I’ve posted about the newly founded relationship in the previous post while I find it totally hard to just wipe it off my mind for now. I think I’m just still too excited for both of them, not that I have anything to do with the relationship anyway.
I seriously think I have issues with dealing with things. I run away a lot. I’ve spent my past year trying to get back to the circle back here, and ending up trying to run away again because I solemnly swear that this attachment is going to bite me back in my arse in a while.
Deciding not to stay in the residential college after the third year in the reason of trying to have my own life maybe was me, trying to run away also.
It’s just really hard living my life right now. People out there probably will think that I’m spoiled, but seriously; being in this shoes right now is really hard. I can’t break down when I want to, nor that breaking down makes any difference at all. It's just, really hard now.