I was pretty much surprised myself, till I'd actually found out the actual reason I did not wish to take up medicine just lately.
I do not want to associate myself with my old life.
Old life meaning staying in Subang Jaya, meeting the same ol people whom I just need to throw a pebble in the air and I hit someone I know.
What's more, the driver's duty, the never ending phone calls from the family to perform tasks, last bu not least the bitter memories Subang Jaya had scarred me with.
I was talking to one of my girl friends from UPM yesterday while she asked me ,"How're things going in Monash?"
The answers I got was," Well, it's just like my old life. Old life meaning what I usually do in my old home. Same company, same faces, same venues, same experience."
"While UPM gave a new life, one I was looking for ever since I knew Subang was not the place, at least not the ONLY place which I'm contained to. That's why I loved it so much there. It gave me, a NEW life."
That took me long to realize. I need not travel to Japan for a new life, nor to Singapore for that matter.
20 kilometers away from home, was vivid enough to give a new life, torn away from those scars which I was left with.
That took me, really long to realize.