Before i start my paper, lets start with my day.... It was 11 and i was planing to go to school earlier for the 11.40 English for Science and Technology Paper 2, so i signaled my dad.... Ya know what was the surprise? I lost my FREAKing Identity CARD!!!! I was like , what the heck on the last day??? what now?? storm before the warmth? I unpack the 1.2 metres stacked used SPM papers and find for it... My dad and mum was practically screaming out to find my IC... I was panicking and i started calling Jer Renn to see if i left it in his house but no one picked up. Then, I called yong chin to ask him to check in the school... He was a teriffic friend to say yes on his feet... My mom urged me to make a police report so that i dont miss my paper... I tagged with my dad to the ss17 police station.. Lucky the police man was kind enough sto speed up the process with a "great" control of BM... even for a malay... hahah.... never mind though.... Then i rushed my way to school.. I called yi xian also to ask for back up just in case he find anuthing... he said yes too....
I met ann nee when i was entering the school.. she was late too... I told her that i lost my IC and she gave me the OMG stare but i didn't stay long and sped to the class... On the way... unexpectedlly BHavani and Puvaneswaren(or some oither name... remember his face forever...) came up to me and told me they passed my Ic to rishi.. I was like really??!!!! I know they weren't kidding and i continue to speed... I went to Rishi and he said he passed it to sze jade and whe i spoke to her, god am I glad ever to see my IC.... And the EST paper went really good... just a bit of grammar arguement we had.... does the planet rotates on its own axis or the orbit? Or is spinning on its own axis called revolution? Owh well... after the lunch in Jer Renn house(we had curry~) we had the paper 2, and it was about nutrition... info report! I was like... its bio spamming time~ i wrote a freaking 7 pages on nutrietion in 45 minutes... hahah.... I couldn't check either... but it should be alright~~~~
But when i was about to go home, the puvaneswaran guy came to me and ask about my Ic... I thanked him and he told me he picked up my Ic on the road, directing to Jr's house.. I was damn shocked! Whoa how lucky am I to know this guy and for this guy to pick it up for me!!!!! Even though NOvember had been a sucky month... My body, my huge bob on my head and then on the last paper... risk of my Ic being gone... Im glad i did my prayers throughout to comfort myself.. haha......
Then we went for movies~ I was suppose to join the dudes for Quatum of Solace... but my mum forced me to ditch it and go for the jusco sales instead... Reluctant originally... but i was glad i did the shoping... I got myself whole lotsa new clothes for Chinese New Year!!!! And thanks to Aunt Ting Ting being there to get me some stylo jeans... if not i would have stuck with y current jeans now hahahha.... And YEA!!! I bought my oufit for the prefect's annual dinner!!!! Yu guys who are attending is gonna scream.... hahahhaha.....
I can't help to say it... Quarantine was really just ok ... not as amazing i though it would be... as most of the scenes are exact copy from the original spanish REC, but then again i did screamed a few times with the dude because of the extra "surprises" Hollywood chucked into the movie hehe.... Twilight... I really have no idea what the heck its trying to say... the only part i was amazed was when the vampire family, Cullers i think, were paying baseball against light speed and also the battle when the girl, Bella was bitten by some James, a hunting vampire... Edward was really as pale as a vampire... his face i mean... Its like the only thing which is real colour was his lipstick, bloody red and his funny eyes... Gee... the producers really need to buck up in their biology lessons, since when anaphase comes before metaphase in mitotic division??/ Owh well.... I think there is a sequel though... depens if there are more fighting scenes next movie... i may consider... The movie was about the lovey dovey of Bella and Edward... and the management of TGV cut some scenes where they about to make out..... the funny thing is the first second, the girl was wearing her pants, next second she is just with her panties... We were like huh? What happened? And the whole movie was filled with freaking lame jokes which i have no idea why the people in the cinema seemed to enjoy it and lauughed along.. owh well~~ And i met Teacher Melida, Teacher Chai Ping and Denissa too in the movies... Im telling these ladies are freaking smart and their ideas are eternally flourishing... Dennissa is 17 and she completed A-levels what the heck???? She came from Singapore though so go figure.... She doesnt have typical Singaporeans kiasu-ness though and she is really sweet... haha and Teacher Melinda.. She speaks exactly like Teache rAnne... they are like the most successful women i've seen in my life.. Im telling ya... Teacher Chai ping.. well i was with her for 2 camps... she is a reall nice teacher too... she is alll about fun... Marsh mallow BBqing 2 o'clock in the morning... imagine that hahah....
Now SPm is over... its time to fullfill my to do list now... hehehe.... And I was talking with Izzie about ourselves before Twilighted started... When I looked back into the calendar of 2008 and 2007... I was really glad and sad at the same time... Sad that i had to endure so much pressure from housechores, school work, prefect duties, scout businesses and dealing with my daily life.. Form 4 was the worse phase of my life... Everyday was bitter and I really wanted to give up lots of stuffs... And it brings me back to my prefect... I knew i could be one of the top but somehow... Its just the other factors that made me into the position i had to be... Even though khye theng did mentioned to me that i should know it by now, I wasn't really sure if that was the reason... I remembered that very day when they announced my name, as the Disciplinary Officer, I frozed... I mean everyone was expecting im somewhere else, not discipline.... I never pictured me there... but i was summoned... That day... was really frustrating at first... but i didn't let it take over me... I just had too much to deal with... I ad to clean the house and Im walking back to home every single day... I just don't had the time to cry over it... That night before biology tuition, i got a message from Kt, she checked whether if i were ok... I was surprised i didn;t cry... I would have gone berserk if I were the real me... Nobody was congratulating me of being the KD, only the top 6 were cheered... The only person who came to me was Izzie... and the only thing he said was," no hard feelings there, right?".. I nodded... I didn't cry.. i don't know why i just didn't... I didn't think about it until after installation...
I had a fight with Steven.. over our jobscopes.. He was intending to quit... The higher powers were frustrated and the talked to me ... I tried to convince steven and myself... I really tried... But there are so many factors keep driving to quit! My mum was pressuring me..." If you weren't in the top 6, why bother continue after 4 years of hard work?If the school doesn't appreciate you, QUIT!" yeah... quit... i really thought about it... It would be so much easier... No more duties no more work no more responsibilities.... And also I don't have to suffer the loneliness whenever the "top 6" were having meeting if i had quit... "Well, just stop working for them if they don't put you i the higher callings... QUIT!" My aunt said... another person... Soon, my whole family keep persuading me to quit... My results were bad ever since to devoted in form 3. Even though my studies were stable back then, i don't have the time like i did when i go to form 4. Tuitions did help me, but nothing beats staying in class or at home without going duties or meetings out of school time.... Yes.. If i quited, i have all the time in the world to venture in my studies and I wouldn't have to worry about SPm anymore... I wanted to quite too because of the pressure im having from every single aspect in my life... My family, my fellow prefects who don;t like the new, strict me; my school work; the house chores... I was freaking tired!!!!! I really wished I had just give up every co-curiculum ad just study and do the housechores... But some thing Teacher Annes said made me stay," If you are able to go through the events that people don't, the experiences will nourish you, making you stronger and bolder," We weren't exactly talking about tennager's pressure.. just some other topic... Yes, i stayed... Even when pn khandar told me its The fat ass saufardhy complained and insist that i must not be in top 6, I STAYED! I never imagined how the wqhole board will be without my presence... Perhaps it would be better if someone else had took over me.. or maybe it will crumble... or maybe it will be just fine without me... And i finally realised it when something happened... When there was some talk that only the top 3 or 5 people in the class could go, the head prefect wanted to go too... so as the deputies... The couselling teacher said that prefects could go if they want.. And the top 3 went because they were in the first class and they wanted to go.. I Wanted to go too... but if I went, the school will be hanging... So, if i had quit, what would have happened? I will never forget the experience i had in form4, along with the fellow prefects who had walked the path with me... They may not know what i was thinking and the problems i was facing back then... but their presense really became my main support to continue with what i was striving for... The were so many things we have been through together in form4...
When it came into form 5, my pressure dropped a little, as i dropped my accounts subject in school, but other resposibilities kept pouring in... I am independent now... I can only pull myself together by onself's strength, along with my fellow comrade's help... Form 5 was a tough year, but not half as tough as it was in form 4, even with SPM around... When it came to the day i was suppose to hand my post to the next KD, i knew the new KD would be devasted...knowing that she was the exact copy of me, hoping to be i the tops... yet... we hsare the same fate.. I told her my feelings when i was in the shoes.... I really understood how she felt.. That very momentum coming right into the face is not as easy to be handled as normal people think i would be... Watching jia ying cry... i looked back and thought that if i did the same thing.. Yes i did.. I questioned... why can't i be up there... after every single minute i gave for the board... missing my early beauty sleep... even weddings... spending money on almost every possible expenses on the prefect... But, im just not sure what khye theng said was true, " you are a great prefect.. But you will shine more as KD," Did I? Did I shine? I'm still questioning myself up till today... But one thing is.. im not really sure if i had grown... The wasy i speak, look and performance... I always question myslef... is my way of life what i rally want? Being apart from my friends, not to have to go for activities with them like badminton.. And i found my answer... Yes , I choes the road.. I am different in my way... which makes me grow even at a higher rate compared to the others... I chose squash over badminton, chose chinese class over chemistry tuition, chose to walk alone instead of in a group... It gave me more time to think about everything.....
Now... my high school life is finally over.... I have overcame all the impossibilities in my hi-school life, together with my fellow friends support... I really enjoying being a prefect and i really want to do it again.. live it again... if i can live it with the ones i had again... It would be fun...
Jia wei, non-sensitive and stubborn... you are right in your ways and i enjoyed out arguements over everything...
Stephanie... You were really wise in handling every subjects after you step up, i really look up to you as a "mum"
Iman.. you enjoy life to the extreme, at the same time wisely taking control of the fu, instead the fun taking over you... you lighten things aroung... our only "I-Man"..
Yuet Yin... we have been the best friends since form 1... And we wnet through plenty from Siti's departure to exams and to the interviews and hardships.. out friendship was never questionable... Having you around is like ahving a sister around...
Jer Renn... we match each other in so many aspects from scouting to buddhism.. and the experiences we went rhough were like gold form heaven... The moments spent together was really a blessing... what would i be if you didn't appear in my life?
Izzie... I can talk about anything with you.. from jokes to really serious matters... You never failed to hear me out and we both exchange really precious ideas about each others' life... Walking the hi-school life with you was really fun...
Steven... You never failed to boast about youself at times but you know when and where to stop and you are very sensible and sensitive... You may be evasive at times but now.. i realised we had form a bond that nothing could really break it easily...
Benjamin Lam.. Your sacarsme was a headache.... We have lots disagreements but we figured it out eventually... You are fun but maybe just don't push stuffs around too hard..
Kean Weng.... What would i be doing if you weren't around? you were like my deputies more compared to Hon weng or Haziq... Whenever i needed you... you were right there.. You are very dependable and also you care for your friends a lot... never kill that trait from you...
Jay Son.... You and Kean Weng would be the unbeatabl duo if you became my deputies... You were a great friend and we share secrets between ourselves and talked about plenty of stuffs... And you were also there whenever i needed you and i never doubted you ability to handle situations... Glad to know you well....
Yi Xian... Although we got close after being prefect comrades, Im glad i didn't quit and had the chance to venture into you and your personality... You maybe a little hot-headed at times but you learn very fast... faster than any normal people and you adaptation skills is just superb... I doubt that anyone else can get to your level easily... not even the smart asses in Setia... I truely cherish the moments with you around...
Jessica Tee... Knowing you for this one and a half years was a miracle.. I didn't imagine us to be as close as this and you have been a great mate around... We shared plenty of stuffs around and the useful informations and also the experiences we've been through was really a pleasure.. The secrets we shared and the time we comfort each other was really warming... Its a pleasure to know you in my late hi-school period i never regretted being your friend.
Christina... We may not be as close as other but we also shared quite a number of memories in the hi-school life... It was really splendid to have you around and you are really a great friend.. you always lend you hands out whenever we needed them... I will always remember you....
And this is one room I will miss forever.....
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
Signing Off,
Binn
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