Buffetting : Emptiness

Yesterday was literally a wake up call for me, other than last friday's practical on General Anatomy.

I realized I am a very competitive person. I need to reprise my role as a studious person, at least be equipped with suffice knowledge to not be blur in most of the situations around.

I felt superior not understanding what was going on.

What's worse, I feel obligated to uphold the position as the leader of my group, as well as one of the oldest student around.

I guess I should fill the this emptiness in the campus with studious ways.

At any rate, I would need to fit into UPM with considerable amount of knowledge if I were to join them again this September.

If that ever happens.


果物屋へ買い物に行ったとき、ある男と彼氏に手をつないで町で走った。いいなあと思っただ。

Suppressing one's feelings is quite a considerable amount of effort, even more when one's lost.