I've decided to make a bold move, which is to revert the friend status of T's in the social media from Close Friends to Friends only.
I think this move would give me more space to live without trying to stalk or hog T's life too much, so much to almost put it into under "scrutiny".
On the side note, I've un-favorite a few of my close friends too, just to give ourselves some time; and more time for myself.
Being attached is one thing, getting attached is another. I AM getting attached, way over the line; because it is affecting my life, just a little.
I need to get things back into order.
I have dreams with T. But I'm not certain if it would be reciprocated.
I can see a future, but I'm struggling really badly right now just to fit the whole picture into a right frame. It's definitely not healthy.
I'm clouded right now. It is high time for me to readjust my radars and set back into the right course. I have my own dreams to chase. Get focused, and get moving.
As for now, get good grades, contacts to various places, and conquer the world.