Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Buffetting : Times





It was until last week that I thought I couldn't be anymore closer with my friends.

True enough I had my issues, and being the hard-headed and fun-killer one in our gang, I practically stormed everyone with my constant "PMSes"-Teenage boy version throughout the whole trip.

I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.


It's like I don't know how to have fun, or rather to have fun with my friends.


Maybe I have actually accepted the fact that, I'm not designed, or destined to have real good friends beside me to have fun.



I can swear, I barely talked to anyone about anything individually, nor speak about our problems and issue.


Most of the time in the trip, I would just sit alone by the passenger's sit, end of the boat, end of the cable car and just, enjoy the trip as if I know none of my friends at all.



Well, I did join the bed talk, sea-talk(derive from bed, just we do it in the sea, pretty cool huh?),water polo and other funny activities we've created out the blues.


Yet, I still can feel the loneliness in one corner of my heart, as we went there in 9, its only natural for a person to be left out without a partner.


Well guess what, I am the one most of the time.


Maybe I should just leave the group, since we had 11 originally, and 10 would have turned out to be an even number, and well, its better for the whole group instead.


What am I talking about, it's as if I'm writing a memoir instead of telling how fun Langkawi was.


Sorry readers, I think I have issues , big time issues.


You are here to know, read and share them with me, and here I thank you.



Nevertheless, Langkawi is truly a paradise, for retirees to relax, for youngsters to explore, for working groups to splurge(on chocs and liquor) and even for kids to just swim in the ocean of swimming pool.


I had fun, seriously. It's just that I had the fun most of the time, ALONE.


Fine I promise I'll blog about Langkawi in details for next 3 posts... though I haven't update constant lately

Zany Zephyr

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Buffetting : Life Principles




Can't believe I had to rea
ch for the dictionary to check up on the word principle of my post title.

Yet, the point of the post is about what you believe in your life.

Another barbecue party was held and once again, I'm the handy man who needs to start the fire, get the pits, charcoals, food and the yanky-dadees for everyone.

Credits given to my dad who woke up early to stroll me around the market in ss15 for the raw food.

And there we go, the plan was well executed until the whole gang of us forgotten about SKEWERS when we were heading to my ex-tuition teacher's place.

I did halt my sis to make a simple U-turn to get those stuffs.

"Mr Lee has all the utensils so just go ahead okay?"

Fine, you are the driver and the eldest around so supposingly you are the wisest around.


Once we reached there, TADAAA

No skewers, no thongs, everyone was done MANUAL.


Imagine BBQing a chicken without any skewers and your only equipment around was a pathetic, well fine FEW pathetic pairs of WOODEN chopsticks.


I controlled my temper and went on because it was suppose to be FUN.


Until one point when I was told my wooden chopstick is burning.

I just ignore and told them, just dispose them by the end of the day then.

And my cousin teased me by telling I have to get rid of 2 pairs since I was using 2 different chopsticks as a pair.


I just returned lightly saying, well the process isn't important what matters is the outcome.


then my sister snapped and bombarded by telling she doesn't like what I said and my attitude.


HELLO?! If you haven't noticed, I was the one starting the fire and cooking non-stop for you guys okay? And fine I didn't complain about this, because I'm a GUY.


So I snapped back by saying I don't really have a choice.

First , we have no equipments.

2nd , I'm the only one doing MOSt of the work, not all.

And 3rd, I hate unorganized events.

Then she was like,

"why do you have to make sucha big deal out of it? we are enjoying anyway?!"

Correction~

you enjoyed, I was simply pissed off.

you might be enjoying your stuffs but I have my principles.

I like plans to go by the book, not off the chart.

Even if it had gone off the chart, i'll fix it my way.

Accept it or screw it, you digg?

And don't give me the pep talk and long lectures if you have no SOLUTIONS.



And I stormed into the house.



Fine, I might seemed stubborn in this sense but honestly, I'm done being the puppets of others.

I'm an adult I have my thoughts.


Chopsticks, yes it might be a mistake to burn them off like that.

But I know the gravity of the matter.

I'm not that stupid.

Plus, mr lee gave me the permission to burn them off the pits so, HOLLER.



Come to think of it, she actually banged me or not marinating the chickens earlier on.

Honestly speaking, I'm not STUPID.

I would have give the maid a hand if I knew she would be busy but she wasn't!

The whole house is going to be empty for the whole day without us being in the house and she didn't have to cook lunch or dinner, so how busy can she be?


Marinating takes max one hours, and she have 7 hours without anyone bothering her the whole day to clean up the house.


So tell me, do I need to give a hand, when I have done marinating with her twice this holiday?

She is the kitchen expert not me, so logically speaking, there wouldn't be any point arguing over if I need or not to help my maid out with the marinating.


That is how stubborn the women in my family can be.


anyways, I'm certain I did the right thing, because everything turned out well in the end.


Let them hate me or what ever, because by the end of the day, the experience I've gained is much more precious.



PS: Watched Storm Warriors 2. Trust me, invest one the first movies instead... better plot, though the recent one have impressive VFX, but it doesn't mean anything.


Have to bail no2 for another day of recapping with old mates.


Thanks for tuning in.

Zany Zephyr

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Buffetting : Time to move on

I guess I'm one particular person who tends to stuck in the old times, and never willing to step out of it.

Seeing how people around had moved on, I couldn't stop thinking,

"why can't I do the same thing? am I that stubborn?"


At some point, I do see myself changing over the years.

Yet, some how I've became more and more cynical , most events that occurred lately.


Why did these happen?

I am not sure.

The Gradual effect is there and, it's just so hard to capture the feelings in words.


I'm somehow more evasive, to the point that I am not willing to share anything over the air or net.

Hiding this blog by changing the address again and again proves everything.

I think, I'm more comfortable being alone.


It is good to have companions, yet it is not a necessity, well at least not in my life-dictionary.


I've screened through facebook today and I've just noticed these two person's recent life:




I'm a stalker? no they were once people who I'd wished I'd made them together, yet the same time wishing they weren't going to make it. The picture above shows J, my old "husband"


And the picture below shows X(the guy aka my ex-boy friend)


A bit weird for a guy to have these kind of relationship huh?


Well, I'm no ordinary guy then.


I had a crush on the boy, seriously I mean for a max of 3 years full.

From the day I've realised, I never wanted to miss the chance to see him everyday and even if I had missed it, I sulked about it whole night long.

This has also haunted my nights when I was having my SPM(malaysia's high school exam), and I couldn't understand my own feelings.

Was it a real crush? Or it was just pure admiration?

I had dreams over him and sometimes, HER.

J, right she appeared in my life when I was in form 4, the peak of my high school life.

My emotions and physical pressure were at the extreme in that period of time.

I liked her?

A lot people thought I did, and at one point I've almost hypnotised myself to fall in love with her.

I'm not sure how and what her thought was, and I never wanted to ask because I'm afraid of being hurt(knowing where I'm standing and my qualities), and last of all I knew the answer would be a NO.

So I've just continued being her closest male friend(literally) where she was able to tell me all her thoughts about him,her or it.


And it came to the day when she discussed about HIM.

I can tell you, my emotion was stirring with absolute blur.

I couldn't differentiate my wishes or curses.


My friends though I was having a dilemma in siding for friend or for love, but honestly , I never wanted to tell anyone because it's just so outrageous knowing someone so close to you yet you didn't know he could had such high tendencies of being homosexual.


And well, I kept quiet, and let everything flows.


During that time, she being SHE, didn't want to start of a relationship and everything didn't work out.


It was a relief, yet a disappointment because I was literally the middle person.


It was a blessing yet a curse, being their catalyst, double-edged sword so to speak.



And today, I've finally got to tell myself, it is time for me to go on, to find myself.


Someone, no matter she or he, as long as we can talk, we are on.


I've come to terms that my primary goal is to work hard for my life, my future.

Love, is something useful, yet not necessary.

Call me cynical, try walking my life.


What about me?

I'm still me~


Promise you guys will further frequent my post.

Zany Zephyr



Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Buffetting : Companion

Finally got myself down to start working on this post... Well, sorry for neglecting you blog!!!!

*My maid just flunked a plastic bag to attract my attention, then tell me she wants to head back to Indon... wtf???!!!*

Anyway, working on today's issue, COMPANION.

there plenty types of companion:

A) As fun mates

These guys are the ones who will call you out for tea, dinner or parties(sometimes to clubs) and as the names said FUN.

B) As study mates

They go everywhere with you, with one extra item, BOOK. They talk about Le Chatelier's Principle, vectors, Centrepidal Forces or what ever you are able to relate to academia, wherever you go. I've seen people of such, it might be fun in the beginning, in the end it turns out to be REAL pain in the ass.

C) As talk mates

One phone call and you will need to listen to their problems. I personally have no problem with that, because I DO enjoy listening to their problems, secrets or any grudges they have against anyone, including me.

D) As play mates

These are those who calls you out to the motel and have a one night stand. Never had any friends of this kind, not going to have one either. But they do exist.

E) As soul mates

Walking down the aisle, you will put the ring into his or her finger and there you go, happily ever after.

Well, I guess I'm going to brag to the E-prone topic.

You see, lately everyone, I mean EVERYONE is into the "lovey-dovey" hype, when a gir/.boy friend is a must in their lives.

Remember Jess and Sein from Of Os, Bs and ABs I written last year? If you had noticed they are derived form actual people.

Jess would be Jessica Tee, and Sein,would be Sai Cheong.













Well, this column is to hide the post above form my brother~~

I DID mentioned I moved on without SC. and true enough, I did.

He got himself a girlfriend now and , it wasn't a surprise at all, its just that there are still stuffs stirring inside me which makes me dislike his girlfriend in the first sight.

I don't know if its me or its the "rivalry" thing.

But something else happened, I disliked Sc as well at the same time.

Well, old cliche but, if (爱得越深,恨得更深)you love that deep, you hate that deep.

Uncertainty is surely stirring in my head.



I've talked lesser to him than ever compared to everyone, I am sure.

I've distanced myself away from him, to make sure I forget him in one way.

I must say it worked.


I am much more matured now, compared to the "love-dove" pressure I had back in form 2.

It is pointless to get involved now, and get tied down.

It is much more free, to be able to have all the time for yourself, and concentrate on whats much more important , like Chemistry and Biology~

And I know what I want.

What I want isn't available now yet.

What I want comes only I get the answer.

When am I getting the answer, I don't know.

But one thing I know is, I need to work hard for my bright future in the corporate world.

I need to know more, and yes, once again my thirst for knowledge is BACK.


Zany Zephyr

Monday, December 7, 2009

Buffetting : New skin

Well, I've got myself a new skin and for previous readers, you can the posts are back!!!

For new readers, if you wanna know me more, hit the arhives!

Zany Zephyr

Friday, December 4, 2009

Buffetting : Prepared

Must get prepared for tomorrow's SAT!!!

Peeps, please pray hard~~

Zany Zephyr

Monday, November 30, 2009

Buffetting : Adults

You know at one point of your life the adults will start suspecting you or your siblings of watching the "5354" literally "不三不四"(nonsense or more towards 18sx) videos or pictures?

Well, I've been through it and sadly, I don't watch those kinda stuffs due to unnecessary stimulation or what-so-ever the super duper straight guys out there would have given as an excuse.

Anyway, you know what I found out?

I was sorting out some Internet problem for my uncle (who had children whose ages are larger than mine) and I accidentally clicked his "Recent file" in the Start menu.

I saw *russian-teen-sex-fuck*


From then onwards, I know how lonely and bored one man can be alone in town.

And how horny can adults, even our own parents be.

Well, its human nature I know.

But please, don't let us see that ok?

You were the ones asking us not to watch, by the end of the day you are only showing mere hypocritism.


Well, that was all i found out so far... Wonder if I could find condoms in my house?


Okay, there goes the fantasy talk.

SAT 1 here I come~



Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Buffetting : You're Beautiful

Have you ever seen something really beautiful?

Have you ever felt the joy and excitement seeing a newborn?

I felt it today, right in my house compound.


It's a miracle.

It's the most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

Even though they weren't my real child, it is as if they were there forever.


Cherishing them is truly, truly my job right now.



Meet Ichibana(一花)Tachibana(立花)Mako(眞子)and Yukito(雪兎).

Today, its their birthday, 17th November 2009.

This is one memorable day.

This means more responsibilities, yet new hopes and joys for me.

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Back from my good mate's birthday bbq.

Tiring and stressful, after a 3 days planning and one whole day of preparation.

But it's satisfying seeing everyone enjoying themselves, though I can't say I've enjoyed, MUCH.

Guess I'm still too stressed out to have fun.


Anyway, my new babies has made my day.


Yes, my chemistry score was satisfying, where else my Biology and Maths was disappointing, as I didn't put in much effort, like wise to my Chemistry. General Paper was surprisingly high for me, obtained a highest score among my subjects. Guess it is truly a sure score subject.

MUET is still in the marking process, though I've set myself in Band 5, due to my unraveled and logn-winded One-Malaysia essay.


Total CGPA of 3.67, I'd say its real good for a first year finals, especially when I'm still in Lower 6.

Guess I do have the potential for more, the key is to put in more effort.


Okay, SAT 2325 here I come.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Buffetting : Wild dream

Yesterday was the last day of finals, so we went on for a whole day of fun.

We as in the normal gang of us who do all the nonsense together, though my banana friend had to endure a lot due to his limitations in the chinese language, so screw it.

Though I had a real good time and was worn out by the time I've reached home, I can't believe what went on.


I had a sex dream. Period.

Just for illustration purposes, what I had in the dream was really, really, I mean period, REALLY different.












Well, since you are reading this from me, you can choose to click the X button or continue.

















Yeah its the first one I guess. Maybe because my friend said that I fantasize about the Yuna from Final Fantasy X-2, no pun intended.


It's just so weird, because the subject was my friend's friend, whom I doubt I have more than 5 lines of conversations before.

And, maybe I should privatise this blog if I really want to further detailing my story, so if you want to know more, well stay tuned and get invited.. >.< id="gwProxy" type="hidden">

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Buffetting : Fucked up

My dog just got fucked, literally.

Though I can't blame her much, since I've only noticed her sudden growth at her tummy.

80% pregnant said Dr. Bala.

Well, guess I somehow going to be a grandfather soon.

20 more days to go.

Wonder how I'm going to feel having my own grandkids, or granddogs... whatever its called.

Beside the point that my dog mated with some unknown male, guess everything is alright.

Update more after my examination.

Tomorrow, seriously I need to pick up my books or I;m so dead for the papers coming up next week.

2 more months to SAT!

Zany Zephyr

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Buffetting : Time and tide

I've just flipped through the Taylors College's annual organizer today, only to realize that I'm running our of time.

It's going to be November in 2 days' time, and I'm facing the largest turning point by next December 5th, and January 5th.

I'm wonder if I have what it takes though.


Chemistry and Maths is still running along well enough, though my scores dropped drastically for Maths, when I've actually done the practice with a tuition teacher's help.

Pathetic I know, but still.

December is going to be one hectic month.

I am going to have half of the month for traveling and food, with only half left for studies.

Gosh, totaling the time I have till 23 January,

that would be approximately 2 months left.

Another 7 chapters of Biology to complete.

Funny though, is it the impact form my high school certificate, or is it that I have less interest in my favourite subject for 2 years long.

Biology is no longer now in my top list, where as Chemistry tops everything off the list.


Anyway, need to get back to sleep.

Got my toes off its hook, have no idea how to put words into this, but to conclude:

FUCKING PAINFUL.

PS: Indulging in Go Go Sentai Boukenger~ Red and Blue looks really good and hot!

Pink and Yellow are both cool and cute, its just Black who needs a constant kick in his ass for being an annoyance.


Zany Zephyr

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Buffetting : International Booty Call

Got that off Charmed anyway.

She replied. Though Nana didn't

Mayo replied my email.

Guess I'm quite obsessed with the Japanese girls anyway.

But I think my classmates passed through obsessed to desperate.

Who knows how else it is going to affect them.

Anyway, this reminded me of my old plans to further my studies in Japan.


Can I still make it?

One thing is definite.

I have responsibilities now.

If I had ever leave, can I bear allowing my family to take good care of my bitch?

She is like my own daughter.

Anything which happens to her can be real devastating.

I remembered her getting knocked down by a car before.

I cried the whole night, without knowing if she is going to leave me.

7 years in Japan.

I might only have one more year with her back in Malaysia.

Yet, the point now is to grab my time and study.

And also replying Mayo's email! hahahaha... evil me.

Well, back to completing my General Paper homework, then study a lil on Biology.


Finished Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger, it was a real good show.


Well, that's that.

Zany Zephyr

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Buffetting : Shrunken

Had my routine sports today, dealt with lots of balls.

Squash balls, lots of boys' balls, and lastly,

A 30 years old malay man's ball.

I never had the pleasure of seeing someone just have his ball shrinking right in front of my eyes.

Don't get any fantasies, I din't mean it literally alright.

He was leading the game, because I was focusing on driving the ball back to the wall, but obviously I wasn't doing good enough.

Worst part, my legs won't move.

I have no idea, maybe I got traumatized from yesterday's fright, till the extend I still couldn't get over today.


He was leading and smiling his way off.

While I was depressed and kept quiet throughout the game.

Nevertheless, I prevailed.


I got the serve.


I smacked damn hard.


10 times harder than my normal serves when I was playing with him earlier.


BAM!!


3 serves, and he stopped.

I remembered his words clearly.

"Ah.. Tak boleh lah.. Macam mana nak main begini. Tak boleh lah!!!!"
(Cannot lar. How to play. Cannot lar...."

Clearly his balls shrunk right after my 3 power serves.


Coward.


So you can have fun driving me around, when I can't smack the ass out of your guts?


Wantans...

Wanna know why I named them this?

Because, they are wrapped up all the time like wantan, and they have pork in the dough, like themselves, PIGS.

No offense to the youngsters. This guy is around 30 to 40 years old.


He can have interval rests, during a game.


If he hadn't get to rest, I would have been the one sending him running around like a mad boar.


Malays. They are pigs. They are cowards. They just wait and enjoy.

Typical ones.

Stereotyping I know, but all the more reasons to point it out.

ISA what ever... most I can do is privatize the blog.


Anyway, glad to know I can scare him off.


With my strength.


Youngsters, next time at least give it a try.


Zany Zephyr




Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Buffetting : Eastern Godwind

Their presence wasn't quite noticed until I started panicking due to the unsuspected last minute changes, so to speak, SMKSS17 does best in this, all hail last minute circumstances.


Yet, I pulled myself together and braced with the flow.
Thanks Princess Rowie for being there throughout the storm! I would have collapsed without her along the way!


Obviously I need to study further for my language, seeing how sucky it was and the gravity of laugh I've obtained when I was speaking.

I did have fun.

I had fun being the translator and all.

I had fun speaking to them, making them having the "OWH!! I understand this guy!" look.

I had fun knowing Mayo and Nana-chan, as they were really nice to me and their partners, Hooi Ling and Yi Won.


I may not get the most popular girls and guys as my partner, nor did I have one, Yi Won and Hooi Ling was really nice and hostile by allowing me to join them as their comrade and translator.


The bamboo dance was a hit. Obviously our friends from the East didn't have the experience with this before.

Same goes to our traditional Tatoo, Inai , which was the most popular craft among the visitors.
Guess having a cool disposable tattoo is still an alternative for the pricking and ink-filling through your skin type.



I ran around with my new LOMO!!!!!


Haha the visitors were so amazed by my ability to get the Decade Pink BBF and snapping pictures all the way..

"Decade no Kamera? Sugoi!!!" was like a must catch phrase for everyone who saw me with the BBF.

Anyways, I came to a conclusion that the girls are much more sporting than the guys, seeing most of the guys were really, I mean really cool. In the sense that they wouldn't share their emai, so I was quite disappointed though...
The one on the left side, is the most popular guy among our school girls... The one on the most right was really cute too! He was the first one who asked me for sepak takraw.
I asked from the most popular/handsome guy from Yamato Nishi High School, but the only respond he gave was "eh?"

Guess I should have just gave him pen and paper and say, "Kae! Email wo."


Its ok... I can live without boys, girls will do fine, or better.

One thing was for sure, they loved sepak takraw.

The way they pronounced it was so cool!!!! And they were really cute when they asked for the sepak takraw!

Dang, I forgot to take a picture of them playing!

Never mind, the bamboo dance will do fine.

Malaysia do have something , traditionally favourable to our friends from the East.

Never said this in SMKSJ before but, proud to be Malaysian, where our diversity of cultures is trruly cherished in SMKSS17. Bravo.

Now, one and only bamboo dance by the hot hunks of Yamato Nishi High School:


Monday, October 19, 2009

Buffetting : New Toy

Finally, the wait is over. My new toy has arrived.





Black Bird Fly Decade Pink, a limited edition due to the popular demand from the market, Super Headz decided to manufacture another 1000 sets of this babe, along with a very special treat:
They have the super cool leather-strap! comes together with the toy-cam!!!!

haha, for collectors and cosplayers out there, you should have gotten this man, especially Kamen Rider fans, this Cam is like a must in your display wardrobe.


Alright, that was an update, will further the post when I have more time and pictures taken from the Cam itself.


Any rate, the Japanese are arriving our school tomorrow.

My last and grandest event in SMKSS17!


Wish me luck peeps and there will be photos, promise.


Zany Zephyr

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Buffetting : Standing by the side lines

Were you ever the person who stood right in front of the battlefield?

Have you ever took part in any events or projects in your alma mater?

Or normally you would just stay by the side line?


Honestly. being the person in charge ain't as glorious as everyone sees.

I've been holding such immense power once in my life, and it was real tiring.


Yes the experience is noble and coveted.


But the pain and stress something is just unbearable.


Worse, the party who intended to take part, stands by the side line, watch you scum and they takes the pride.

That is what making the person who stands at the front line gets even more upset than ever.



I believe in will. I have proved it to myself long time ago, and I still believe in it.


If you don't even bother to have the will to take part, why even be part of it anyway?



So, I've decided.


This event is going to be the last event I will be taking part and holding responsible in this compound.


Anyway, I will be heading off somewhere next February, so no hard feelings there.


I'm going to stand by the side lines.

And lead my life.

My original motive when I had stepped into this school grounds.



Back to Xanadu.

I've decided to also let things go by its course.

I have no control in anything by now.

If the majority says cool, who am I to say lame?


there was another thought. Might as well just ditch it.

Since it doesn't make much difference anyway.



I have doing that a lot lately. It's like a routine now, but I've never regretted them.

It's my life, I've learned to accept and move on.


Rambles huh? Yea I know.


20th October is coming soon. I wonder if I have what it takes to be on the stage. Hopefully I don't fumble and go "GAGA" literally on the metallic-tabled stage.

did I mention that my school "recycles" EVERYTHING?

They can cut up wooden tables to make chairs and stools.

The can arrange a whole lot of used metallic tables and make a stage out of them.

Talk about innovation, but I don't think a stage should be made that way.

Insurance may not be claimed that way.

Well, I'm no insurance agent so comments restricted...






じゃ日本語で書かなければ上手に成れないな!

皆と一生に行かないほうがいいの思うん。

だって、自分は大切じゃなくて、うちで勉強したらいいな!

じゃ、もう少し考えて、答える

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Buffetting : The 4th Dimension.

I survived.

Honestly, she was real great. I was expecting a non-dramatical lady instead.

Although I haven't completed Halliday and Resnick's exercise, thank goodness I've at least assured myself with Advanced Physics.

Today, I never felt this surge of excitement in a physics class before in my life.


Guess getting this teacher was a correct step.

From velocities to acceleration then to forces and normal force to energy, we mentioned about the 4th dimension.


It is not exactly what we think, the 4th dimension ain't the ghostly plane, but its the plane which time do not exist.


Time never exist. It is born when people couldn't see themselves in other dimensions.



Our life time is like a corridor with different rooms.


Right now, there may be some other Tempuses doing some other thing in their different ages. There may be also another plane where the same aged Tempus might be enjoying his life as a rich man's son or something.

But.


The equations proven were yet to be applied yet.


Who ever had succeeded in doing so truly will see things in so much other perspectives.


When Miss Ng Pek Har explained all these in the 3 houred class, I finally understood something.


Something which I couldn't put in words nor feelings.


It's like a hunch, but my head somehow knew its what I really need to understand and know by now.


I need to know that I am in thirst of knowledge, and I need the knowledge to make a significant difference to the society.


Be it electrons or human across the plane, I want to do something BIG.



Reality check.



3 months will determine my faith and my fate.


February 2010 will be my judgement point.


Shall I have proceed with my planned direction,

Or to fumble into the sail I've set this June.


I need to make this difference.


I demand an amount of respect back to myself again.


I must make this work.



So, seeing this I must hit back to STPM and SAT chemistry...


Thermochemistry was really easy and fun.


Organic chemistry is what I truly need to know and master. Hopefully this 3 months I may be able to hold strong and make a difference in my life.


Mind, body , soul, together.


Zany Zephyr