I’ve posted
about the newly founded relationship in the previous post while I find it
totally hard to just wipe it off my mind for now. I think I’m just still too
excited for both of them, not that I have anything to do with the relationship
anyway.
I seriously
think I have issues with dealing with things. I run away a lot. I’ve spent my
past year trying to get back to the circle back here, and ending up trying to
run away again because I solemnly swear that this attachment is going to bite
me back in my arse in a while.
Deciding not
to stay in the residential college after the third year in the reason of trying
to have my own life maybe was me, trying to run away also.
It’s just
really hard living my life right now. People out there probably will think that
I’m spoiled, but seriously; being in this shoes right now is really hard. I
can’t break down when I want to, nor that breaking down makes any difference at
all. It's just, really hard now.
All the best to you:)
ReplyDeletehey look who has surfaced! thanks, I prolly need to get myself more distracted these days, not like I'm not already.
DeleteWah,you still blog?I was expecting this blog to be dead,but it seems that I am terribly wrong!Haha
ReplyDeleteI am Jia Wei.Haha
DeleteSince when you became ALEX again? wtheck hahaha. Yea I am, this is the only spot where I can still have my space and true thoughts floating around.
DeleteKeep blogging I really like to read yours posts :) Haha i'll go missing in action again, 1 month more to trials then AS *nervous* Anyway you can do it I'm really sure:) Good luck again for your events and also studies, I wanna go to Dogathon! If I have the chance I'll drop by:) Till then, take care!!
ReplyDeleteoh that's so flattering! thanks a lot! motivation to post more stuffs hahaha. AS? good luck! It should be fine for you, most of my friends who had had a levels were okay with it.
Deleteas for mine, yea, sure do hope I can! And just holler if you want! IF you are interested you can always become a volunteer!
I've emailed you again about the Dogathon event:) Hope to get your reply soon !
Deletealrighty then! will check soon!
DeleteYup, I understand how hard it can be not breaking down, and if you do break down it's not like you feel any better. Well, life has to go on and you certainly will go on. ;-)
ReplyDeleteUgh, I sure hope so. Things have started with bumps and all right now, things about relationships or what is really the last thing I need.
Deleteon the last paragraph...wonder if your life is like a prince,people thought you are spoiled but you can't do this and can't do that and need to retain your composure constantly(making you tired in the process),and have thousands of thinking and planning running in your head!
ReplyDeleteOh I'm far from being a prince, seriously. Haha I guess my situation did kinda put the picture like how you've made it.
DeleteBut I should be done running, I ran for like 2 years, and ain't it enough?
if i were you i might be screaming 'enough' like *insert any evil queen/empress/witch name here* XD
Deletethat would be "my life" hahaha. oh well, gotta enjoy the bitter parts of it ait?
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