It became real casual talking about T, and since the nature of our relationship is based merely on trust and mutual respect, it became really abstract without the physical contact part in a relationship.
What I am facing now is, security. T is not a fan of the future, all the time. On the other hand, I need assurance of the future, at least a direction where I know I'm heading.
Big Sis mentioned that she's the type going on:
"Take one step at a time. T didn't give promises because things might change in the future."
On the other hand, we used the 2nd chance's as example, and quoted:
"Polar bear went all out, going for a 2nd time to get together with Heart. There's got to be some credit for him, and its so unfair to say that this relationship is not given a direction of going far as to getting to the marital stage."
just little things we share over LINE to spice up our conversations
It's like a dilemma.
On one hand, we don't make promises because we might not be able to take on the variables in our environment. On the other, we all wish to have some sort of assurance, or direction on where we are heading now after.
Side note, T and I are planning to go further. If we have the chance, any at all; our graduation pictures should include both of us.
One in 2016, where I'd probably will be having my clinical practicals in one of the vet universities in T's place; one in 2017, where I'd host T while having T in my graduation pictures.
I wonder how my family would react to as T coming over just to be in my pictures. Will the cat be out of the bag?