Dream dates for saturday?

Valentines, yes who doesn't know about this? Yet, does anyone really knew the meaning behind the celebration's name? From my frog-gitive knowledge, The Early Medieval acta of either Saint Valentine were excerpted by Bede and briefly expounded in Legenda Aurea.^[13] According to that version, St Valentine was persecuted as a Christian and interrogated by Roman Emperor Claudius II in person. Claudius was impressed by Valentine and had a discussion with him, attempting to get him to convert to Roman paganism in order to save his life. Valentine refused and tried to convert Claudius to Christianity instead. Because of this, he was executed. Before his execution, he is reported to have performed a miracle by healing the blind daughter of his jailer. One of the stories sounded like that. So, the element "love" didn't show As obvious as what we have in time. Article off,Wikipedia.

So back to dream dates, seriously, up-to-date I have no idea how a date actually sounds or feels like. Why? Haha... Because I'm in the "least-wanted-date" list on the top ranking, maybe... How does it feel when you walked down the halls in the mall; how does it feel sitting face to face with your date,sipping off the same glass of milkshake; how does it feel when both of you watch a romantic/horror movie(coz these two genre are when guys can take advantge of *grins*). Actually, I think I'm immuned to all these, after ten years of self-discrimination, I do not have the energy nor might left to think of getting a girl friend, let alone getting a date. Sometimes, looking at the couples walking around, I'd choose to enter MPH for a book to communicate with myself. I'd rather walk alone freely in the mall, instead of tagging with another personae which I need to please or follow. I don't know. It must be after the years' affections. I'm destinied to walk alone.

Yet, dream dates are for people out there~

For example, dream dates for guys in my age, some had narrowed down to these:
A>Megan Fox, because of her body?

B>Jessica Alba,because of the butt?

C>Emma Watsons,because of her British slang?PS:put her brother in the most wanted list also....

did you noticed all of them are americans? why couldn't they get some asians?
D>Most of them said hot Japanese chick off the streets of Tokyo, because they are great in bed???????

E>Linda Chung, because she have the innocent-yet-naughty look


Thats what I got from the people I know, well at least some of them... but dream dates for girls? I think there will be a few thousand post for each of them... Maybe girls fantasizes more than guys do during puberty, but after marriage, guys seemed to be wilder... Ugrh~ Human brains are soooo complicated!!!!

Fine, by hook or by crook, i will give 5 of them from my girl friends around...
A>Lee-Yong Dae, because of his cute face and his skills in court

B>Lee-Hom, because of his looks and his talents

C>Mario Maurer,because of his teenage look, plenty of big Jie-jie wants to eat him up.

D>Robbert Pattison,because of his role from Twilight, a great hit among girls.

E>Barrack Obama, because believe it or, some girls thinks that he is cute...

So, who is going to be your dream date this valentine? Have you got any yet? Owh well, I think i'm jus gonna hide in my comfty blanket and snooze my way to lala land(a.k.a. dream land by pn mah wai leng)


Swithering Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

Thanks to Nuff Nang

Cinepleasure, where we shared the dream~

Yes, they are the coolest online blogosphere ever! From earning bucks, knowing bloggers to uber events holding, what else isn't there? Ok enough rambling and sorts, the point is to thank Nuff Nang for the premiere tickets to The Punisher 2:Warzone in Cathay Cineplesure last night~ which turns out to be Chap Goh Meh at the same time~

For the damn reason, I really hated myself for not having a driving license by now due to my "must-study-first" theory last year for SPM. So, I couldn't exactly find a person to tag with me as most of them were busy, and a person who can't drive is out of the list.(Pretty jerk for a date huh?) But in the end of the day, thanks to my close friend, or rather one of my ji-mui(slang for close sisters only in Canto, which makes me a girl) Yi Lin, for her mum was superbly kind enough to drop us there before meeting Yi Lin's uncle.

No, she is not my date, just a friend bringing another friend for a movie,i'm definitely out of "the wanted date" list forever,for my babiostic behavior... Anyway, there was pre-screening segment in the cafe "Out-Post". No, scouts its not the one in ss15.This is a cafe for collectors of toys such as Star Wars, Marvels, Air Crafts or arms for the Nuff Nangers to gather and have fun together.
The exterior of Outpost and the Nuff Nang booth
The interior of the cafe

Recognize anyone here? Yes its Robb playing monopoly with his dudes~

There were games held in there, but I was busy looking around as it was the first time for me to step foot in The Curve..(Can you believe that?all the more reason to get driving license ASAP!!!) As Yi Lin practiced her skills as a future flight-attendant, I was fascinated by the surroundings and amount of traffic in the Curve. And yes, I spotted a leng chai again. Sad to say, its hard to spot leng luis as I am 6 feet and I could barely noticed leng luis which most of the time, shorter than me... Imagine that!!! And holy~ The Curve was attached to Ikea, Cineplesure and Ikano at the same time!!! Haha, the typical malay and chinese saying,"a frog under the well" really applies on me now!

Yet, we were didn't miss the game event in Outpost, and I got the chance to witness Huai Bin, from the sixth seal in his splendid gunning skills... Should have taken part in the games, owh well, till the next Nuff Nang event... Did I mention about the S.W.A.T guys? Yeah there were two of them sorta being the guard or something outside by the booth where we claimed our tickets, and I sorta took a picture with one of em~
The S.W.A.T. with attitude~ Though I'm much more taller!
The "to-be-shot" manequines(or some other spellings)

And we went for the movie~ Just when we thought the movie was about to start, the whole scene was cut and the lights were on. I was like, okay, nuff nang got a cinema with technical problem? Actually it turned out to be a gimmick for the movie stating that there was a Frank Castle among us, the audience. I was like, okay... So if the lights were on, he should be around the switch right? Then the S.W.A.T. fellas popped in and said there was a BOMB under our seats... Instantly, almost every audience grabbed beneath their seats for the "Bomb". This is gonna be the 1st tie in history when people actually WANTS to reach the bomb... And there it was, with a girl and there was a so-called squad disintegrating the bomb. Later on, there was also a short sketch where the Punisher appeared and pulled off some stunts witht he S.W.A.T. fellas. And well expected, the squad lost and the Punisher shoved off with pride~ Cool gimmick, but the scene was a little too quiet, a little BGM would help ALOT!!!!!

The movie, I must say it was unexpectingly MARVELOUS!!!! (duuh, its under Marvels studios, of course its marvelous~) I mean, I didn't get to watch its prequel and my though was, I think I got myself into a boring one. Yet, I braced myself and prepared for the movie. And it turned out well, actually too well! From the plot, effects, stunts, and a little comical dialogues, the movie went smoothly and full of packed vigilant. The music used, fits in PERFECTLY. I could feel my body moving as the music pounded in the air.

There was a few scenes really great... Spoilers ahead, so scroll down if you wish
The first was the one where Castle shot the jumping monkey in the air with some bomb and he turned into dust instantly... Funny and bombastic literally
The second one was when Billy theBeaut became Jigsaw, when his face was turned into chunks of chapati after being grinded in the item proccessor.
The third one was during Jigsaw recruiting the Asians, blacks and some undergrounders for the war against Castle, and they were acting patriotic? It was just pure humour!
The fourth one will be when Castle killed the blacks with his bazooka thingy by just inserting the launcher of the gun into the door's hole, and bombed the whole black squad into pieces..
The last one will be the last confrontation of Castle with Jigsaw, when he chose to sacrifice his friend for the other little girl's life. He shot Looney Bin James (LBJ) when Jigsaw killed Micro but he successfully took the advantage over Jigsaw later on.

Ok, 5 spoiler scenes is enough for now~ There were plenty of good quotes in the movie too. "What I recommend, everyone watch the show because, even my friend Yi Lin could stand the gore, why not you? Just get the tickets off any cinemas soon~


PS:In case who of you didn't know Yi Lin, this is a pic for you~


Swithering Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

Have you ever?

Have you ever look yourself in the mirror,
Yet you knew deep down it wasn't you in the reflection?
Have you ever lay on the bed staring on the fan spinning,
And wished for another to be by you to warm you?
Have you ever logged into a messenger,
But you have no idea who you can confide in?
Have you ever been confused,
To follow your heart or to please others?
Have you ever tried letting go,
In the end you insisted to hold on?
Have you ever looked outside the windows into the crowd,
And hoped you were no different from them?
Have you ever been lonely,
As if you were naked and powerless?
Have you ever heard the inner voice of the man,
Who stood as firm as a mountain?
Have you ever questioned,
If you were right to choose your path?
Have you ever got hurt,
And never recovered from the scars?
Have you ever been at the same state for ten years,
Then go for a sudden change?
Have you ever thought that,
Ten years can really affect a personae for a life time?
Have you ever walked with a person by your side,
And could never take your eyes of thee?
Have you ever wished thee could bother you forever,
Yet you had never belonged in thee's heart?
Have you ever been so lost,
Till you need to scribble on the virtual walls?


To shed tears with a person is to know how much you had love thee for the first time....


Swithering Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

Of Os, Bs and Abs Zen 6

My eyes widened as if they were about to pop out of the sockets.. Oh my goodness!!!! I press the nurse nudge button as soon as possible. At the same time I tried to hold Suane’s blood from gushing out of the wrist. But it was useless. The blood keep gushing out form her wrist. “Suane!!! Wake up! It’s morning now!! WAKE UPP!!!!!” I shouted as I carried her to the emergency room. Three nurses dressed in pure whitish uniform dashed towards me with a portable patient’s bed and rushed to the nearest emergency ward. I tagged along till the nurses asked me to stay outside the ward, until she was treated.

I punched the concrete wall in the hospital. I can feel the numb sensation in my fist. The drawings hanging right above the spot I punched shook. I punched and punched. How could I had let Suane to take the razor??? I should have been more careful! How did I got the doctor’s license at the first place??? How did I passed the 3 year’s houseman ship??? How???? I continued until a nurse passed by and ask me to stop hurting myself and the wall. I looked at her in fury, till she trembled as she looked into my eyes. She dropped her report plate and stood back. As the plate clacked itself on the ground, I snapped and squatted down to pick up her plate. As I handed it over, I apologized. She nodded and walked away in high speed.

Slowly, I shuffled towards the seats and sat down. I covered my face with my hands. It smelled like iron. It was Suane’s blood, staining my hands right now. If any, ANYTHING had happened to her, I will never forgive myself. I waited patiently, hoping the Japan’s doctors are skillful enough to treat Suane’s razored wrist. AS minutes passed by, the ward’s door opened. I sped towards the doctor and ask for Suane’s condition. She lost too much blood. And the worse part was, her blood is B negative, which the hospital is now in shortage. Without hesitation, I offered my blood. As mine is O, it is universal to any recipients. The doctor asked if I had any disease. My blood boiled and my eyes filled with flames. I pushed him towards the wall and scowled, “I am a doctor. And my friend is dying in there. Do you think I still have time to lie about my blood’s purity????” The doctor slowly pushed my hands, “Fine, you are a doctor. This way,” and led me into the ward for the blood donation.

Obviously the procedure is simple, its just the process which gives me the headache. Constant wait and eyesore of seeing my friend’s suffering. Suane was breathing really weakly. She was planning to give up hee life already. I grasped her hands in my table-plate sized hands. Her hands were much more smaller. They were cold, and the icy sweat were slowly drying off in my warm palms. “Please Suane, do not give up. I beg you, do not ever give up,” I whispered in her ears. She was still lying her, as if she was dead, but still breathing in a very slow pace. Seconds passed as my blood dripped into the tube, and flowing into her body. She was still unconscious. I felt so powerless the first time as a doctor. I wasn’t allow to do anything. Gosh, this really eats me up. Slowly, I passed out.

There was a striking sensation on my eyes, as I could feel someone tapping my head. I widened my eyes even though it was painful and forced my body up. Slowly, Suane’s figure reappeared in my eyes. She was smiling and her face wasn’t as pale as before. “That took you long to realize, Binn,” she mumbled weakly. I shook off her hand on my head and replied, ”Well, if it wasn’t for you, I couldn’t have been so tired could I?” As I lifted up my right wrist to prove m statement. The whole room went silent instantly. “Look Suane, I have no idea what happened, but the least you could do is to tell me any of your problems. I will be by your side to help you out. Can you do that for youself?”

She looked at her hands. She stared at them for a very long time. Before I noticed, Suane put her hands on my right hand, where the drip was inserted. “Binn, it was Sein,” Huh? Sein? What does he have to do with this? “He was drunk. Cystol called me to Kindori to pick him up as he didn’t know which hotel Sein was staying.” “And YOU knew Suane?” I asked. Gosh, what in the world is going on here? “Yes, I bumped into him outside the hospital when you were having your major operation in the theatre. And we talked.” Okay, guess that was my fault there. But I kept quiet and allowed her to continue. “I got him out of Kindori, but I got him out through the back door…” and she started sobbing. “And then?” I asked with a soft voice.

“And then he RAPED me!!!! HE was with alcohol and he raped me right behind those dark alleys!!! He didn’t care, he just did what he wanted!!!!” MY eyes widened like they never did before. Sein, raped Suane…..

Swithering Off,

Kurozakura-Binn

Where I Belonged

For a very long period I had long searched, who I am and where do I belonged. As for sports, I finally knew that I am belonged to SQUASH. Many may say, squash isn't as interesting as badminton or basketball, and it is a waste for a person as tall as me to play squash, but in squashing, I had found great friends who give great advices and great support. Okay, this may violate plenty , but it is MY experience. Unlike badminton or basketball, which when I picked up, the people do not give constructive critics, instead they try their best to insult you to the lowest. Okay, fine there ARE some who doesn't practice this, but that was what I went through. After spending 4 long years in squashing, I found out that the people there are much more friendlier, happier and they take stuffs seriously, even when they are hundred times better than you. Yes, the circle of squashers I joined may be girls mostly, but the male squashers were also splendid personas, and they still are. And for these, I choose squash over ANY sports, not even food can take over squash. I am myself during squash. I do not need to pretend. I do not need to be much more better. I just need to be myself. And during squash, is when I can express myself most and have fun to the max. I could share secrets with these magnificent people, and they are very supportive. I do not need to hide a single scratch from them. These are SQUASHERS:

1. Kian Yip, the big brother who brought me into squash.
2. Siti Aminah, a.k.a. Mak Mahyun who brough squash into my life.
3. Soon Min, one of my very mentors.
4. Celine Choo, the princess who ruled the court.
5. Chandni, Rakshan,Raz,Rash,Joyce Sia, Izwan, Grace, Bao Ling,Izreen,Wendy,Suthasheni,Samuel Wong,Rui Zhen(a.k.a. Olivia), Balqis,Foond Shiang, and Ken who brough life during squash.
6. Yanne, who had also grew with me in squash.
7. Tony, Wilson and Elroy who won me my first MSSS GOLD medal and guided me during my squash.(still owe them a lunch though)
8. And one and only Coach Leong~ who had been my teacher for 4 solid years~
9. Puan Loo and Puan Noreena for supporting me as the teacher advisor~


And back to work, I QUITED RAKUZEN~~~ Why? Too tiring and not worth the pay. But I will sure do miss the place and people as they were super duper nice!!! On the first day i returned with my parent's company workers, Mama LEong treated me with GREEN TEA CALPIS, my Si Heng(senior in canto), Ah Leong treated us with super duper big Ba Li Tong, some close to shell-type seafood which is hundred times bigger than normal Ba Li Tong in Malaysia, only VIPs could eat them~, Ellie treated me with double serving of Fruits and Potato Salad(super nice of her), and Paul treated me also with double serving of CHAWAN MUSHI~~~ Love LOVE RAkuzen ~~~~ Too bad I couldn't take the pressure~ But hey, I have connections right? Most probably bringing my friends or future potential customers to Rakuzen,imagine that, once a most junior waiter, a VVIP customer in future.... Muahahahah(over-self-indulging here) Did I mentioned Ellie invited me for her birthday cake in Rakuzen? Here are the pics~~~

Ellie Blowing her cake's candle~ someone is 25 this year~~

Ellie and Mama Leong cutting the cake for everyone~
How many times you seepeople eating cakes with CHOPSTICK????!!!! Way to go senior~
The other guys busy taking picture and waiting for their cakes~Owh did I mentioned about my PAY CHECK?

After that, its camwhore time!!!


The leng chai same age as me~
One and only Mama Leong~
ME, Sutiana and MArina.. Indon rocks eh?
The leng chai and another si heng~Thuya and Me~

Me n Cindy~
Ellie , Me and Mr Nice Paul Benedict~
Me and Abbey~~ sometimes people call her like they call meMe and ELlie~

And after that I also went for the last gathering with Kar Wyaii and Arellyn before they head back for NS in Dessert Bar, though i didn't take any as i was late~
And not to forget some shots in my open house, for those who can't make it, you missed lotsa fun!!!

Shit i looked damn fat in the picture......

Now im only posting this rigth after my power supply recover as there was a power supply shortage 1 a.m. in the morning and i continued from 4 a.m.... there goes my face agian... look how
I love you leng chai and leng lui bloggers~~~

PS: I LOVE YOU NUFFNANG!!!! I won myself a premiere ticket for The Punisher :Warzone!!!
Don't know how is it gonna be... but im sure going for it!!! Thanks nuff nang!!!

In the mood for classic POwer RANgers now... Love Billy and all Blue Rangers~


Swtihering Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

A tradition of excellence

Sometimes... I really do feel the contradiction in myself a lot... I mean I am the one sibling in my house which is eager to practice and know all the family tradition, yet I may be one of them who breaks most of the tradition in the family...

Example 1:
I'm the first PREFECT in the whole family of mine, including cousins from both paternal and maternal side.

Example 2:
I'm the first SCOUT in the my own family, who constantly spend on lots and lots of scouting equipments.

Example 3:
I'm the first member who actually planned and willing to study abroad.

Example 4:
I'm the first member who got flying colours MOST of the time in the academics.(above average only lar)

Example 5:
I'm the first member in family who is crazy enough to join lots and lots of extra co-curiculum and still survive in the first class of my school.

Stupid enough, they aren't exactly the REAL traditions, but I am having the feeling now.. P.L.U. outside there, you understand what I mean. Seeing my cousin who is now pregnant with her second baby, I'm worried sick. I am only 18!!!!! And I'm worrying now..... Gosh, maybe its because of the people around me~ What if I AM what I think I would be? Can I break the tradition and walked out to face the world? What will people think about me? Living in a competitive environment has successfully made me one of the "kiasu" people around who really put their "faces" as the prime factor in life. Thanks to my mum.

Sometimes, I really do wish I could ignore the views and comments of others, but I know I couldn't. I really take others' comments and thoughts on me very hard and seriously. I will bring myself to a corner and think really deeply about someone's complaint or suggestion on for few long hours. This is when my brother keep knocking my bathroom's door as I really love the joy of water from the shower pounding on every inch of my body~ That's life!!! And that is also the only life which I can really think really deeply about my life~ So, how am I suppose to handle this?

Back to tradition, I just had my "Bai Tee Kong" ritual done in 1 o'clock morning, Malaysia time zone. It is a Hokkien's family tradition to pray for this special god as he will nurture our family with luck and properity throughout the lunar year. And of course, as this is a really important ritual, plenty preparations is NECCESARY~

The "kim-chuas"(gold paper) is a must as we will need to burn it and send it to the tee kong so that he can bless our family with fortune so the whole family had to spend the whole night to fold the papers into certain shapes as it brings different meaning.. And I was in the cam-mood so i took down all the pictures~ Up there, my two sisters younger and elder were busy folding them~
And obviously, in every occasions or ritual, there will always be FOOD!!!!! See the roasted pig right in the middle??? It weighs 37 kg!!!!!! Obviously its not only for the whole family... We will chop it off to offer them to our close relatives and friends... And there was also FISH, CRABS,(see the red huge pile? yummy yummy~),EGGS, ANG Ku KUIH, PRAWNS, FOOd and also HOI MEI BOU~ what is Hoie mei bou? Its a dish cooked with all the so-called top seafood containing abalone, sea cucumber, fish ticket(directly translated from chinese) and scallops..
And when there are occasions, there are fun!!! This liittle baby is what we called fire crackers~(like nobody knows) and i guess you know how to play with it lar ok?


But the little baby had also scared my little girl girl over till it was trembling after we had fun.. You should have seen her reaction when the fire crackers flew up and made the "beep~" sound... super hilarious!!!!! But later when I hugged her and found out she was really scared, I broke down because she is like my baby!!! HACHI I LOVE YOU~~~~ I love her eyes, this reminds me of Bolt... funnyness~~~


So, after some fun,we had to get back to work~ My family screwed me again because when they were busy putting up the kim-chua mountain, I was busy taking pictures for my blog~>.<~ Look! GOLD MOUNTAIN!!!! Haha took us half an hour to put them up~ Lets hope my fortune luck can improve more~

Haha, this is a really cool fire crackers!!!! It contains 100 pieces of bombs(so to speak) and once you light it, the crackers fly up in a very orderly manner, forming a peacock-like semi circle formation of bursting starlight... Super cool!!! Thanks to my dad, yet i have to idea where he got these banned stuffs...>.< This is when we started to lit the kim-chua mountain for tee kong hahaha... Ekkonen is so going kill me for doing this.... so most chinese are global-warming contributers~>.<~

And when everything is done, its our time to eat~ look, this is when my dad slaughtering tghe slaughtered roasted pig >.<~ and my younger sis beside assisting him~

This is what we will and may be eating for the rest of the month~ NONSENSE!!!! No la, we will give it to friends and relatives~ Haha, look at the sexy pig~

Wasn't that tiring, but really love chinese occasions as we get to play and eat, yet i also hate it as it makes me fat with all the food!!!! love and hate being chinese~
Obviously, im vain enough to cam-whore and take a picture of myself~ ok i may not look that well ok because Chinese NEw Year made me fAT!!!!! Just give me until march ok????



Signing Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

Personality Test~

Got this off Stephanie Elise's blog so tried it... not sure if it is accurate though... why don't YOU peeps decide?


http://www.quizbox.com/personality/

Your Handwriting

If you write some strokes thickly but others are thin, it's likely that you're a very unpredictable person. Sometimes you'll get very serious about something, but there's always the possibility that you'll suddenly lose interest. It can take you a long time to complete a task--if it gets done at all before something else grabs your attention.

What type of personality do you have?

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

The Animal Test

Here is the analysis:

1. A kind of person you will be attracted to in a real life situation is those who are unbridled and free
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that makes you feel irresistible is being straightforward, and having your partner speak directly.
3. The impression you'd like to give to your lover is loyal and faithful.
4. One reason that would make you break up with your partner is his or her being emotional. If they're moody, you won't know how to please them.
5. The kind of relationship you'd like to build with your partner is one where you can talk about everything and anything. No secrets are kept.
6. Would you commit adultery? Society and morality worry you. You wouldn't do anything wrong after marriage.
7. About marriage, you've always wanted to get married, but in fact, you don't even know what it really is.
8. About love, at this moment, you think of love as a commitment for both parties.

Why do you love someone?

Here is the reason:

You think he or she is a very smart one. You love his/her brain.

How do you choose your soulmate?

The decisions you have made indicates your criteria in choosing your soulmate.
More important matters come first on the list below:

1. Love
2. Education
3. Money
4. Appearance

Emotional Test

Here is the analysis:

Your emotional controlled rate: 37%

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face.

Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

Psychological Test

Here is the analysis:

• You have a complicated personality.
• How ambitious you are depends on the height that you answered, which is: Top.
• You are stubborn, the size of this personality as seen by others is medium.
• Diamond means stubborn personality.
• You are also superior and impressive.
• You are an opportunist.
• Your best friend is the one you need when you are in trouble.

One Word to Oneself

Here is the analysis:

• Your own personality is Loyal.
• Your partner's personality is Proud.
• Your enemy's personality is Yucky.
• What you think about sex is Awakening.
• What you think about your own life is Soothing.

How attractive are you?

You are extremely attractive to the opposite sex. You are not only good looking but your personality is also charming in many ways.

You know how to get along with people and can allocate your time well. You are always popular among the opposite sex.

How well will you survive in this wild world?

Here is the analysis:

Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need. You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful.

Your Working Style

You radiate sympathy and fellowship. You concern yourself chiefly with the people around you and place a high value on harmonious human contacts. You are friendly, tactful, and sympathetic. You are persevering, conscientious and orderly even in small matters, and inclined to expect others to be the same. You are particularly warmed by approval and sensitive to indifference. Much of your pleasure and satisfaction comes from the warmth of feeling of people around you. You tend to concentrate on the admirable qualities of other people and are loyal to respected persons, institutions, or causes, sometimes to the point of idealizing whatever you admire.

You have the gift of finding value in other people's opinions. Even when these opinions are in conflict, you have faith that harmony can somehow be achieved and you often manage to bring it about. To achieve harmony, you are ready to agree with other's opinions within reasonable limits. You need to be careful however, that you don't concentrate so much on the viewpoints of others that you lose site of your own.

You are mainly interested in seeing the possibilities and beyond what is present, obvious, or known. Intuition heightens your insight, vision, and curiosity for new ideas. You tend to be interested in books and moderately tolerant of theory. You are likely to have a gift of expression, but may use it in speaking to audiences rather than in writing. You think best when talking with people.

You are at your best in jobs that deal with people, and in situations that require building cooperation. You are found in jobs such as teaching, preaching, counseling, and selling. You may be less happy in work demanding factual accuracy, such as accounting, unless you can find a personal meaning in your work. You have to make a special effort to be brief and businesslike and not let sociability slow you down on the job.

You base your decisions on your personal values. While you like to have matters decided or settled, you do not necessarily want to make all the decisions yourself. You run some risk of jumping to conclusions before you understand a situation. If you have not taken time to gain first-hand knowledge about a person or situation, your actions may not have the helpful results you intended. For example, in the beginning of a new project or job, you may do things you assume should be done, instead of taking the time to find out what is really wanted or needed. You have many definite "shoulds" and "should nots," and may express these freely.

You find it especially hard to admit the truth about problems with people or things you care about. If you fail to face disagreeable facts, or refuse to look at criticism that hurts, you will ignore your problems instead of searching for solutions.

The five-question personality test

Here is the analysis:

1. Your ideal mate has a sense of humor and is lively.
2. You always compare yourself with others. You make your wishes too difficult to come true.
3. Success depends on someone's faith in their ability. That's your attitudes towards success.
4. You realize that there are always ups and downs. Joy and sorrow are constant companions.
5. You are emotional, sincere and optimistic.

What do your friends think of you?

Here is the analysis:

You are cheerful but watch out for gossips. Friends think that you stick your nose into most matters. But because of your cheerfulness, you are often forgiven. Try to be far away as possible from gossips.

Your Hidden Talent:The Mass Communicator

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.


Well? DO they sound like??? Some really do but it may be my self-centeredness too... owh well... not much people TRUELY know me anyways... Honestly speaking, nobody does~


Signing Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

Decision~

Ok its chinese new year right??? I guess everyone was hoping for a OPEN HOUSE by Yong Bin again right? Kar Wyaii I really wanted to make it this week, but im bonded to my work, so i can only do it next week, but you wouldn't be around anymore!!!! Ugh... im sorry... guess everyone can't enjoy CNY with you... But anyways... I am planning to make it tooo~ B ut by the time i make it, i will be quiting my job... Willy sorry i won't be around during April if you drop by in Rakuzen~

So its that im making the open house, but im quiting my job in rakuzen because it will be sooo much burden and stress on me if I work and organized this open house at the same time, not to mention my Bloody face and body is getting worse by the day due the to stressful and never-ending work in rakuzen~ Fun... BUT TIRING!!!!! I think I can bare with it after I really completed my tertiary education~

Ok people now i need you help... For those who are interested please drop a comment in this pose so i can make sure who is coming and preparations and all ok? The details are as below, but there may be change ok? drop you comment, along with your phone number as i had "killed" my phone last Rat year and i lost all my freaking contacts... help me out here ok? Details are as BELOW:

Date:7th Februrary 2009

Time:7.00pm till midnight

Dress-code: Chinese New Year larh....

Contacts: Call yong bin or drop your number or email elder_lightsdesky@hotmail.com

Venue: Yong Bin's house, if you don't know... call me lar...

PS: Bring cash $$$$$$$$$ if you want as people love to gamble in my house... and don't forget ang pao for me ok?(jk jk) and bring anything if you want.. but try not to overdose on beers ok? i had experience last 2 years... very horrible~

Thats about it... but once again, NOT CONFIRMED~~~ Everything can be changed due to circumstances so people... brace youself~~~~

Now.. im quiting my job soon...see the consequences...

im going to lose my insentives...
im losing more experiences...
im "unemployed=penganggur" now...

and the pros...

im free!!
im working in my mum's office which ives me 5 times salary!!!
im hitting the gyms!!!
im getting back to my japanese classes!!!
im getting my hands on saxophone!!!

so... we can see the diff CLEARLY right? ok... time to entertaint my cousins~ later peeps!


Signing Off,
Kurozakura-Binn

Ong Lai~~!!!!!

Well just finished helping my dad to put up some decor in my house... one of the very important elements in the celebration of Chinese New Year, which i will be celebrating in around 21 more hours... Since im a Hokkien(one of the branches of chinese people, which consist of several "gangs" such as Cantonese, Hokkien, Teo Chew, Hakka, Shang hai, Hainanese) Pineapple, in hokkien called "ong lai" which an exact pun for "Rich come" in hokkien too really fits in alot of partion in the decors in my house and so i was helping my dad to set them up. Thanks loads to my height and physique, i successfully hung up all the decors in the living room without the usage of the ladder.. haha self-praising and self-indulging~~~

So then... i went to mom's room with bro to ge our new year's shirts and pants on the go, and the fashion starts... this time i am much more confident in choosing my outfits as i am not as fat as i was in the past ten years (tears flowing~) wow i can't believe myself!!!! i mean i can FIT into all the shirts i bought... and i can even fit into the one my dad couldn't!!!! Finally some CONFIDENT in myself!!! Guess all the hard work and advices willy gave really worked!!! at least 45 minutes jogging 3 times per week~ though i cut down to 30 minutes, but the speed increased from 5 to 6 in constant~ and my belly lose quite a few inches~~~ thanks Willy!!!

And now back to work again... seriously Malaysians are such killers... they always visit the place a few days before the BIG holidays starts... To wear all the workers down... Phew~ Today was really tiring... Its like the customers keep pouring in every time one table was cleared... But.. it means more INSENTIVE for me so guess the hard work pays!!! And today was also the big cleaning as we will be closing for three days... We are chinese and we need break also ok~~~ And we ended the day with a Yee SAng!!! Rakuzen Style!!!! HOly crap their Yee Sang are not the Ciplak like in the chinese restaurants.. You can see and take the HUGE salmon right out of the huge plate by itself!!! Japanese style.. Splendid~!!!

Back to leng chais and leng luis... not much today because i was so busy all the time... Washing, serving, teaing... Talk about tea... I can't believe there was no WATER today!!! Oh my fucking god!!! I could hardly make any green tea for the customers and they were freaking pissed off!!! Lucky my super duper cute angelic smile turn them off their heat when i refilled the empty ocha cups...(self indulging again~) So.. leng chais i have spotted one... but too bad his family was kind of the cool-rich type which rarely smiles at you.. so i didn't bother to approach their table, plus his sister looked like some shit oni.. my humble opinion lar.. and there were freaking noisy kids around... i don't mind if they play and run around and all but i super hate it when they cry and their parents don't give a damn thing about it... Fuck those parents~~~~ My supervisor was also pissed off and asked them to leave as they had already paid the bill and done dining... and plus they were kinda "destroying" the ambience around??? Anyways, i support my supervisor fully~~~



Last but not least, im having my reunion dinner tonight... Its 3.32 a.m. now... Time to say Gong Hei Fatt Choi to all chinese in the globe may your Ox year starts with a Bull-Eyes~ Hit your way through 2009 and may you be well and happy always~ I think i should hit the hay right now...

Freaking Customers

I am complaining.. but i am some how happy about it too~~~ guess what yesterday and today was the busiest moments of RAKUZEN SS15 for the month of January 2009!!!! Seriously.. the whole place was packed!!! Only yesterday night, the upper floor(because the rakuzen im working in have 2 storeys, and im working on the top one) managed to earn RM10,000++ worth of Japanese cusiens in 5 hours' time!!! Imagine that!!!! I was walking up and down to serve and all till i didn't had the time to think about thirst nor hunger!!!! Seriously, i found out i was dehydrated (not exactly though) only when i peed and my urine was totally sunset yellow... SUNSET YELLOW!!!! hows that??? guess my ADH hormone has been working really well and my kidney had really stressed up.. time to drink more green tea at work to reduce my water pressure~~~



haha may sound gay but i saw 3 leng chai today kakakakka.... plus a really cute little boy (around 3 to 5 i think) and when he was jumping up and down i was laughing like crazy..(sauyeoooow~~) But as we know, in Subang Jaya, where most people despise gay relationships, the leng chais normally have leng luis beside them as their girl friend... Yet, i kinda made eye contact with 3 of them and they were quite nice too kakakakkaka. And 2 of them were customers and one was my collegue who is working in the kitchen department.. Guess what? H is same age as i do!!! Can you believe that?? And i knew it only 2day!!! Well, i only dared to speak to him today after 3 weeks working in Rakuzen because I thought he was the cool type.. So today i was a little nice, when he was fetching some ice for water, i volunteered to get him some, even when i was busy (coz the kitcheners get water form upstairs.. so.. i need to do the dirty work as we waiters are more presentable than the chefs And his answer was Thank you ar~) with the really soft whiney voice.. I mean how normal nice girls say thank you lar.. and i flushed.. So i didn't dared to look into his eyes and said sure no problem~ >.<



Ok that was the leng chai part... now i don't see any leng luis today coz all of them were wearing FREAKIN thick make ups over their petty faces... what is the point???!!! Foundation is more than enough ( to me) and additional lip stick is ok~ but they were wearing soo thick~~~ but i only took noticed of two lady customers.. One was my scouter's girl friend.(li choong he is my penolong pemimpin daerah petaling how's that????!!!) and a hokkien native girl.



My scouter's arrival was really pressuring... i had his pressure as his underling back in high school and now coincidencely he is my customer today... omgdness... i was liking deep-breathing every moment i step near their corner... but later his gril friend was really nice nough to make me relax so it was ok in the end.. She was really nice and cute and really the poppy type of girl.. no wonder my scouter likes her.. but his personality was kinda 180 degress different as he is the unpredictable type because his facial expression rarely change, and his smiles maybe be nice and lethal~ she wished me happy new year when she was leaving~ nice girl.. And the hokkien girl was very funny too!!! When i asked for her drinks she was like.." eh eh i only know green tea is o-cha.. what is hot and what is cold ar??" luckily im a japanese literal employee and i was able to explain the names...Atsui ocha = hot green tea while Tsumetai ocha= cold green tea so she was recalling it throughout her stay... hehe Satisfaction~~~



Thats about my working these two days... tiring but really satisfying!!! its like my life has a purpose now!!! But now.. i am really depressed~ bloggers.. i feel like my life has no true meaning any more for now... I have no one to talk to.. no one to share my thoughts or feelings with... Im changing my blog address to prevent my friends from knowing me.. and im disconnecting my connections to the outside world now.. form msn, phone calls and messages... im trying to dive deep in my heart to find out who i am right now.. so please bloggers, if you have any suggestions, do drop them~~~ well... thanks to this blog.. im free to be who i am.. may i be able to dive deeper and find my meaning of life...



Signing Off,

Kurozakura-Binn