time line including:
History- Signs- Physical Examination - Ancillary Tests - Diagnostic Tools - Treatment - Follow Up.
Every stage requires skill and decent knowledge to direct the practitioner to the correct path in getting the disease proven with evidence and proceed to treatment. Unlike humans, our patients can't tell us what they are suffering from and we need to pay an extra care in digging more history as well as picking up signs or thorough physical examination.
And explaining the causes, the predisposition, the processes and effect to both clients and my colleagues seemed to be an enthralling experience for me too. I've yet to confirm whether if I'd actually enjoy teaching or just simply because I'd enjoy the process of knowing something someone else doesn't; but I know throughout the process when someone else nods and tells me
" It became so much easier when you said it Robinn!"
It becomes a higher drive for me to learn more and re-iterate them to people so they can pick things up easier.
On the other hand. working in medicine with direct hands on skills such as anesthesia usage, venipuncture, diagnostic tools handling like ultrasound or radiographs too fascinates me a lot. I would definitely wish to dwell in so much more clinical work so I get to be skilled over just theories in my head.
To date, I've decided to aim for the Japanese government scholarship again, and hopefully I do get a positive response by April 2017, then I will begin my journey to my next phase of PhD in October 2017, hopefully after my graduation.
On the other hand, I'll be heading for my first date through the app Alex insisted for me to use, let's call this person L. L is pretty enthusiastic from all the voice messages sent, hopefully it would be a good one.
Goodness, there goes my principle of not going into the dating game.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Auscultating : Ending 2015
I can't believe this is the last day of the year already! One more year's ending to welcome another year's beginning; by the time this happens in another 365 days I would be in my last year of undergraduate vet school! Hopefully by that time I would be able to secure a good post-graduate program.
Yet, as they say, keep your hopes there but never too high.
Let's see what 2015 have been all about:
January 2015:
Most of the time was actually spent on practicals and gaining weight I would say. The mediocre week in Penang for equine rotation and 2 awesome weeks of small animal rotation in Healing Rooms went by extremely fast, I barely have had enough time to digest everything. With finals end and stepping into immediate extra-mural practicals, I have little to no space for any personal development. Yet, time was indeed well spent.
February 2015:
I finally fulfilled one of my teenage dream to step into Japan as a conference participant of Vet Youth Summit Japan. It was literally the best decision I've made in my life, as the whole trip there literally opened up my horizon of views, thoughts, perception and decisions; allowing myself to actually feel it in my blood that the road I've paved for myself up till today was worth while. Meeting new friends from all over the world and making a point that I'm pretty much a natural attention seeker wherever I go, I fell in lover over and over again in Japan when I had the short 10 days stay. While spending the first Chinese New Year away from home and alone was a different type of undertaking, I'd thoroughly enjoyed my walk down the different path.
March 2015:
Stepping into the clinical years of veterinary school surely have taken its toll on me. The subjects now require extensive understanding and much more memorization of details and bits which I've not dealt with before. Plenty of skill-related development was also required throughout the attainment of knowledge at this phase, but I sure have enjoyed all the moments, despite the late night sleep and tiredness after a whole day of lecture or surgery class.
April 2015:
While we have had intensive classes back to back, the best thing about our faculty is that we make the effort to put ourselves into the whole "Holistic" category kinda thing. I'm pretty sure we are the only medicine or science based faculty which organizes annual sports and drama event to instill the organizational abilities, sportsmanship and creativity skills in all our faculty members, including the lecturers. Majilis Silatrahim this year was all about Crime and Justice, and all I need to dress up as was my dad's retired police uniform. While most seniors complained that I was the fattest and most corrupted policeman they've seen; I sure have had fun in getting the attention I needed
May 2015:
While most people died trying to stay in the class, I died trying to get out of the class. This time of the year marked the 2nd time for me to fly out of the country to Bangkok as a volunteer under IVSA in the 2015 WSAVA Congress. My semester results might have screwed up big time because of this, but I did not once regretted my decision to do this because I've met so many people and veterinarians all over the world, not to mention make a huge declaration to the Malaysian community that I exist.
On the other hand I've finally stepped down as my last stint of organizational position as the PEC President of the university, not like I've done anything great, and continued with my studies full time.
June 2015:
June marks the end of the 2nd academic semester of the year and one step close to nightmares like practical tests, oral tests and finals. I totally went through a nightmare this semester because of all the extra-faculty activities I put myself through. Despite my results turning out to be pretty much the worst in my whole DVM life, I'd still say I've survived the semester well. All I wanted was the semester to end fast and for me to continue with my practicals I've been dying for in Thailand and Japan.
July 2015:
Stepping into another country for practical for the 2nd time and my 3rd flight of the year, Mahidol University in Kanchanaburi was the bomb. I had the chance to be part of the wildlife rescue team to go into the forest reserve, had great time over the weekend in the natural forest, draw blood from elephants, monitor the anesthesia of a tiger, draw blood from a horse, vaccinate 100 to 200 sheep and goats, deworming flocks of chicken and geese, explore Kanchanaburi a little bit more in the Tham Ma Sae gorge and railway station, and the best of all; made friends with so many Thai friends plus a Spanish or two. Mahidol University have offered one of the best rotations I've ever had. I'm forever lucky like that. The only downside I had throughout the placement here was the weakness I gave in to hope for a 2nd chance with T; only to know that in fact T and I were just over for real. I was so done with the answers T have given then. T unfriended me on the social media once to allow both of us to move on at one point, only to readd me again later on while we have yet to spoke to each other since then. On the other hand, N began to have advances when I was shown to have a few Mahidol acquaintances.
August 2015:
Do I have to say more? This was the BEST month of my life this year. Why? Japan, JAPAN, JAPAAAANNNNNN. I've spent 6 months planning the whole up to 30 days stay in Japan with budget of RM6K, and experienced Japan throughout the whole Island.
Before my practical, I went to Osaka again to finish up my unfinished trip back in February.
After that, I've managed to conquer the South Japan Island; Yamaguchi for 3 weeks as I was having my laboratory practicals there. I've learned a lot on lab skills including first hand PCR, immunostaining, immunoblotting, ELISA test kit using, anatomical slides staining, post mortem on a horse as well as first hand experience of clinic consultation plus surgery practices in Yamaguchi University.
Apart from that, I was extremely luck to have great friends to bring me to Hiroshima, Shimonoseki and Kitakyushu, while I explored Hagi, Tsuwano and Yamaguchi myself.
With a good ride to Ube-Yamaguchi, I again had great friends in the North Japan Island; Hokkaido for 5 days around Sapporo, Arakwa and Otaru.
Before I end my trip; I had a great 6 days tour around Central Japan of Tokyo with a bit of help of Tokyo friends around Tokyo vicinity and relived all my childhood dreams with Digimon.
September 2015:
Finally the real clinical years have begun! Stepping into the faculty again at this point was super exciting because it simply was just so fun! New subjects with a combination of old ones plus complete freedom to practice our skills and knowledge on veterinary medicine at this point was just simply amazing! Stepping into DVM 4 was definitely what all vet students have been waiting for in their lives. I've not been enjoying studies as crazy as this since STPM!
October 2015:
I finally stepped into small animal rotations in the wards! I've never had so much fun before, despite the fact that I need to wake up at 6 am in the morning and reach home only about 10pm at night; I thoroughly enjoyed my rotation in wards learning about the medicine and surgical protocols I will be using in the future to treat my patients! Despite all odds of having my original last Course Night in my last day of rotations, I've managed to make it to the course night with my Yukata piece I got from Osaka!
November 2015:
The whole November just went on and on with numerous numbers of tests which I do sulk a lot about, but still adamantly enjoyed the torture my lecturers put me through. While maintaining a considerable busy life schedule and sufficiently standard in my academics, I'm pretty happy I've managed my time well and not stumbled in my academics like I did in my previous semester. Being more attentive and high in attendance in class do have its perks in getting better results.
December 2015:
As the year mark its end with my semester ending as well, I've finally settled down with my new home with certain tolerable amount of furniture to throw a small welcoming party in the last day of the semester. People from my both academic years turned out and they enjoyed each others' company very well, I have never been more blessed to get the best of both worlds from Vetsouls and Kakijalan. I might have been cursed with the split identity, but I'm definitely blessed with different pots of good soup for the soul.
Stepping into 2015 means, stepping into another year of reality and adulthood. I will begin taking in tenants for my new home while I continue to hone skills to be a full-fledged veterinarian.
It's somewhat exciting yet intimidating, but I'm sure my bold and brawns will conquer all.
On the other note, thanks to Alex and Jboy's recommendation I've finally got myself hooked up with one of those apps they have for dating. I guess I need to broaden my horizons, despite a few surprises of faces I've seen around.
Have great new year people.
Yet, as they say, keep your hopes there but never too high.
Let's see what 2015 have been all about:
January 2015:
Most of the time was actually spent on practicals and gaining weight I would say. The mediocre week in Penang for equine rotation and 2 awesome weeks of small animal rotation in Healing Rooms went by extremely fast, I barely have had enough time to digest everything. With finals end and stepping into immediate extra-mural practicals, I have little to no space for any personal development. Yet, time was indeed well spent.
February 2015:
I finally fulfilled one of my teenage dream to step into Japan as a conference participant of Vet Youth Summit Japan. It was literally the best decision I've made in my life, as the whole trip there literally opened up my horizon of views, thoughts, perception and decisions; allowing myself to actually feel it in my blood that the road I've paved for myself up till today was worth while. Meeting new friends from all over the world and making a point that I'm pretty much a natural attention seeker wherever I go, I fell in lover over and over again in Japan when I had the short 10 days stay. While spending the first Chinese New Year away from home and alone was a different type of undertaking, I'd thoroughly enjoyed my walk down the different path.
March 2015:
Stepping into the clinical years of veterinary school surely have taken its toll on me. The subjects now require extensive understanding and much more memorization of details and bits which I've not dealt with before. Plenty of skill-related development was also required throughout the attainment of knowledge at this phase, but I sure have enjoyed all the moments, despite the late night sleep and tiredness after a whole day of lecture or surgery class.
April 2015:
While we have had intensive classes back to back, the best thing about our faculty is that we make the effort to put ourselves into the whole "Holistic" category kinda thing. I'm pretty sure we are the only medicine or science based faculty which organizes annual sports and drama event to instill the organizational abilities, sportsmanship and creativity skills in all our faculty members, including the lecturers. Majilis Silatrahim this year was all about Crime and Justice, and all I need to dress up as was my dad's retired police uniform. While most seniors complained that I was the fattest and most corrupted policeman they've seen; I sure have had fun in getting the attention I needed
May 2015:
While most people died trying to stay in the class, I died trying to get out of the class. This time of the year marked the 2nd time for me to fly out of the country to Bangkok as a volunteer under IVSA in the 2015 WSAVA Congress. My semester results might have screwed up big time because of this, but I did not once regretted my decision to do this because I've met so many people and veterinarians all over the world, not to mention make a huge declaration to the Malaysian community that I exist.
On the other hand I've finally stepped down as my last stint of organizational position as the PEC President of the university, not like I've done anything great, and continued with my studies full time.
June 2015:
June marks the end of the 2nd academic semester of the year and one step close to nightmares like practical tests, oral tests and finals. I totally went through a nightmare this semester because of all the extra-faculty activities I put myself through. Despite my results turning out to be pretty much the worst in my whole DVM life, I'd still say I've survived the semester well. All I wanted was the semester to end fast and for me to continue with my practicals I've been dying for in Thailand and Japan.
July 2015:
Stepping into another country for practical for the 2nd time and my 3rd flight of the year, Mahidol University in Kanchanaburi was the bomb. I had the chance to be part of the wildlife rescue team to go into the forest reserve, had great time over the weekend in the natural forest, draw blood from elephants, monitor the anesthesia of a tiger, draw blood from a horse, vaccinate 100 to 200 sheep and goats, deworming flocks of chicken and geese, explore Kanchanaburi a little bit more in the Tham Ma Sae gorge and railway station, and the best of all; made friends with so many Thai friends plus a Spanish or two. Mahidol University have offered one of the best rotations I've ever had. I'm forever lucky like that. The only downside I had throughout the placement here was the weakness I gave in to hope for a 2nd chance with T; only to know that in fact T and I were just over for real. I was so done with the answers T have given then. T unfriended me on the social media once to allow both of us to move on at one point, only to readd me again later on while we have yet to spoke to each other since then. On the other hand, N began to have advances when I was shown to have a few Mahidol acquaintances.
August 2015:
Do I have to say more? This was the BEST month of my life this year. Why? Japan, JAPAN, JAPAAAANNNNNN. I've spent 6 months planning the whole up to 30 days stay in Japan with budget of RM6K, and experienced Japan throughout the whole Island.
Before my practical, I went to Osaka again to finish up my unfinished trip back in February.
After that, I've managed to conquer the South Japan Island; Yamaguchi for 3 weeks as I was having my laboratory practicals there. I've learned a lot on lab skills including first hand PCR, immunostaining, immunoblotting, ELISA test kit using, anatomical slides staining, post mortem on a horse as well as first hand experience of clinic consultation plus surgery practices in Yamaguchi University.
Apart from that, I was extremely luck to have great friends to bring me to Hiroshima, Shimonoseki and Kitakyushu, while I explored Hagi, Tsuwano and Yamaguchi myself.
With a good ride to Ube-Yamaguchi, I again had great friends in the North Japan Island; Hokkaido for 5 days around Sapporo, Arakwa and Otaru.
Before I end my trip; I had a great 6 days tour around Central Japan of Tokyo with a bit of help of Tokyo friends around Tokyo vicinity and relived all my childhood dreams with Digimon.
September 2015:
Finally the real clinical years have begun! Stepping into the faculty again at this point was super exciting because it simply was just so fun! New subjects with a combination of old ones plus complete freedom to practice our skills and knowledge on veterinary medicine at this point was just simply amazing! Stepping into DVM 4 was definitely what all vet students have been waiting for in their lives. I've not been enjoying studies as crazy as this since STPM!
October 2015:
I finally stepped into small animal rotations in the wards! I've never had so much fun before, despite the fact that I need to wake up at 6 am in the morning and reach home only about 10pm at night; I thoroughly enjoyed my rotation in wards learning about the medicine and surgical protocols I will be using in the future to treat my patients! Despite all odds of having my original last Course Night in my last day of rotations, I've managed to make it to the course night with my Yukata piece I got from Osaka!
November 2015:
The whole November just went on and on with numerous numbers of tests which I do sulk a lot about, but still adamantly enjoyed the torture my lecturers put me through. While maintaining a considerable busy life schedule and sufficiently standard in my academics, I'm pretty happy I've managed my time well and not stumbled in my academics like I did in my previous semester. Being more attentive and high in attendance in class do have its perks in getting better results.
December 2015:
As the year mark its end with my semester ending as well, I've finally settled down with my new home with certain tolerable amount of furniture to throw a small welcoming party in the last day of the semester. People from my both academic years turned out and they enjoyed each others' company very well, I have never been more blessed to get the best of both worlds from Vetsouls and Kakijalan. I might have been cursed with the split identity, but I'm definitely blessed with different pots of good soup for the soul.
Stepping into 2015 means, stepping into another year of reality and adulthood. I will begin taking in tenants for my new home while I continue to hone skills to be a full-fledged veterinarian.
It's somewhat exciting yet intimidating, but I'm sure my bold and brawns will conquer all.
On the other note, thanks to Alex and Jboy's recommendation I've finally got myself hooked up with one of those apps they have for dating. I guess I need to broaden my horizons, despite a few surprises of faces I've seen around.
Have great new year people.
Monday, December 21, 2015
Auscultating : Courses taken on Sem 9
Finally, the 14 weeks of craziness came to an end!
No more waking up at 7 or 6.30am,
No more ending classes at 7pm on Tuesdays,
No more weekly tests!
I'd swear I have had the most test in this semester compared to any other before. Literally every week we have had tests waiting.
While it was extremely tiring to anticipate all the tests, I have to say I've enjoyed the semester thoroughly.
The subjects taken this semester were:
1- Clinical Medicine
2- Avian Medicine
3- Applied Statistics
4- Theriogenology
5- Surgery of the body systems
6- Clinical rotation
1-Clinical Medicine:
Clinical medicine basically was a sequel to Clinical Skills we had last semester, by its name on clinical medicine, we dabbled a lot on various body systems and the common diseases which had high prevalence in our country. From cardiovascular to ocular system, we take a basic tour on what clinical signs we could see, the way to diagnose and confirm the disease as well as the first line management and treatment to improve the quality of life of the patient. I loved this subject a lot because its very medicine based, and I could relate a lot more. I wouldn't say I was the best scoring student, but I'm sure I will be able to make wise judgement in various approaches to the medicine.
2- Avian Medicine:
Among all subjects, I would say I have the least affinity for this subject. Probably because I knew I wouldn't be venturing into the avian industry in the future. Nevertheless, my marks for the subject turn out to be pretty much a huge surprise, despite the fact that I put the least effort in it. Avian medicine covers all infectious and non-infectious diseases affecting the domestic birds like chicken, ducks, pheasants, geese and turkey, with a little touch and go on the pet and wild birds like humming birds, parrots, cockatoos and love birds. The diseases in birds are intimidatingly vast with much in depth research explored thanks to the effort of various industry players all over the world. Let's see if I can score an A for this subject after the finals
3- Applied Statistics.
Everyone literally was dumbfounded when they saw this subject in the list. Why on earth would veterinarians need to learn about statistics? Does medical students actually have a course in this as well? Apparently, statistics is indeed important, in so many ways I couldn't have imagined before taking the course. From comparing effects of treatment between sample groups to the epidemiological status of a disease, the application of statistics is just limitless. I enjoyed the subject throughout, though I would say I should have invested a bit more time on it
4- Theriogenology
I'm not too certain if human medicine does this, but basically this course encompasses the reproductive cycle in various domestic animals. The estrus cycle, the gestation period, hormonal cycle, methods in inducing and maintaining the pregnancy, care post-partum as well as various ideas in improving reproduction efficiency of domestic animals. Plenty would probably think that we are playing god, but we are actually optimizing reproductive cylcles, which even human medicine can employ. I enjoyed this subject basically because it dealt a lot with ruminants, which I have had a lot of chances to relate to.
5- Surgery of the body systems:
A continuity from the surgery and anesthesia course last semester, the surgery this semester focused more on different body systems. There are usually diseases which indicate the surgeries' necessity, which we will need to look into the clinical signs, make a conclusive diagnosis of the diseases and employ the approaches towards the surgery. Surgery indeed is an art, literally. We were anesthetists, tailors, carpenters and veterinarians all in the same package; because everything we do in the surgery affects the outcome of the surgery and the subsequent lifespan on the patient. I would say surgery is probably not my turf, but I indeed enjoyed the part as anesthetist a lot.
6- Clinical rotation
This is probably the best among the bunch. Clinical rotation marked as the most taxing subject and the closest we can get to practicing as a veterinarian. Entering different departments in the faculty, we participate either a whole week's course or a one day course in the designated rotated department from small animal medicine, surgery, diagnostic imaging, clinical pathology, small animal clinic, parasitology, virology, bacteriology, post mortem, ruminant and equine rotation to learn on various cases and practice what we have learned in class. Plenty of the seniors said that rotation is extremely tiring and stressful, but I would say I thoroughly enjoyed the whole process , despite the ups and downs in each rotation. In fact, I would say its the most fruitful course.
Basically, I loved the semester and I am looking forward to the next! I'm doing so many clinical work right now I feel like I'm one step closer in becoming a full-fledged vet. However, I still lack many important skills, which I strongly think I should get more experience. I am still torn between going to Mahidol again for placement or Hokkaido University for good 10 weeks to know for sure if I'm really into small animal medicine for now.
So much have happened this semester, good stuffs and bad stuffs. Supposingly this was my 2nd last semester if I didn't go to med school, but thanks to that I have ample time to build my skills where I need them most.
I'll probably post a little on the drama I dealt with lately, and I should do that tomorrow after I've met one of the drama queens.
No more waking up at 7 or 6.30am,
No more ending classes at 7pm on Tuesdays,
No more weekly tests!
I'd swear I have had the most test in this semester compared to any other before. Literally every week we have had tests waiting.
While it was extremely tiring to anticipate all the tests, I have to say I've enjoyed the semester thoroughly.
The subjects taken this semester were:
1- Clinical Medicine
2- Avian Medicine
3- Applied Statistics
4- Theriogenology
5- Surgery of the body systems
6- Clinical rotation
1-Clinical Medicine:
Clinical medicine basically was a sequel to Clinical Skills we had last semester, by its name on clinical medicine, we dabbled a lot on various body systems and the common diseases which had high prevalence in our country. From cardiovascular to ocular system, we take a basic tour on what clinical signs we could see, the way to diagnose and confirm the disease as well as the first line management and treatment to improve the quality of life of the patient. I loved this subject a lot because its very medicine based, and I could relate a lot more. I wouldn't say I was the best scoring student, but I'm sure I will be able to make wise judgement in various approaches to the medicine.
2- Avian Medicine:
Among all subjects, I would say I have the least affinity for this subject. Probably because I knew I wouldn't be venturing into the avian industry in the future. Nevertheless, my marks for the subject turn out to be pretty much a huge surprise, despite the fact that I put the least effort in it. Avian medicine covers all infectious and non-infectious diseases affecting the domestic birds like chicken, ducks, pheasants, geese and turkey, with a little touch and go on the pet and wild birds like humming birds, parrots, cockatoos and love birds. The diseases in birds are intimidatingly vast with much in depth research explored thanks to the effort of various industry players all over the world. Let's see if I can score an A for this subject after the finals
3- Applied Statistics.
Everyone literally was dumbfounded when they saw this subject in the list. Why on earth would veterinarians need to learn about statistics? Does medical students actually have a course in this as well? Apparently, statistics is indeed important, in so many ways I couldn't have imagined before taking the course. From comparing effects of treatment between sample groups to the epidemiological status of a disease, the application of statistics is just limitless. I enjoyed the subject throughout, though I would say I should have invested a bit more time on it
4- Theriogenology
I'm not too certain if human medicine does this, but basically this course encompasses the reproductive cycle in various domestic animals. The estrus cycle, the gestation period, hormonal cycle, methods in inducing and maintaining the pregnancy, care post-partum as well as various ideas in improving reproduction efficiency of domestic animals. Plenty would probably think that we are playing god, but we are actually optimizing reproductive cylcles, which even human medicine can employ. I enjoyed this subject basically because it dealt a lot with ruminants, which I have had a lot of chances to relate to.
5- Surgery of the body systems:
A continuity from the surgery and anesthesia course last semester, the surgery this semester focused more on different body systems. There are usually diseases which indicate the surgeries' necessity, which we will need to look into the clinical signs, make a conclusive diagnosis of the diseases and employ the approaches towards the surgery. Surgery indeed is an art, literally. We were anesthetists, tailors, carpenters and veterinarians all in the same package; because everything we do in the surgery affects the outcome of the surgery and the subsequent lifespan on the patient. I would say surgery is probably not my turf, but I indeed enjoyed the part as anesthetist a lot.
6- Clinical rotation
This is probably the best among the bunch. Clinical rotation marked as the most taxing subject and the closest we can get to practicing as a veterinarian. Entering different departments in the faculty, we participate either a whole week's course or a one day course in the designated rotated department from small animal medicine, surgery, diagnostic imaging, clinical pathology, small animal clinic, parasitology, virology, bacteriology, post mortem, ruminant and equine rotation to learn on various cases and practice what we have learned in class. Plenty of the seniors said that rotation is extremely tiring and stressful, but I would say I thoroughly enjoyed the whole process , despite the ups and downs in each rotation. In fact, I would say its the most fruitful course.
Basically, I loved the semester and I am looking forward to the next! I'm doing so many clinical work right now I feel like I'm one step closer in becoming a full-fledged vet. However, I still lack many important skills, which I strongly think I should get more experience. I am still torn between going to Mahidol again for placement or Hokkaido University for good 10 weeks to know for sure if I'm really into small animal medicine for now.
So much have happened this semester, good stuffs and bad stuffs. Supposingly this was my 2nd last semester if I didn't go to med school, but thanks to that I have ample time to build my skills where I need them most.
I'll probably post a little on the drama I dealt with lately, and I should do that tomorrow after I've met one of the drama queens.
Thursday, December 3, 2015
Saturday, November 28, 2015
Auscultating : All Hail the Queen
Queen finally graduated from her Chemical Engineering program this year! Well, to be honest she actually began working early March this year, it's just the fact that she had her graduation today.
On the side note, N came knocking on my door again. The reason for the disappearance was the change of phone.
Well, not like I'm super happy or whatever, just that its weird that N is coming back on me now.
Both of us became friends whom are like the post they have in social media, we might not have met each other for a long period of time, but nothing stops us from getting crazy and freak people out in malls, cinemas or restaurants. In fact, I'm like her part-time boyfriend because I'm literally in all her family events like her sister's wedding and now, her graduation. We have become family members in some extent.
Frankly, I feel like I didn't form such bond even with best bud, probably because there is such a significant period in our lives we missed out a lot from. With Queen, we literally just click with everything we have around.
Now that she has graduated, with her job and PhD program; I'm just waiting to attend her wedding when she finally get on the saddle.
On the side note, N came knocking on my door again. The reason for the disappearance was the change of phone.
Well, not like I'm super happy or whatever, just that its weird that N is coming back on me now.
Friday, November 27, 2015
Auscultating : Nearly there
The semester will be ending soon, and thankfully my academics haven't been too shabby. If I'd work harder, dean's list shouldn't be a huge problem.
On the other hand, stuffs around the house is getting better. Finally got my couch, which I personally think would be extremely comfortable in the main hall.
I'm now left with a washing machine, fridge, dinner table, another couch, TV and a sound system. As well as some cabinets and shelves around the house as well.
But, it feels like I'm almost there already.
I can't wait to host my first open house with my course mates!
Despite living alone, settling the new house, various bank trips and some errands; knowing I'm keeping up with my academics is pretty satisfactory.
On the other hand, stuffs around the house is getting better. Finally got my couch, which I personally think would be extremely comfortable in the main hall.
I'm now left with a washing machine, fridge, dinner table, another couch, TV and a sound system. As well as some cabinets and shelves around the house as well.
But, it feels like I'm almost there already.
I can't wait to host my first open house with my course mates!
Despite living alone, settling the new house, various bank trips and some errands; knowing I'm keeping up with my academics is pretty satisfactory.
Friday, November 20, 2015
Auscultating : Tri
Any readers who have been following should know what Tri is all about.
21st November 2015 marks the resurfacing of Digimon Adventure Tri in the theaters of Japan.
Well, as everything around the current franchise is limited edition only, Malaysia probably wouldn't have any airing any time soon.
I made an impulse and purchased over RM1k product from my Japanese friend's help online.
Well, this is the only childhood dream I'd wish I can chase after.
２０１１年１１月２１日。「再会」。冒険がまた進化する。
21st November 2015 marks the resurfacing of Digimon Adventure Tri in the theaters of Japan.
Well, as everything around the current franchise is limited edition only, Malaysia probably wouldn't have any airing any time soon.
I made an impulse and purchased over RM1k product from my Japanese friend's help online.
Well, this is the only childhood dream I'd wish I can chase after.
２０１１年１１月２１日。「再会」。冒険がまた進化する。
Friday, November 13, 2015
Auscultating : Home Depot
It's literally HARD when it comes to moving into your own house alone.
Mom and dad offered to help, but I'd figured I should do this by myself; with only monetary help from them of course.
With the crazy renovation before, I wanted to keep budget of moving into the house as minimal as possible; meaning getting the furniture was a nightmare.
I had to literally go to every corner to get good deals, and sometimes I'd wish I've been more careful because I'm pretty sure I overspent in some places for overpriced items by few folds.
Nevertheless, you will only grow when you experience things.
I've managed to find my dream couches, but I can't seemed to get a good 3-seater sofa. The 2 seaters are pretty awesome, despite they are fabric in nature making it pretty troublesome to clean; but the colors were amazing.
On the other note, preparing other rooms to be rented too have took toll on me. But if I managed to keep everything within budget and the next hunting in the IKEA Cheras open house does surprise me; I should be done by the end of December.
Many of my friends requested for an open house.
How am I supposed to serve people when I'm still sleeping on a 5cm thick mat myself?
Mom and dad offered to help, but I'd figured I should do this by myself; with only monetary help from them of course.
With the crazy renovation before, I wanted to keep budget of moving into the house as minimal as possible; meaning getting the furniture was a nightmare.
I had to literally go to every corner to get good deals, and sometimes I'd wish I've been more careful because I'm pretty sure I overspent in some places for overpriced items by few folds.
Nevertheless, you will only grow when you experience things.
I've managed to find my dream couches, but I can't seemed to get a good 3-seater sofa. The 2 seaters are pretty awesome, despite they are fabric in nature making it pretty troublesome to clean; but the colors were amazing.
On the other note, preparing other rooms to be rented too have took toll on me. But if I managed to keep everything within budget and the next hunting in the IKEA Cheras open house does surprise me; I should be done by the end of December.
Many of my friends requested for an open house.
How am I supposed to serve people when I'm still sleeping on a 5cm thick mat myself?
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Auscultating : Only know it when it's gone
Remembered I talked about how N and I was in the bandwagon again? N pursued hard until lately.
The last time we chatted was the night before my Clinical Medicine Test 2, when a sticker was sent to my Line account.
I have this tendency to put N's messages on hold, simply because I can afford to.
Until I realized today that N is no longer in the chat box, or rather N left Line.
I'm not too sure what my feelings are telling me now. Relieved or annoyed?
But hey, I was playing hard to get to begin with so who and what am I to say about anything right?
I guess I was just simply not interested from the beginning. By qualities N probably was okay:
1- Working adult as a veterinarian
2- Okay looking
3- Likes me more than I do to N.
But I guess I wasn't really okay with N's cross dressing past, and a little too feminine in the pictures on social media? We were okay in that one video chat, probably because it was the first one; even other Line chats weren't that crazy.
Maybe I'm upset because I didn't get to do the "dumping" instead. Makes me an asshole doesn't it?
At any rate, I'm not entitled to any choice right now anyway.
1- I'm not hot or good looking
2- I'm not rich
3- I'm geographically and chronologically undesirable.
Some parts of me did really ask me to give dating apps a go, some parts of me just make me delete those apps and tell me its not the time.
It is probably not the time, and N leaving the chat room is a sign of telling me, to move on.
Well, we only know it when it's gone right? Just like everything else in life.
To anticipate for the next one, I'm on the verge of giving up. Multiple times I've told myself this life I'm probably not going to find anyone, despite the fact that I'm not even in the working society yet.
Like plenty of my course mates have told me, I'm probably a magnet to foreign cakes. A quote from my friend:
"你还是去找个老外吧，只有他们才可以征服你这只庞大的狮子。“
Where on earth am I going to get the money to access to them?
The last time we chatted was the night before my Clinical Medicine Test 2, when a sticker was sent to my Line account.
I have this tendency to put N's messages on hold, simply because I can afford to.
Until I realized today that N is no longer in the chat box, or rather N left Line.
I'm not too sure what my feelings are telling me now. Relieved or annoyed?
But hey, I was playing hard to get to begin with so who and what am I to say about anything right?
I guess I was just simply not interested from the beginning. By qualities N probably was okay:
1- Working adult as a veterinarian
2- Okay looking
3- Likes me more than I do to N.
But I guess I wasn't really okay with N's cross dressing past, and a little too feminine in the pictures on social media? We were okay in that one video chat, probably because it was the first one; even other Line chats weren't that crazy.
Maybe I'm upset because I didn't get to do the "dumping" instead. Makes me an asshole doesn't it?
At any rate, I'm not entitled to any choice right now anyway.
1- I'm not hot or good looking
2- I'm not rich
3- I'm geographically and chronologically undesirable.
Some parts of me did really ask me to give dating apps a go, some parts of me just make me delete those apps and tell me its not the time.
It is probably not the time, and N leaving the chat room is a sign of telling me, to move on.
Well, we only know it when it's gone right? Just like everything else in life.
To anticipate for the next one, I'm on the verge of giving up. Multiple times I've told myself this life I'm probably not going to find anyone, despite the fact that I'm not even in the working society yet.
Like plenty of my course mates have told me, I'm probably a magnet to foreign cakes. A quote from my friend:
"你还是去找个老外吧，只有他们才可以征服你这只庞大的狮子。“
Where on earth am I going to get the money to access to them?
Friday, November 6, 2015
Auscultating : Mid Semester Break
A little extra bit of change in my post titles; I've decided to change Buffetting to Auscultating.
It is high time for me to step into my next phase of life; where clinical years and professional development kick into my life as I progress into a working adult.
Buffetting; though it was wrong in its spelling for which it should have been Buffeting, originally was intended to mean as the motion of thoughts like the wind hitting on the water of sea, buffeting waves into the blog.
Would you be able to interpret what auscultating is actually meant for?
Back to mid semester break; it will officially begin today! I'm looking forward to another busy week next week to catch up on my studies as well as my new house.
Within few hasty weeks, I couldn't believe the semester will be ending in 5 weeks. The academic semester went by so fast I could barely notice the weeks passing by; we literally have had tests every week beginning 4th week of the semester. On top of that, clinical rotation, assignments as well as presentations. I would say I've pretty much devoted myself almost 100% to academics alone.
I thought time would still go by really slowly for me, since I am graduating a year later than my original batch. Little do I know, clinical years are meant to be fast paced. What I'm pretty anxious about is my Final Year Project because I've yet to get any ideas on what I would want to work on. Small Animal Internal Medicine would be something I probably want to venture into, but nothing interest seemed to be popping in at the moment. I've pretty much given up on surgery, simply because I'm not good with instruments and art.
Nevertheless, academic life have been fruitful, and I can't wait to learn more and get into practice in full-fledged.
Back to my new house, I'm cracking my head trying to fit everything to the right spot with the right furniture and color. I'm on budget so I literally need to restrict myself in the expenditure, but I just hope I don't make my house into my weird ass hooker house.
Living alone can be a little lonely at times, but I do enjoy the privacy since I do not need to bother about anyone else apart from myself and my studies.
Yet, putting everything into one piece and making my new house hospitable would be a great challenge!
It is high time for me to step into my next phase of life; where clinical years and professional development kick into my life as I progress into a working adult.
Buffetting; though it was wrong in its spelling for which it should have been Buffeting, originally was intended to mean as the motion of thoughts like the wind hitting on the water of sea, buffeting waves into the blog.
Would you be able to interpret what auscultating is actually meant for?
Back to mid semester break; it will officially begin today! I'm looking forward to another busy week next week to catch up on my studies as well as my new house.
Within few hasty weeks, I couldn't believe the semester will be ending in 5 weeks. The academic semester went by so fast I could barely notice the weeks passing by; we literally have had tests every week beginning 4th week of the semester. On top of that, clinical rotation, assignments as well as presentations. I would say I've pretty much devoted myself almost 100% to academics alone.
I thought time would still go by really slowly for me, since I am graduating a year later than my original batch. Little do I know, clinical years are meant to be fast paced. What I'm pretty anxious about is my Final Year Project because I've yet to get any ideas on what I would want to work on. Small Animal Internal Medicine would be something I probably want to venture into, but nothing interest seemed to be popping in at the moment. I've pretty much given up on surgery, simply because I'm not good with instruments and art.
Nevertheless, academic life have been fruitful, and I can't wait to learn more and get into practice in full-fledged.
Back to my new house, I'm cracking my head trying to fit everything to the right spot with the right furniture and color. I'm on budget so I literally need to restrict myself in the expenditure, but I just hope I don't make my house into my weird ass hooker house.
Living alone can be a little lonely at times, but I do enjoy the privacy since I do not need to bother about anyone else apart from myself and my studies.
Yet, putting everything into one piece and making my new house hospitable would be a great challenge!
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Buffetting : Make over
In a month's time, I'll probably give the blog a make over. It has been a good 3 years with the current layout, and it is really about time for a makeover to embark.
Throughout the 3 years, plenty have happened and numerous memories were made and noted here.
To my surprise, this blog, without going private have served multiple individuals as a guide, a spark or an inspiration in life; some of them even became my vet juniors while some thrive into different paths in their lives.
The blog began as a diary, evolved into somewhat veterinary related space, and some bits and pieces of my travelling experiences.
I'll be extra busy beginning DVM 4, with several rotations and daily 7am to 10pm schedule; on top of lectures, assignments and tests; the blog is really the last thing I have time for.
Tonight has been a little light, but I still do have an important presentation to prepare.
Wanna have a good read up on what is it?
PS: It's a Hernia, and the current title has been changed to the Left Comminuted Femoral Fracture with diaphragmatic hernia in a DSH cat.
Throughout the 3 years, plenty have happened and numerous memories were made and noted here.
To my surprise, this blog, without going private have served multiple individuals as a guide, a spark or an inspiration in life; some of them even became my vet juniors while some thrive into different paths in their lives.
The blog began as a diary, evolved into somewhat veterinary related space, and some bits and pieces of my travelling experiences.
I'll be extra busy beginning DVM 4, with several rotations and daily 7am to 10pm schedule; on top of lectures, assignments and tests; the blog is really the last thing I have time for.
Tonight has been a little light, but I still do have an important presentation to prepare.
Wanna have a good read up on what is it?
PS: It's a Hernia, and the current title has been changed to the Left Comminuted Femoral Fracture with diaphragmatic hernia in a DSH cat.
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Buffetting : Little Updates
Life has been extremely fulfilling for me;
1- I'm stepping into clinical years, for which things now begin to get serious. I need to know things about medicine very comprehensively from A-Z like history taking, knowing clinical signs, coming up with differentials, confirming diagnosis, eliminating possible differentials, assessing the condition, as well as treatment. It's a long step, but I digg this a lot
2- N and I are back into the bandwagon. It's more like being attached rather than a relationship now. But I'm telling myself to keep my options. At one point I almost resorted to apps, only realizing I should delete them because its really pointless. My aim is to get good grades now.
3- Rotations now begin in clinical practice, for which I will enter different departments in the faculty including small animal surgery, ward, ICU and emergency care, labs, large animal wards including ruminants and equine wards. I enjoyed a lot working with large animals, despite the risk of getting fractures and summersaults like some of the juniors have gotten; maybe I really do enjoy working in the wards! I'm definitely tired because I'm staying so far from the university, waking up every day at 6.15 am to attend to patients at 7am is no joke; its very tiring throughout the day. But I like it. Things should change once I move in.
4- I'm moving out from my parent's into my own place soon. I'm lucky enough to have the house under my dad AND my name; making it an official house for me. It's a lot of responsibility, despite the fact that my parents are the ones investing the money in it. It definitely means my parents do love me a lot, and I need to work harder so their investments actually do make sense.
5- I will need to pay a lot more attention to my grades now. The first 3 weeks have been slow and I am lack of adrenaline. But I managed to do some serious revision today with surgery; hopefully my weekends will get me more adrenaline to complete my studies on my tests next week. Oh yes, I'm having tests already soon.
6- Japan will be my current target for post-graduate studies. I'm looking forward to an exciting PhD title, probably I should start with my Final Year Project as I will need to get a supervisor soon.
Things are moving pretty quickly once I've stepped into clinical years. It's a lot to digest, but damn I missed this adrenaline.
PS: I'm typing this 1 minute before it hits 1am. I need to wake up at 6.15am tomorrow. I shall survive.
PPS: Weight management have been an issue. I need to get into a serious healthier lifestyle
1- I'm stepping into clinical years, for which things now begin to get serious. I need to know things about medicine very comprehensively from A-Z like history taking, knowing clinical signs, coming up with differentials, confirming diagnosis, eliminating possible differentials, assessing the condition, as well as treatment. It's a long step, but I digg this a lot
2- N and I are back into the bandwagon. It's more like being attached rather than a relationship now. But I'm telling myself to keep my options. At one point I almost resorted to apps, only realizing I should delete them because its really pointless. My aim is to get good grades now.
3- Rotations now begin in clinical practice, for which I will enter different departments in the faculty including small animal surgery, ward, ICU and emergency care, labs, large animal wards including ruminants and equine wards. I enjoyed a lot working with large animals, despite the risk of getting fractures and summersaults like some of the juniors have gotten; maybe I really do enjoy working in the wards! I'm definitely tired because I'm staying so far from the university, waking up every day at 6.15 am to attend to patients at 7am is no joke; its very tiring throughout the day. But I like it. Things should change once I move in.
4- I'm moving out from my parent's into my own place soon. I'm lucky enough to have the house under my dad AND my name; making it an official house for me. It's a lot of responsibility, despite the fact that my parents are the ones investing the money in it. It definitely means my parents do love me a lot, and I need to work harder so their investments actually do make sense.
5- I will need to pay a lot more attention to my grades now. The first 3 weeks have been slow and I am lack of adrenaline. But I managed to do some serious revision today with surgery; hopefully my weekends will get me more adrenaline to complete my studies on my tests next week. Oh yes, I'm having tests already soon.
6- Japan will be my current target for post-graduate studies. I'm looking forward to an exciting PhD title, probably I should start with my Final Year Project as I will need to get a supervisor soon.
Things are moving pretty quickly once I've stepped into clinical years. It's a lot to digest, but damn I missed this adrenaline.
PS: I'm typing this 1 minute before it hits 1am. I need to wake up at 6.15am tomorrow. I shall survive.
PPS: Weight management have been an issue. I need to get into a serious healthier lifestyle
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