It occurred to me that late, my ties and relationships are going all backwards and differently from what I began in first year.
Originally, when I headed to university I wanted loosen up my ties with my family, for all the distress they have caused in that time; I wanted to tighten up my ties with my course mates , for all the good times they have given; I wanted to tighten up my tie with someone special.
Today, at the midway of my university journey, I began to tighten up my ties with my family; for the things that they will need me to be at home for such as my niece, and my new home; I began to loosen up my ties with my course mates, for they no longer are going to be available around me with their different schedule, or different plans; I no longer has any ties for anyone special.
It's so ironic and cynical, for me to actually boil back to my family, after all these while I have been trying so hard to sever. Where as for friendship and romance which I tried so hard to preserve before now I'm beginning to let go.
The cycle, is pretty insulting at times.
Something I've noticed, but it actually means I'm now closer to my family? Or they became my focus since I might have subconsciously trying to pull away from my course mates.
It's something that I would do. But somehow, I don't really feel that empty inside though.
as you get older, you will learn a lot of things, for example, at one point, i'm sure many of your friends will get married and settle down after they graduate etc, and when they start their own family, they will definitely concentrate more on their family life, well, this is from what i had observed, i mean, my own experience, but i'm not trying to say that friends aren't important, it's just that once they settle down, they will have less time with their friends, plus they will be working etc...
ReplyDeleteso what i can say is,i know you had some issues with your family in the past, but people change, time will definitely change them, and maybe there wasn't enough communication to make things clear, hence the misunderstandings, i mean, i am just concluding based on what you had posted previously, so guess maybe later in life they will appreciate all the things you have done for them = )
just remember one thing, no matter where on earth you may roam, no matter how many friends you may have, there's just no place like home, with your parents, your siblings, because no matter what, they will always be your pillar of strength, and they know you better than anyone else...
take care and bless it be
That is the cynical truth of life somehow haha.
DeleteTrio lolol. I was expecting you to realize 69 though hahahah
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