Okay peeps this is for my one and only friend... You know who you are and this post is completely dedicated for you...
Remember when we were in primary schools and the teachers had always complained we were a nuisance in causing Chaos Region in the class? And the English teachers, most of the time will go," Don't you know that silence is gold?"
And we were like, we are smart enough to know that there ain't any gold popping outta our body by keeping ourselves okay? And we continued the havoc.
And there was when i found out that the pronoun, was the exact translation from a chinese idiom, namely "chen mo shi jin" or Silence is Gold. It is the best when we keep silent when stuffs getting over-drived and let the whole situation calm down.
That was what I precisely did today, when I headed for a movie in Sunway Pyramid. Honestly, I never felt this BORED in watching a movie before... even with the real boring scenes during my normal screening, I would at least complain, or whine about the nonsense.
Today, I was totally uninterested. Even with all the banging and honking(we watched The Fast and Furious 4) , I slept... I FREAKIN' SLEPT!!!!! Wth~~~~ But that wasn't the point... something else was bothering me...
And our eyes crossed more like a dozen of times today, yet I was doing best in avoiding the direct contact. I wanted to keep quiet, and it seems as if you were okay with it. So, I kept quiet and stroded off.
Why am I avoiding you?
No I'm not mad or upset.
Most, or actually, All may see it as if I was jealous or envy because he finally got himself another soul.
It is as if I was mad at him.
It is as if I was upset.
But it wasn't.
I told myself this:
IF a person wanted to tell me something, he or she would have done it, without me needing to nudge them.
IF a person really need that amount of space, I will not intrude him or her..
IF a person wants to have life, apart from the original, I will support him or her.
IF a person is happy, I will be the first to be happy for him or her.
I know how this works. I never ever question your judgement. You have your reasons for your ways and I am no one, NOBODY to stop you.
But know this, I'm a human too. I have my limits, and I need my time-outs.
It is my fault that I never gave chance for you to tell;
it is also my fault that we end up like how it is now.
Avoiding a conversation in a group will not be a bright idea for now, as I'm really dealing with a huge lump of everthing lately.. My dog, my education, my family,my career and my life.
It is just such a crucial time for me to adjust right now and I can't take any more impacts..
Worse, I'm all alone.
I really wanted to talk, but you seemed so quiet, not willing to spill anything. Guess you didn't want to talk anyway...
I'm sorry, but you can always have it your way, your call.
I'm borned to walk the long and lone path anyway....
I need a break... I'm really tired now......
So much for keeping a golden silence...