Saturday, April 11, 2009
KZB on: Forever Core
Even though I had tasted loneliness since ever, I thoroughly felt my 5 years of bitterness in my secondary school, when I stepped into the school grounds today to pickup my invitation slip for my Hari Kecemerlangan.(will continue about that later,let me finish my point 1st~)
Remember whenever you missed a lesson or class, you will automatically go to the person who is sitting right next to you for the homework or or sorts?
Or when you have any functions or activities at all, that you can rely on the person who is sitting next to you in class?
Obviously, most of you had one.
Sadly speaking,for the whole 5 years in my secondary school, I never failed to leave my seat beside me empty. Even till today,in my college, I'm still sitting alone, in the corner of the class.
Pathetic isn't it? Funny that I had only realised today, when I see myself driving alone down the road.
I can say, I never had a best friend. I have a bunch of great, good friends, but I never had a best one. Where I really had shared all my secrets, all my memories,all my devotion.
Yes, I devotes my life to my friends, but the ones which I will do at all cost, I truly had none.
When I cried in the lonely nights, I had no one to turn to.
When I was down and sad, I had no one to turn to.
When I was confused and stressed up, I had no on to turn to.
When I was in the greatest turning point in my life, I had no one to turn to.
Who is a friend?
What is a friend?
I envy those who had a mate, for everything they do.
From studies to sports,
From shopping to hobbies,
From camps to travels.
Frankly speaking,I'm really tired of my own life, and I hate it a lot.
Everything that I had done was never right, or up to expectations.
I have no idea why,my life is really screwed up...
Friend, when are you going to show yourself before me?