Buffetting : Appreciation

Just a little recap on my late achievements:
Finally done with my Japanese Advance One class, phew got a Grade A with 93/100. Long way more till I truly master the language, but I am having high hopes.

Got a golden medal for "Bullet Throwing", direct translation from BM's lontar peluru and a silver medal for the Marching event. Quite satisfied, though I wished I could set a higher record of at least 10 metres for the BT event, but too bad I slacked my gym training, I managed to take down the other contestants with 8.8 m only. Oh well.


The school is really trying their best to provide ample benefits for us, the Pre-Us, or in layman's term, Form 6ers. They will be holding camps, workshops and activities to boost our co-curicular marks and also preparation to face STPM.


Well, I can only be thankful to the school for putting their greatest effort in trying to help us out, and also the utmost recognition for our marching event lately.

well, that's all for this post.

Buffetting : Entanglements

Somehow, there is always this surge of entanglement in my life, between my family and my friends.

And believe it or not, I usually prefer to join my friends instead of my bloodlines.

Well, guess I'm just the type who doesn't stick much with my family at any circumstances.

As for this time, the entanglement would be my grandma from my paternal side's 80th birthday.


Supposingly , this was something to be happy and celebrated of, but me being me, the joy didn't quite spurt up.


Due to various "feuds" , the whole event didn't turn out to be up to expectation.

Since it was done in the rural areas, people from an urban area like our family naturally wouldn't be satisfied.


Plus, I had to skip my good friend's farewell on the night before because of this event, where my mum insisted for me to abide to the curfew real hard this time.

To make things worse, I was appointed as the commander for my current school's Pre-University march squad on the morning of this event.

See how things were getting hectic this week?

Did I mentioned that I had my Advance 1 Japanese test on the night I was having the last dinner in 2 years time with my good friends?

Yea I know, my life suck.


Hopefully I can ace my test with at least a 90% score, did studied like hell for it.


Owh yea, all the hard work paid off. The Pre-U squad managed to get a 2nd place for the march event!

Surprisingly we beat the PBSM team, seeing how good they were on the previous days' practices.

And as expected, the Yellow house managed to nab the 1st place as the overall performance. 1st time in my high school life, where by the house I am in got a 1st place.

Speaking of which, I have been in the Yellow house for a sports house for 12 years of my life. I'm not sure if it is a mere coincidence or god intended. If it was, what significance does it bring about behind it?


Gosh there is so much to write about due to the constant current of happenings drowning my life, yet I don't have the time to jot i down anywhere other than in pictures by my faithful n86~

Well, guess I just have to let the pictures to do their miracle work shouldn't I?

Do not let these beauties fool you. They can be really, really mean.

Example: Ewww~ Yong Bin doesn't wash his underwear!!!!!

Just because I wasn't able to finish my sentence.


PS: Slicing and dicing another mouse this coming thursday, will post more on the process next post.

Just a preview:

Buffetting : Traditions

Most chinese readers should be aware that Cheng Beng/Ching Ming is around the corner, when the North-South High Way goes balistically jam in the weekends, and traveling back to the hometown by land would be a hell task.

I've done my fair share last week, as my parents decided to pay our ancestors a visit a week before, so that we can cut short our trips back to Kedah... It is real tiring ya know, seeing how we need to sit in the car for 4 hours, not to mention me suffering from the constant Hokkien songs loading into my ears.

Well, I guess I need to be more understanding for my dad, cause he is the man who drives us back there for 4 hours for the 19 years of my life without any rants.


Guess what?

I went to Ipoh to take on the famous Ah Wong Chicken Rice~

It's weird because the current boss is a Leong(yea yi xian and yuet yin be proud of it), when the bill board clearly state that it is WONG.


Anyway, guess the Wongs only managed get a daughter, so the son-in-law takes over.


Dinner there was good, along with the 988 crew there to get more people to tune into their band by giving out goodies, having dance shows(which was really annoying because they were just doing Hairography all the way...



Then we head over to grandma's. Not much happened until the next day when we went for ancestral offerings, ya know all the typical chinese stuffs... maybe I will blog in detail next year if I had time to shoot some pictures.


So practically that's that.


One thing I realized throughout the whole trip this time is that,

Losers flock with losers

No offense to anyone, but it's just my mere personally point of view. Anyone else may have their thoughts about these people I will be mentioning, but to me, they don't practice what they have preached, and they just give me the same feeling as the person from my Hatred post.


And let me explain why.


First off is the cousin who is the same age as my sis.

He started off well, I GUESS. Seeing that he scored 9As in his SPM while my sis only got 4, he was "recognized" as a better student.

I didn't know how easy SPM was back then, so there was a certain degree of "respect" in a lack of terms.

Anyway, he went for chemical engineering, whereby only people with the smarts can enter, in UTAR.

But, he started complaining about the poor facilities in the campus and sorta complains from his "rich kid" nature, he went off joining my sister for ACCA in Sunway later on.


So, in Malaysia's education system, a person who switches from sciences to arts-based subjects shouldn't have a hard time dealing with it, and plus, he had always boasted on how good he was and how great was he to take on ACCA which have an even lower passing rate compared to a doctor's one.

And my sis only silenced.

Owh yea, and did I mentioned how his parents actually was so PROUD to announce his results around, like 9As was that HARD to get.


Kay, so then the whole wide world how "good" he was, obviously expectations were high too.


Until late last year when my family realized that he actually came home like around 2 or 3 am? which was clearly a taboo in my family because our curfew was at max 1 am, and only guys have the privilege. Bet I forgot to mentioned that he was still staying with our family that time to save some rental cost for him.


And apparently he realized that we've realized, then he moved out.

Soon, I found out that he actually failed his paper, which he actually managed to lie to his dad that he could pass with flying colors.

I was like, huh? Even my sister can pass her papers and he couldn't?


And then I found out that he actually started to blog~ owh, not to promote anything, you can actually drop by at xiangcool.com to see how "wonderful" his sentence structure is, and how he has been trying to call himself a BLOGGER.


Well, I think to him, blogger should have fancy DSLRs, funky looks and most importantly POPULAR....


I'm just a lil confused with the way blog-trafficking in Malaysia works, and it seemed as if the blog count is even more important than the contents themselves.

Anyway, so of course if you readers were a member of Nuffnang, you should know what perks they actually offer. So he went on full blast mode on attending almost ALL the events offered.


I did attend the events.

I did spend time on getting the premier tickets.


But hey, one thing is for sure, I was original.

He was nothing but pure copying other bloggers' writing style and theme, in the expense of his own studies.


Yeap, all play and no work has made our friend here, failed his papers again.

And again.

So, I'm just ranting, how we can make a failure out. One thing is for sure, he is all talk but nothing else.


Look, I might have the urge to go for cool movie premiers and all.

But whats important now is my studies, and I don't easily loosen up just like YOU.


You, you only crave for glory,fame and one day you will wake up, and you will find out that without BLOGGING, you have nothing else.

PS: You are not surviving on your own money, you live on your dad's monthly allowances and you know it.


I have to say this was a quite sucky post, but WTF.


My English is TRULY deteriorating like no one's business.


PS: I give up in trying to upload photos to blogger... its real darn slow..enjoy the boring posts!

Buffetting : Exploration

Just wondering if any of you readers had heard of AISEC. If you have not, do click here because it really provides plenty, especially for you youths.


You probably think that you might need to spend like 5 grands or more to participate in this programs, but honestly, its way more than that.


I've just attended an info session with Ms Nicole Teo,( same surname so automatically connected very easily~) in Taylor's Business School about this, and gosh it was a real eye-opener!



So practically we can choose 2 types of programs, one of it being the project-based and another one, company-based.

Since I'm only a pre-university student, I wouldn't be eligible for the company-based as they usually take in the students in their 2nd or 3rd year in their respective degree.



Take note degree pursuers, wanna stand a chance to take an internship in the top international companies like IBM or P&W? Nab your chances fast and perform well in you interviews because you will get a heck lot of experience you will treasure forever!



So back to project based, they usually want us youths to participate in society projects like Fund Raising Campaign, Awareness Campaign of child abuse or HIV, teaching students a particular language, environmental awareness and etc.


I applied for Japan, but too bad, the Japanese companies demand hardcore workers instead of youths to preach for HIV awareness instead.


Can't really blame them though, they need to pump harder for their productivity count, even more due to the insufficient funds lately.



So I was asked to choose another country, which I had no idea where because the only place I had ever dream of going to is Japan. But seeing China and Taiwan is the next closes country which have the same dialect like I do, I chose them.




Honestly I was real worried when I discussed this over dinner yesterday with my folks. And thank god they approved, asking me to go fur thee to the European countries instead.


Gosh... me? in the Europe countries? Hmm, I have never thought of it though... Maybe I should give it a try, just o experience cultures and see the differences of standards in both countries.. who knows I can bring a change in Malaysia and earn a title in the far future? haha just joking~




Well , its confirmed that I will take on the interview in July, because it will be a real good experience,and nothing will stop me. Even if I am out of funds, I will try my best to work for it.



Anyway, so much for the exploration talk. back to business.



Pheww... just sent my MEXT application letter earlier on. Was a relief. Hopefully I was asked to attend the written exam.


Meaning I really need to start studying like nobody's business and hunt down every single pass year paper if its the last thing I do.



Sometimes it just goes blank when you think of it, and you start to question the point of doing them... Was struggling to choose between life sciences or humanities... succumbed to natural sciences in the end because I can pursue humanities without a proper scholarship.


Well... need to stop playing the sims 3 and start to work on my maths now~

PS: The Sims 3 is real addicting! Can't wait for the expansion pack by pass to appear!

Buffetting : Hatred

Have you ever just have a surge of hatred towards a person without any particular reason?

Fine, I had some bad times with her but some how I just started to hate this family friend of my mum's.


Why?


Well, lets say she is being a little nosy, especially when it comes to my privacy and choices.


Remember I used to indulge in squash?


Well, I had a great time there. My family's badminton time clashes with my squash trainings , so I had to sit the family's session out.

Why should I sacrifice my passion for my family interest?


So the system went on for a long time, until she turns up.


She say I'm deserting myself from my family.



Bloody arse.


I'm pursuing my passion, my life and my ambition.

How is that being deserting?

She brainwashed my mom and my mom started to force and threaten me to join them.


I declined.



And there she goes, having her whole "you are not my son" fiasco again.


And I had to miss my best friend's birthday celebration out.


5 years of solid friendship.


And me being closest to him have to miss it only because I did not join my family's badminton session.


Outrageous and unreasonable.

Yes, I know but thats how the veto power runs in my family.



From then onwards, I have this sudden urge that its this lady who brainwashed my mom.


And I found out, exactly it was her.


Then the hatred continued to burn in me, until today.



I don't know. Maybe I'm being vindictive, over-reacting what ever.



Yet, I know my sub-conscious is telling me that this lady, is not the lady I would want to consolidate to , ever.



Anyway, scratch that. I literally beat myself up for not performing well in my badminton session today.


I'm looking at my left arm, trying to not feel sorry over the bruises and killed red blood cells, not to mention neurones.


It's ok. That's how I manage stress most of the time.



3 days before holidays are over, and I have 5 more subjects to catch up in the homework, not to mention revision.


STPM and MEXT scholarship, I'm nailing you down.

Buffetting : Reminiscing

It was a great night and everyone really had fun.

Its all written on their faces, literally with all the smiles, smacks, jokes and even Andrina's random highness of sugar lately..


I'm sure my primary years were one of the best moments I had in my life, and those bonds made during the 6 years of schooling were infinite.


So strong that the remnants back then, are what made us this close and treasurable,



I have to admit, sometimes, I feel that my primary schoolmates are even more precious than my high school mates, which had went through storms and blazes literally for the past half decade.

Yes, those storms were harsh and tiring, and those who were there are who you call true friends.


But my primary schoolmates, we practically shared every moment in the school together.



The day when SHE came in and spurted us with her "IDIOTS!" words.

The moments when we tremble as the VIRUS turns up.

The days when we smacked each others back just to scare ourselves.

The days when one of us shake the other friend's head, literally because of its size.


The days when we stood strong together against the teacher.(not a good thing but she was really a BI*CH)




Those were the days, and those memories we shared, there were no secrets. Everyone knew exactly everything happened.


Unlike in the high school years, well all I can say is, I couldn't trust much people with matters, and I don't see the mutual trusts.


Yes, in the high school years, we can't be as naive as we were in primary school.



But, those trusts don't just dissipate over time.


Today's gathering was a proof that even being apart for years, we can still come as one and talk as though we have known each other forever.



And when I sat in the same table with my high school mates, sometimes I just don't even see how we were able to connect, apart from the very fact that we were from the same class, same school or same tuition.


There weren't any matters which are SIGNIFICANT enough to hold us together.


Maybe I wasn't giving enough trust to others, or I just don't feel trusted.



Contradicting I know, but this is how I exactly feel around my high school mates.



Wonder how, the batches I belonged to seemed to have real strong bonds , even after years.


I do hope one day, we get to attend each others' wedding, full moon dinner, son's wedding, son's full moon dinner and etc.... And when we sit down, we are still so happy we once met, and we have known each other forever...


It's just so rare to share these fond bonds.



I truly appreciate you, my friends from CKS, Graduates of 6C,2003

Buffetting : A while Now

So, I guess my readers' rates have been declining, almost reaching the plateau near x-axis of the graph...


Anyway, sorry for the inconsistent updates, school was busy, at least for the past few months.

Finally wrapped up the first semester examinations.

Gosh thank goodness I did not pass out during maths... wonder if I can even get an A for it.


Can't believe I'm not expecting An A for maths, after mastering thy subject for the past 11 years of my schooling life.


Guess FORM 6 is NO joke.



Chemistry and Biology remained as the best spoil of the tests, as they come in easy and passed with a breeze.


PA, its still a miracle if I get An A, though I am really hoping for a 4 flat because I need all the good grades for the university application ,soon.


Pharmacy is one of the hardcore courses coveted by people around the world, surpassing engineering courses by miles.


So, if I really want to be on par, I've got some buckling up to do.




So, that sums up what I've been up to and the reasons I couldn't devote time to update this precious B_L_O_G.


PS: my love for chemistry is hauling by the day... geez i might end up surrounded by chemistry books in the future....
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Next up, gossip.


The juiciest gossip around, in which including me fighting with my sister over this laptop now, is the Jack Neo sex scandal thingy.


One thing I never understand other men is,

Why even get married, when you know you will run wild and freaking fuck other women other than your wife out there some day?


1st of, you are cheating you wife, and hurting her big time. Imagine your wife had an affair. Don't tell me you are nice to enough to say, " As long as she still loves me, I'm okay," this is only for those who are naturally impotent, not for those who ask for fucks every night.

2ndly, you are being so dishonest to your feelings. Honestly speaking, personally I don't expect myself to get laid. I don't SEE myself being able to handle someone day and night, and not expect to get bored or try to get someone else to chat with, or live with. Sometimes, things get boring and we need to go VERSATILE ya know... I know its unfair to the mate, but if both party established a mutual understanding before, I don't see how this system can't work.

Yes, you will need to becareful with STDs, raging ex-es hunting you dicks down and bla-bla-bla...
Yet, bu the end of the day, you didn't affect the mate's life, much enough to devastate them.

3rdly, once you have kids, you are forever bound. People often think that kids are like the crystalisation of a pair's love, and it can catalyze relationships. Did anyone mentioned it catalyzes relationships to both heaven and chaos? A couple will have even more things to argue over when you have a baby in the house. Worse still, the innocent child gets the blame, pressure and all sorts of nonsense, because of the irrational acts of his parents.


So, Jack Neo, you are one hell of a reputable director and I respect your works. But you are NOT professional enough to differentiate the intimacy between a co-worker and a lover. It's a miracle that you have gone this far without being caught but, who knows whats gonna happen to you in a few years' time.

Although this scandal has proven Jack Neo's incapabilities of sorting out his relationships, his movies WERE fine, and the movies lately are getting quite funny, not in the good way I might add.

Buffetting : Back to Square One

I had my dreams.

I had my goals.

I made promises.

And now, I am back to square one.

Seriously, I have no idea how to put these into words. It is not like I have not been working hard because I know I did.

I worked ten time harder than I used to be.

All the school work, home work, tuition work, none was left out along the way.

I gave it all.

But it turns out that what I have done ain't good enough.

SAT 1 turned out to be an utter disaster..

And SAT2, I was hoping to have done a little bit more better, at least a little bit more closer to the target I have set.


So now, I am back to my original clean state.


Which way now?


Gosh I'm so confused now!!!!


I am just so lost. There is no guidance, no light, no way out.


It has always been me and myself only, without anyone there.



It is my fault to not open up to anyone at all but, it's just not me to do that.


I'm tired....


I'm tired of telling myself its only another few more days, or weeks or months or years till the next climax comes.


I'm tired of being asked around to do stuffs because I'm the eldest boy.

I'm tired of keeping the expectations of all the people around me...



But I can never stop myself.


Why? Is my life there only for everyone else but me? Just to satisfy others?


Somehow, the idea of me not being able to be myself strikes me all the time.



I don't know.... I'm just lost. Nowhere out....




Whats next?


MEXT....


There we go again, another marathon of studies...

But first, March exam..


Alright, full charge ahead!


Zany Zephyr

Buffetting : The Next Storm

Finally, the day has come in which my best pal in high school left Malaysia to the lands of kangeys and koalas to further his studies.

I wanted to break down but my conscious told me not to, as the others were having a hard time letting go and another person's break down might just cause havoc.

Anyway, not gonna post about the process because its pointless.

Lets talk about what's after this.

Honestly speaking, this leaving friend of mine has always been there for me.

We were the closest(I guess...)

More appropriate words would be, he was the closest to me, in which I can consolidate everything to him without the consequences of him telling others about our conversations.

And we have been really understanding to each others' needs and space, up till last year when I had a sudden crash in my C-drive when everything went haywire till the extend that has put our friendship at stake.


I was being insensible, yes it was me.


Yet, I still do treasure every moment and experience we had shared through 6 long years, which I'm certain that it will bring us very far.

Will miss your brilliant smile a lot.

So, uptill now, this post is dedicated for you, my friend. Have fun with smogs and kangeys over there.

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Next up, the storm.



I have no idea how well I can blend in with the absence of this good friend of mine.


Normally, I wouldn't attend to any outing without the prior notice of the attendance of this good friend.


And now that he has gone to the overseas, I think I will have a hard time to decide whether to go for the next outing.


I'm not trying to accuse anyone or degrade anyone here. I'm just trying to analyze how things are working around now.


The girls, Yuet and Yi Lin are just always supportive and sensitive. Guess the 5 years of friendship didn't just go waste. We are practically a family, in which we really had the same mindset and ways of looking life and matters.


I had issues with Peng Han earlier the road of our friendship. But throughout the journey, he turned out to be much more bold and sensitive. I can discuss about matters which are really matured with him in a very comfortable ways now, and he is just amazing in ways he deal with his surroundings.

Even with mood swings at particular times and also the unexpected hormonal changes in Yi Xian, he is a person who can really think for the others, and pick up stuffs real quick and solve the problem on the spot, talk about doctor material. We do share the same point of views at times, and being around him is real comfortable.


Okay, you might say I'm over reacting and all, back-stabbing, crapping or whatever shit you might think of, but this is just a piece of my mind.


There are stages in our lives, when we might find another person who we can share almost everything together. It is something to be happy about, but to me it ain't exactly something to be bragged or boasted.


Fine you may have your sweet moments and cuddling but hey, Sai Cheong, you are not capable of prioritizing. You can't even set aside one day to spend with a person you called friend, when you have been seeing that very special person to you everyday.

I mean, isn't a little overwhelmed?


I didn't say its wrong to spend time with your partner, in fact that is the point you got together at the first place. But look, you seriously need a crash course in sorting our your responsibilities and priorities in life. I salutes Peng Han in his ability to cope with matters like this, and I'm very disappointed with your inabilities to think logically, when you are already 19.


You didn't contribute to anything in the shades' blog, you never mentioned anything and you shouldn't have much problem with cash. And yet, you dare suggested us to go somewhere near, which you could have done it by spending just 5 minutes to message any one of us or post something the cbox in the blog away from the time you cuddle or study, and also limiting the budget for the dinner?


I have no idea what the hell is going in your mind.


They just love in blind, but this relationship you are having is going to drive you to somewhere you will not like it, if you continue to succumb blindly to your emotions.

You can have your life apart from friends, but as a friend who really cared, I'd suggest you start reflecting on what you have done to this circle of friends ever since you got your partner, from introduction and to mingling. I'm telling you, you are going to have a hard time if you continue your stuck up mindset.



Back to the others, the trio, Iman, Arief and Shaung are like the cool people who really keep up the COOLNESS motto of our group, and they never let me down. There are times which they might not be able to turn up for stuffs, but they always make their effort to turn up and cover for their loss. Well Iman, you are always there kay?


As for our Porn Queen Jia wei, you need to see things more clearly and get the big picture instead of narrowing down and leaping into conclusions without thinking of all the sweeping statements you have made. One more important thing, remember the things that you have learnt as a head prefect and do not let them go to waste. Those are the essence which will bring you far and seriously, I do envy you to be able to hold on to that position, whereby you have had a bunch of trustable sidekicks around for that one year. I had to go through the hard way, with the result of me having the conception of bitterness in my life. Do not state the problem, give solutions. You are an engineer-to-be, start learning that so your future employers do not reject you upon interviews. Apart from that, just be who you are because that's what has made us comfortable with you around.
Unevitable group shot

Well, I can say that I barely know myself. I'm more like the type to let-others-judge first and re-counter type. And SAT result is out tomorrow.


Readers, wish me luck. If possible, I might be heading to UK with flying colours.


Zany Zephyr

Buffetting: Excitement

Its another 5 more days till i receive my SAT subject test score via email.

This is so thrilling! I have not experienced this kind of excitement since, I don't know... the last time I had a crush on X??

Anyway, Monash or Nottingham?

If I choose Not, I get to fly to UK for the last 2 clinical years, which is quite fun, considering I had been dying to live to Japan before, UK seemed more realistic.

If I take Monash, I will still be the driver around, whereby I wouldn't have much free time, and I am still staying in Malaysia.


I guess most of the guys would love to step out of the house and experience independence, as they most probably end up as the breadwinner of the house in the far future.


And I guess I am one of them, cancel the breadwinner part.


I think I have the thirst for freedom , away from my family's tangles.


Anyway, 2010 is truly an anticipating year.

With all my comrades leaving for their future, I wonder if our dream can really be fulfilled in the far future.

What dream?

That's for me to know and for you readers to find out~


Did I mention about my japanese girl friend?

No she is not exactly what you think , she have a boyfriend in Kanagawa with her now.

She finally replied after 2 months of lost-in-contact. It's so amazing that we are so far apart, yet we can still connect to each other.

The best part is, we were raised in both completely different backgrounds, and yet we still can communicate with each other!

Language gap is one thing, but having the same channel isn't that common.Well, I truly treasure this friendship.

Well, thats all about excitement. May we meet again in the next post, and hopefully its much instant this time.


Zany Zephyr