Buffetting : Of Os, Bs, and ABs zen 7

I cried as hard as I could. I could feel the stare Binn had on me, and I do not blame his helplessness. I clenched my fists so hard that I swear the manicure I did last 2 days went down the drain. "Suane, I.." Binn didn't continue with his sentences. My sobs and whimpers echoed in the room, slowing down as Binn looked onto the floor. I took a deep breath, choked a little due to the cry and recompose myself. I was hoping that he would hold my hands, and tell me everything will be alright. I was hoping that he would lend his shoulders, and comfort me till next morning comes. I was hoping, real hard.

Yet, Binn stood up abruptly, took out his phone, and blurted "Wait here,",followed by a shuffle towards the door. The door clicked as I leaned onto the bed. As the vivid memories of Sein pounded on me behind the dark allies of Kindori, tears rolled down my cheeks. I felt dirty, I felt disgusted and I felt intruded. How could I have not protected my first time for my husband, even more to a rape incident! What will my husband think of me next time? If Sein can rape me, he could have raped or slept with multiple partners before this! What if STDs come into the picture? What will become of my health?

My heart pumped faster and more furiously as those worries emerged. Without me knowing, my body dragged itself into the bathroom. As the thoughts slowly fading away in my head, a gush of hot piped water blasted over my head. I looked up and stared at the figure in the mirror. Weak, fragile, souled out. The steam filled up the room, and the reflection fogged out. I've got to clean myself. I need to clean myself. Without further due, I reached out to the shampoo dispenser and thrust the button with all my might. The oozing continued, until the door banged open, with Binn hurried into the room. My legs got tired, and slowly I slid down to the floor with walls as my lever. Whimpers started, again.

"Suane, please Suane..." Binn mumbled softly. He always had this gentleness in his words, and always during critical times. It was like yesterday that the first day Binn came up to me with his genuine care like no other. The October when we had our trials for the government exam, the scores were literally down the void. What accompanied me behind the old gymnasium block was the scent of sweat stains, buzzing of bees from the apiary and the hot green tea milk Binn made. The block was where we first met, where we shared most secrets and where we hid whenever there's a spot check. Who would want to be near any bees anyway? It was like the end of the world, and the naivety I had back then, that examinations were everything still hits me every time I thought of it. Binn had all the chance to take advantage over me when I was at my weakest, yet till today he held back. The stream of water slowly stopped as the tap screeched a little. The puddles of water splashed and the warmth of a towel covered me."Come on, get your butt up." What is with the perkiness anyway? His strong grip forcefully got me on my feet, and he walked me to the basin. "I never knew you had fetish for extensive usage of shampoo. I thought all accountants are extremely calculative."

I'm not in the mood, you digg. Shuffling out from the bathroom, my hands slipped off Binn's due to the uncleaned shampoo. A sigh filled the silence while I sat on the patient's bed. Binn tapped over and squatted in front me, wiped the liquid off my hands with the towel he got off my head. "What do you want to eat? Chinese? Western? Greece?" and the perkiness never ended. He continued to ask multiple questions as he dried my hair, without any of the questions close to "How are you doing?". Before the coldness of the water on my hair went off, I stood up, and uttered,"Get out, now." He laid the towel on my hands, stood up smiled and turned around. The door cracked and I sounded,"Why don't you ever ask me how am I doing?"


Suane.

Of Os, Bs and Abs Zen 6

My eyes widened as if they were about to pop out of the sockets.. Oh my goodness!!!! I press the nurse nudge button as soon as possible. At the same time I tried to hold Suane’s blood from gushing out of the wrist. But it was useless. The blood keep gushing out form her wrist. “Suane!!! Wake up! It’s morning now!! WAKE UPP!!!!!” I shouted as I carried her to the emergency room. Three nurses dressed in pure whitish uniform dashed towards me with a portable patient’s bed and rushed to the nearest emergency ward. I tagged along till the nurses asked me to stay outside the ward, until she was treated.

I punched the concrete wall in the hospital. I can feel the numb sensation in my fist. The drawings hanging right above the spot I punched shook. I punched and punched. How could I had let Suane to take the razor??? I should have been more careful! How did I got the doctor’s license at the first place??? How did I passed the 3 year’s houseman ship??? How???? I continued until a nurse passed by and ask me to stop hurting myself and the wall. I looked at her in fury, till she trembled as she looked into my eyes. She dropped her report plate and stood back. As the plate clacked itself on the ground, I snapped and squatted down to pick up her plate. As I handed it over, I apologized. She nodded and walked away in high speed.

Slowly, I shuffled towards the seats and sat down. I covered my face with my hands. It smelled like iron. It was Suane’s blood, staining my hands right now. If any, ANYTHING had happened to her, I will never forgive myself. I waited patiently, hoping the Japan’s doctors are skillful enough to treat Suane’s razored wrist. AS minutes passed by, the ward’s door opened. I sped towards the doctor and ask for Suane’s condition. She lost too much blood. And the worse part was, her blood is B negative, which the hospital is now in shortage. Without hesitation, I offered my blood. As mine is O, it is universal to any recipients. The doctor asked if I had any disease. My blood boiled and my eyes filled with flames. I pushed him towards the wall and scowled, “I am a doctor. And my friend is dying in there. Do you think I still have time to lie about my blood’s purity????” The doctor slowly pushed my hands, “Fine, you are a doctor. This way,” and led me into the ward for the blood donation.

Obviously the procedure is simple, its just the process which gives me the headache. Constant wait and eyesore of seeing my friend’s suffering. Suane was breathing really weakly. She was planning to give up hee life already. I grasped her hands in my table-plate sized hands. Her hands were much more smaller. They were cold, and the icy sweat were slowly drying off in my warm palms. “Please Suane, do not give up. I beg you, do not ever give up,” I whispered in her ears. She was still lying her, as if she was dead, but still breathing in a very slow pace. Seconds passed as my blood dripped into the tube, and flowing into her body. She was still unconscious. I felt so powerless the first time as a doctor. I wasn’t allow to do anything. Gosh, this really eats me up. Slowly, I passed out.

There was a striking sensation on my eyes, as I could feel someone tapping my head. I widened my eyes even though it was painful and forced my body up. Slowly, Suane’s figure reappeared in my eyes. She was smiling and her face wasn’t as pale as before. “That took you long to realize, Binn,” she mumbled weakly. I shook off her hand on my head and replied, ”Well, if it wasn’t for you, I couldn’t have been so tired could I?” As I lifted up my right wrist to prove m statement. The whole room went silent instantly. “Look Suane, I have no idea what happened, but the least you could do is to tell me any of your problems. I will be by your side to help you out. Can you do that for youself?”

She looked at her hands. She stared at them for a very long time. Before I noticed, Suane put her hands on my right hand, where the drip was inserted. “Binn, it was Sein,” Huh? Sein? What does he have to do with this? “He was drunk. Cystol called me to Kindori to pick him up as he didn’t know which hotel Sein was staying.” “And YOU knew Suane?” I asked. Gosh, what in the world is going on here? “Yes, I bumped into him outside the hospital when you were having your major operation in the theatre. And we talked.” Okay, guess that was my fault there. But I kept quiet and allowed her to continue. “I got him out of Kindori, but I got him out through the back door…” and she started sobbing. “And then?” I asked with a soft voice.

“And then he RAPED me!!!! HE was with alcohol and he raped me right behind those dark alleys!!! He didn’t care, he just did what he wanted!!!!” MY eyes widened like they never did before. Sein, raped Suane…..

Swithering Off,

Kurozakura-Binn

Of Os, Bs, and ABs, Zen 5

Haha... have been thinking of how to continue the whole thing though... finally got some ideas, old school though but lets hope i can spin stuffs around~~~

The thunder started to strike from the blackened sky. The flashes were strong enough that it made the darkest alleys clear and bright. The cab I was taking sped towards the hotel along the liquid-slippery road, splashing water from the radiating puddles of rain. The droplets of rain smashed really hard on the windows of the cab, clouding my vision towards the outside world. Yet, the fog thickened in my head was more intense. What would Suane possibly need in this hour? I looked into the Xperia, as the white digital clock was showing 1 o clock in the morning. I scratched my head and think harder. As I sediment myself into deep thoughts, the taxi driver spoke, telling me that we had arrived the destination. I gave him a thousand yen, without asking for the change I sped into the hotel. The lobby was rather bright for it has passed midnight, I took out my Xperia to check the received calls. I called the number, but there was no answer. I tried few more times but it resulted the same. I got upset and panicked at the same time. She Clled me, and she didn’t pick up the phone now. What could have happened to her? What was the problem? I walked in circles and tried to figure out everything.

As I aimlessly walked to the entrance, I saw a person standing in the rain. It wasn’t very clear as the rain was pounding really hard. I opened the door and take a clear picture of who was that. It was a lady. ‘Excuse me lady, if you continue to loiter under this weather you will catch a cold! Or worse a lightning may get you!’ She turned around, and stared at me. I glared at her, only found out that she was wearing the exact same outfit as Suane back in the hospital. I wasn’t sure if she was really Suane, but I dashed into the hotel to get an umbrella, then went and get her. As I ran towards her in the splashing rain, the person suddenly collapsed. I threw away the umbrella and quickly held her in my arms. Oh no, it IS SUANE!!!

I carried her in my arms and ran as fast as I could into the hotel. ‘Can someone get me towel and call 911 at the same time? Please this lady over here fainted!’ I sounded and laid her on the sofa in the lounge. My voice echoed in the air and every soul in the lobby turned their face towards me. One of the receptionist started to do the calling as a few sped and got me towels for drying, The rain water dripped from the top of my head into the socks. Suane was pale and her body was shivering. The waitress passed me a towel as she start to dry Suane. She wiped Suane’s hair as another waitress started to dry the water off Suane’s body. I ran to the reception counter and ask for her hotel number. Out of astonishment, they claimed they have no record of her registration.

I requested for a recheck but they gave me the same answer. Gosh, how’d she called me just now? Where is the luggage? The next second I heard the ambulance’s siren radiating in the air. I went towards Suane and carried her up. The paramedics got hold of her and laid her on the stretcher, then brought her into the ambulance. I tagged along as none of her relatives are around, ending up with me as her sole friend, excluding Sein of course. They checked her pulse and heart beat, then found out that they were normal. I was afraid that her asthma would attack again so I urged them to allow me for the check up. I did the check up thoroughly, lending one of their sthethoscope to check in with Suane’s condition. Thank goodness she was fine. Yet, she still need to enter a ward to have a full scale check.

The white van finally reached the hospital, and Suane was sent to the emergency ward instantly. As I wasn’t holding any ID I can only witness her sending into the curtained room, waiting impatiently outside the room. Fifteen minutes was as long as my 3 hours operations. Now I’d finally know how it feels waiting for someone to be operated or checked in the theatre. Sucks, really. After another long fifteen minutes, the curtain finally opened. She was doctor Kizakura. ‘She had a fever now. That heavy rain really put a hard pressure on her. She will need 3 day’s ward to recuperate herself.’ After that statement, she pulled me to a corner. ‘Mr Trelance, I’m not sure if I should tell you this. But during the check up, we found out that she had sexual intercourse. The thing is, she had bruises over her body. So, I’d suggest to talk to her and see if you want make a police report. I’m sure you couldn’t have do this to her. See you later.’ And she strode off.

I walked slowly along the corridors of the hospital. The snowy white painted walls made the whole atmosphere even gloomier as it had been. Questions swirled like colliding air molecules heated in 100 degrees’ hear. How could that have happened? What am I suppose to say or talk when I see her? How am I suppose to ask her to talk about it? And I finally reach her room. Number 329. I grabbed the knob and twisted it as the door swung open slowly, making a cracking jitter. I stepped in and saw her. She was staring at her palms wide opened. The lights weren’t switched on and the only source of shine was the full moon’s lit that night, showering her through the opened curtains. She wasn’t sobbing, nor did she realized my presence.

I walked towards her, and sat on the arm chair laid beside her patient’s bed. I switched on the light with a click beside her bed. She jumped, turned her head slowly to her right and looked at me. Her eyes were lifeless. She looked like she has got her life sucked out of herself. I frowned and gave her a really weak smile. ‘You are alright, you are safe. Just take a rest, ok?’ She continued staring at me. I didn’t know what to do. She is the first patient whom I had shared experiences before. I couldn’t give any advice at all. The silence continued until the door opened again. The nurse brought a basket of fruits as I asked her to. She laid it on the table opposite the toilet, and told me that the doctor will be checking her tomorrow morning 7 o’clock. I nodded and stood up slowly as the nurse leave the room and shut the door with a soft click. Slowly, I reached the basket and unwrapped it.

‘Binn, can you bring the basket over?’ I hesitated but she insisted on it. I didn’t want her to get upset anymore than she had and brought it towards the bed. I slid the mobile table towards her bed and aid the basket of fruits on it. ‘Can you please wash these in the toilet for me please? I want to slice some fruit for us,’ as she passed me a handful of apples and pears. I nodded and answered ‘ok’ and walked into the toilet to wash them There is one thing I know about Japan’s tap water is that it is safe and clean enough to be consumed without any filter. I washed them slowly until and heard a “thump” as if someone collapsed.

“Suane?” I asked as I walked out of the toilet. She was on the floor, with a knife on her left hand, her right wrist blasting out with blood.

Foolish thing for Suane to do isn't it? owh well... i was thinking of letting her to die off like that haha... thx again for those who've read and sorry, my chinese still over power my english kakakaa....

Signing Off,

Kurozakura-Binn

Of Os, Bs and ABs Zen 4

Took me a while to chuck in new characters.. Seemed like I had to modify them so that people don't recognize where I've got my inspirations from. There you go, Zen 4.

I shuffled towards the stretched table really hard. My ten-tanned feet weren’t willing to budge at any rat. Every single cell in my body are giving negative feedbacks and constricting me from advancing. NO way, after all these years he hunted and stalked Sein to the very corners? Does he really need to do that? Seriously! That very figure, that very hairstyle. He planned it, he designed it, he executed it.

“And then I was like, ‘hey the autopilot is not switched on yet’ and the amateur was panicking and shivering! Hahahaha….” Geez, that sinister laugh. It must him. Who else possess the ability and weirdness to do that laugh? I sat beside Sein, doubting that he would notice, and ordered myself sa-ke. Quietly, I enjoyed myself, canceling the noise and irritating laughs of the person. It continued until Sein called me again, realizing I was already sitting beside him and showing him my Xperia.

“Young! Why didn’t you told me you were here? I was starting to worry about you!” ‘Yeah, you were STARTING to Not already have. Seemed like you are having loads of fun with this fella over here to me.’ I answered with an icy tone. He gave me an im-so-sorry face and stood up. ‘Remember this guy? Cystol Howal from 5 Akazakura! He too pursued piloting, but the defensive division.’ Yeah, he was all about military and the engineering mumbo jumbos back in high school. Owh great can’t believe I had t meet him here, I was expecting an old friend reunion, not lame ass confrontation. Anyway, I have to bare with it, just to entertain Sein, how long can we meet each other from now? Sein sat back and took a bite of grilled chicken. ‘Scrumptious~ Kindori’s the best!’ ‘Isn’t this the first time you’ve been here?’ I asked out of anxiety. “We came here after the air craft systemic conference during our first year. It was really intimidating knowing the smarts in Japan. Yet, we became better didn’t we?” answered Cystol out of nowhere. Sein nodded while I practically ignored Cystol. We had issue back in high school. I just couldn’t stand his ignorance to everything and his self-indulging personality.

The night was really boring. I couldn’t say much to Sein because of the bloke sitting beside him and Cystol was literally stuck to Sein, even when Sein was heading to the gents. I lost my appetite to eat and had just gulped my sa-ke after ordering it. Sein was enjoying himself with Cystol, recalling everything about engines to auto pilots to cabins to motors and every single detail about air craft. Don’t they have anything else to share other than work, work and work? After one long, tiring hour of staying in Kindori’s, I’ve decided to leave the magnificent place, due to the ignorance of the two and my tiredness. ‘Sein, I think I should be going now. See you next time, if we have any chance at all,’ and I strode out the shop.

I was stomping furiously across the lit streets of Chiba drive. The knocking clacks of my leather shoes on the tarred-black road were loud enough to attract the very attention of the bustling crowd of Chiba. Embarrassed, I hurried to the nearest mart. The automatic door sensed my presence and slid open. I sighed and stepped into the fluorescent lighted store, aimlessly wondered around the food corner. Wow, Japanese are intelligent. From rice curry to instant pork chops, the food genre never fades. Yet, I had really lost the appetite to put any of those into my lips anymore. Disappointed, I walked towards the beverage section and got myself a packet of nutrition jello. When I was about to pick one up, another hand intercepted. I moved my hands away and looked up. She had a pair of dazzling jade-green eyes. Her hair was wavy and silky, laid on the shoulders when she was leaning down to reach the packet. Her nose was pointy and she looked vulnerable. Without noticing I said “sorry” to her even though I was in the Japanese mart. She gave a sunlit smile and pushed her sideburn behind her ears, revealing her left ear, accessorized with a dangling sapphired-earring. “It’s fine. I didn’t expect a Japanese to speak such fluent American dialect.” As she stood up straight. She looked like she is in her 20s and she was around 174 centimeters tall. She stepped back, and smiled. “Well, I didn’t expect someone would say that I’m a Jap! By the way, I’m Young Binn Trelance, from Malaysia,’ and I held my hand out. She shook my hand as I gripped it firmly. ‘Greetings, I’m Jeraldine Rose Lewis, an Aussie.’

Of course! Her slang was so obvious! Can’t believe I’ve missed that. Instantly, I grabbed another packet of jello and continued our conversation. ‘So what took you here? Didn’t you have enough back in Kindori’s?’ she asked with a teasing tone. I paused and asked ‘How’d you figure?’ along with an astonishing expression. She chuckled and answered ‘The smoking smell from you of course! Plus, Kindori’s is the nearest barbeque store anyway.’ I gave her a smile and answered ‘Well, let’s just say someone let me down.’ ‘Your girl?’ ‘Naah, it’s a guy. Old friend. Suppose to be a great night but an annoying ass tagged along,’ She frowned, ‘Well, you have got to really hate this “ass” huh? He bugged you that much?’ ‘Ever since he entered my life in high school,’ as I shook my head hard.

As we strolled to the cashier and paid for what we’ve got, we talked about Cystol. Surprisingly, I was able to whine all about Cystol to a complete stranger I’ve met in a mart while she was willing to listen too. ‘Maybe you do care about him after all,’ explained Jeraldine as we sat on a bench facing the glittering night life of Chiba. ‘NO WAY! I mean, he literally disgust me! How could I possibly CARE about him?’ and I took a sipped off the jello. She twisted the cap of the bottle again and again but it wouldn’t budge. At last she handed over and asked for my assistance as she said ‘Normally people who hate another person do not care about him at all. But in your case, you exceptionally took note of his every movement… Owh well, different perspective I guess,’ as she claimed her jello and took a sip. ‘Ugh, that would be my nightmare. Back to you, how is it possible for such lady like you to be wandering in a mart at this time, alone? No date?’ and I leaned forward and look at the sparkling sight of Chiba. She laid back and gave a sigh. Before I could ask why, she spoke ‘Well, let’s just say I have work up my sleeves that kept me away from getting a mate all these years.’ ‘Oh yeah, what is your affiliation anyway?’ She took out her ID and a business card, putting them on my hands which are holding the packet. I set the packet aside and screened thoroughly. “Broadcasting manager, Lespawn Network,” was printed on the card. ‘Whoa, broadcasting manager! No wonder you had no time for these kinda stuffs! Must be tough huh?’ ‘Yes, and I’m going to stay here for few months’ time for the meeting and courses for exposure purposes. What about you?’ as she slipped her ID into her pocket at the left side of her purple candy-striped shirt. ‘I’m a doctor. I was suppose to operate on a big shot’s wife today but it went a little haywire today in the theatre, so I need to wait till she passed the critical stage.’ And I took a long sip off the jello packet. She nodded and took another sip. ‘Aren’t you supposed to be waiting in the hospital until you get a call or something?’ ‘Well, they haven’t called me yet so I think I can use the air outside the medical centre.’

And I stood up and walked by the bars of the garden. She joined me and asked, ‘How long is your trip?’ ‘Maybe a week or two. If her condition persisted, I may need to stay for months. Well, Japan is my second home anyway so I should be fine.’ As I finished my jello, my Xperia rang. ‘Excuse me,’ I looked into the caller ID and found that it was from a house number, not that I’ve known nor recognize. With anxiety, I answered the phone. ‘Binn, its Suane here. Can you come over to my place now? I really need your help!’ her voice was trembling. Almost the same tone as she was in the plane. ‘Uhm, Miss Lewis,’ ‘Jeraldine, please,’ ‘Okay, anything. Well, it is really great to know you tonight. But someone needs my help right now. If we have any chance to meet again, till next time okay?’ ‘Call me or email me if you need any help either. Take care.’ As I bade her good bye, I sped all my life towards the nearest cab station. She was in the same hotel as I do, but which room? Never mind that, first get to the hotel.

Thats the jiff of it... So, comments again thx loads and wait for the next zen~

Signing Off,

Kurozakura-Binn

Of Os, Bs and ABs Zen 3

The icy prick on my forehead forced me to rekindle my eyes. I was looking on white ceiling of the dome, trying to recollect my conscious. “ Chuyishitekudasai. Okyakusama, Narita Kuukou kara Kouromubia e tobu no hikouki ga yonjyugofun naka de suhpatsusurutokorodesu. Okyakusama, anatatachi no bangoguchi e ittekusasai. Jyouhou manhiku.” The native Japanese accent slow became clearer upon my awakening. From the blur to clear, I saw two paramedics. They were asking if I were alright. I nodded and said yes. They were both Japanese. Another announcement came up in English, yet the native accent did not fade. Slowly I climbed up from the couch and saw several personas surrounding, including Suane, Sein and the lady who just gave birth. “What are you doing here? Please get to the nearest hospital now!” I urged the lady. She sped towards me and said, “Not without a picture of you and my baby!” and a flash shoted right into our faces. “You shouldn’t have done that to your born baby! Yet, since it has been exposed to so much, a little neon flash wouldn’t harm much.” I said. I can’t believe I uttered such words from my own lips. As a doctor, there are plenty pledges and policies and all so… owh well. She bade me goodbye and slowly strolled away with her husband and the newborn. Sein patted me from the back and asked, “Are you alright? You sure you do not need to go to the hospital?” I shook my head and checked my belongings. I turned on my Xperia and checked the time. Another 45 minutes till lunch. Suane came out from my back and asked the same question too. “Are you both jinxed or something? You are asking the exact same question!” They giggled among themselves. “Well, I think I have to report to the HQ first. Young, later?” he held his hand to his ear and make the phone call sign. I nodded and turned back to Suane. She was ok now. Besides the fact that her hair was a little messy, she was fine. I stroked her hair to tidy it until she checked my forehead , “ You sure you are ok? I mean you blacked out back in the plane! It is no joke ya know? Don’t you think its better for you to check in the hospital or the paramedics in the airport?” I shook my head,: “Hey, I’m a doc, Suane. Its my body we are talking about. I think its my blood glucose level. I haven’t take anything in my stomach since yesterday noon. Since its near lunch, wanna go for a bite in the streets of Chiba for lunch?” She picked her luggage and shrugged, “After I tidied up myself in the ladies’ please? Will you hold my luggage for me?” She handed over her green-colored oval-shaped luggage and went to the ladies’. I took it and went to the same direction she headed. I waited and scanned the surrounding. As the most sophisticated country in the world, it is a normal thing for the whole place to filled with people form different races and ages. I see scouts from various countries, bet there is a jamboree going on. Then there were plenty of vacation agencies’ tours and loads of businessmen and women strolling around the silvery tiles of Narita Airport. Restlessly I slipped my Xperia out from my left pocket, and checked my messages. “+601X-XyZyzYx” was the number. I opened the message and found out it was from Sein. “Dinner at Yakitsuki, Chiba? Will be waiting there,” Well, he really wanted a chat huh? Owh well, he will need to wait for me to check in first. The crack from the door knob broke my inner silence and a refreshed version of Suane glided out. Her hair is now tidily combed and her horrified face now became more cheerful and energetic. Surprisingly she didn’t use any cosmetics on her face, almost every single patient of mine had a thin layer of base cosmetic on their faces. She wanted to retrieve her luggage but I insisted on doing the dirt job. And we walked to the exit for the cab.

“Aren’t you going to pick that up?” Suane reacted when she heard the ringing from my Xperia. I broke myself from stoning and picked up my phone. After the conversation with the receptionist, I frowned really hard and sighed. Instantly she asked why. I ignored her even though I knew I shouldn’t but my instinct told me to keep it low. I requested the driver to move to Chiba Hospital immediately and muted until I reached the destination. Suane became restless after the sudden silence for 15 minutes. Upon reaching the entrance, I asked Suane to wait in the canteen while I slide into my scrubs. I hasted in my leather shoes and took my stethoscope from my bag. I totally forgotten about my luggage but I didn’t had time to think about it. The E-M-E-R-G-E-N-C-Y words lighted in red even it was a Japanese hospital. For the next three hour’s process, I’d really keep it as a record… I shuffled out from the boards, with my head looking at the ground. No good. Even with Chiba’s best doctors, the complication we had in the theatre was beyond mankind’s imagination and explores. Suane was no longer be seen. Well, it IS normal, especially you stood a girl up right in front of the nose. Mrs Nakagawa’s body couldn’t take the radiation we had. It was a really horrifying scene. Anyway, I need to get my room checked in before the time ends. It was 6.45 shown in my Xperia and it was dark already outside. It is Japan, so obviously it gets darker earlier than Malaysia does. I called for a cab and made my way to Takahiro hotel.

The sophisticated technology in the hotel was breathtaking. I’d really love gadgets since young and I never wait to get my hands on them. I literally pressed every button in my vision range to test their functions. From the toilet to the bed, the buttons never ran out of sight. Gosh, there are ten times more buttons in this room compared to Malaysia’s best hotel rooms. I undressed myself and got into the bathroom. The hot water flushed around my body as I turned on the tap. Relaxing and refreshing. I could really use the rejuvenation. As I wanted to fill the tub with water, my phone rang. I ignored it, assuming it may be some hospital work and reports to fill in. Yet, seconds later, it rang again. It continued a few more times. Yes, it must be an emergency. I dashed out the bathroom naked and felt the cold sting on every inches of my body to grab my phone. Murmuring, I looked into the caller ID.

It was Sein. Oops, I totally forgotten about the dinner. I wanted to answer the phone, but just realized that it was a Video Call. I rejected the call and grabbed the towel. After 5 seconds, my phone rang again. Goodness gracious, another video phone call? I barely had the time to put my clothes on! Yet, it was a call form another guy, so it shouldn’t be any problem. I answered the call, with my upper body naked. ‘Are you ready for the dinner? We have been waiting for a long time ya know?’ the image form the phone poped. We? I thought you and me were the WE! Are there any other WEs around? ‘Uhm, just another 15 minutes. I was kind of busy juts now. Promise to be there in 15 minutes!’ I answered, then hung up. I slid into my white slacks and put on a white sleeveless, along with my white jacket. Promptly, I got my identifications and keys, then whizzed out of the room.

Kindori was as beautiful as how its name sounded. The neon sign was hanged gracefully with golden bulbs, twinkling with a rhythmic pace. Even with the spectacular lightings, the shop didn’t moved away form its traditional design of native Japanese grilled-chicken shops. The scrumptious smelling smoke puffing out from the cloth hooked my body into the shop, but the urge of meeting Sein and the other person too hasten my footsteps. I recognized Sein with from his broad, lean shaped shoulder and his handsomely combed hair. Yet, there was another person sitting beside him The person was rather smaller size than Sein, not very, around below average height compared to a normal Asian. His hair was combed neatly to the side ways with a huge stream of line in between and he was a real chatter. I listen closely to his voice. Oh no. It couldn’t be. Of all the people in the world, he Combo-ed with this person to form a WE???

Who is the other person? Still wondering what kind of character to put into it... Well, wait till next post peeps!

PS: JR, your visual-reading thingy u have wanted... Hope u like dit this time~



Signing Off,

Kurozakura-Binn

Of Os, Bs and ABS Zen 2

I wanted to give up actually coz this post deleted itself but i had the time to redo it back in kedah, so might as well eh?

Another rumbling occurred. Suane was really intimidated. She can’t stop shivering. It’s simply amazing that I could still sit still and calm her down. Maybe the operations and adrenaline pumping in and out daily in the field had made me stronger, bolder and calmer. “Attention passengers. Please do not move from your seats at any rate. Please sit still and wait for the plane to land in 15 minutes. I repeat…” What is the matter with the captain? What is the matter with Sein? My goodness I can’t believe he is the captain handling this! Didn’t he expected this to happen? Questions of him start pouring into my thoughts. All of the mistakes he had made this very trip. I couldn’t stop my mind until the silence in my mind broke by a piercing scream. I stood up to screen the area but the steward urged me to sit down. I obeyed but my instincts told me something was going on. I peeked through the cleavages between the seats behind to check again. “Binn did you hear that?” Suane spoke. I listened really deep into the crowd. “Someone help! My wife’s water just broke!” I sprang up instantly. It was real. Can I do it? Can I save the infant and the mother without my trusted equipments? I had no time. I had to haste.

Something pulled me back. It was Suane. She held my arm really hard and murmured, “Please, don’t leave me here. I’m terrified. It’s all his fault. He should have piloted the plane professionally… he should have… he should have….” And she broke down. Eyes were staring at me. I ignored them and gripped her hands firmly. I knew I had to reassure her for her to keep still and steady. “Look, if you think you can be safe, you CAN be safe. It is all psychology making here. Now, I am not leaving you. Someone else needs my help. You can do this alone. Let me help her. Please?” I looked into her eyes. They were so fragile. Any little matter can easily shatter them. Her confidence wasn’t there anymore. It was as if I was facing a three years old child. Just when I was about to push her hands down, she picked up her senses and requested, “Bring me with you. I’m a girl and I know perfectly how she feels. Then I wouldn’t be that far from you and I can help you out right? Please?” I nodded and gave a weak smile. And we sped to the source of the scream. The lady was lying on the floor. The stewards gave up forcing me to sit still. The lady was moaning and the amniotic fluid was over the blue carpet of the magalunium’s base. Her husband, covered with sweat was reacting frantically. He was confused and lost. He kept screaming, ‘Any doctors or midwives here? Please! She is about to give birth any second!” I squeezed through the stewardesses surrounding the woman and sounded, “Are you idiots or you had never learnt science? The lady needs her space and oxygen! Disperse RIGHT NOW!!!!” This time they had to listen to me and they moved away immediately. Most of them was giving me a suspicious look and doubted my profession. Its normal, I abruptly attached my identity on my pocket and started to work on the lady.

“Stewards, make sure the crowd is calm and do not let people step near the compound. Stewardesses, get me some clean cloth and some hot water. Quick! Get me some sterilizer and scissors too. Chop chop!” I moved my attention towards the woman. She was moaning and screaming of pain. “Suane, go behind her and hold her still. I need to check her womb now.” She jumped to back and hold her. Suane was comforting the lady with her soul-touching words. She is a natural. Slowly, I opened her legs and looked into the womb. Third phase, the endometrium walls are constricting every 2 minutes due to the oxytocin. The baby is coming out anytime. “Uhm, ma’am. I’m here to help you okay? I’m a doctor specializing in gynecology and you need to follow my every instruction. You clear?” She nodded very hard and gave another scream. Naturally, I thought.

“Attention please passengers. We are landing on the Narita Airport in 10 minutes time. Please do not move away from your seats. I repeat…” What on earth is Sein thinking? There is lady going to labour here and he still insisted to land? What is the matter with him? “I demand your captain here right now!” Before I noticed Sein appeared behind me. “Yes? May I be your assistance?” he asked. I looked at him, with rage flaming in my eyes and spoke, “Yes you can actually. Can you postpone your landing? There is 2 person’s life is at stake here, the baby and the mother. If you think that you are responsible enough, you will allow me to perform the laboring process before you land, Mr. Captain,” I said sarcastically. He gave me a confident smile, obviously to cover his mistake and replied coolly, “Of course, Young, Anything to make sure they are safe. I will make the announcement immediately. Good luck in the process and please make sure they are fine,” and he strolled back to the cockpit. Cocky man, if anything happened to any of the passengers he will be on the blame. Du uh, he wants them to be fine. Anything, as long as I have time to save the baby and the lady. Jerk.

“Ok, breathe like this,” and I showed her how to breathe according to the normal labour phase. She followed and screamed again. “Ok, I understand it is painful but it is going to be over soon ok? Every scream, try your best to push REALLY hard!” I told her. She nodded and did exactly how I conveyed. “WHERE IS THE WATER AND CLOTH???? AND YOU CALL YOURSELVES TOP CLASS SERVICE???” I scowled desperately for the items. The stewardesses rushed in with the knocking sounds of their high heels on the floor. The one who was bringing the cloth broke her heel and fell. The cloth was all over the floor and she sprained her ankle. Another scream occurred. “I was expecting CLEAN cloth?” I asked her. She gave me the I-am-innocent look and I ignored her. “ UGRH!!!!!!!!!” A tiny hairy sphere-like object oozed through the vagina. It’s the head! “Ma’am continue you are doing great! Continue!” Another push, the whole head is out. I rested it on my palms. The stewardesses were all screaming of joy or disgust, I have no time to discover. The water and cloth were sent. Suane was still by the side of the lady, gently whispering to her. The lady showed no sign of stress besides the pain of the uterine wall thanks to Suane’s great job. I concentrated on the foetus. Its head was still covered in placenta blood. “Okay ma’am around 5 more pushes and it is out! PUSH!!!!” I can feel the whole supportive atmosphere from the crowd. They were also screaming and yelling, “PUSH!!!” Every single push the infant’s body gets visible and moving out of the vagina. By the last push, the whole foetus was in my hands with the umbilical cord, attaching the infant’s belly button to the mother’s placenta. Swiftly and gently, I razored the umbilical cord with the sterilized scissors from the belly button and covered it in the new, clean cloth after I cleaned it from the blood with the warm water. I gave a little pat on its buttock and it gave a low cry. “It is a boy ma’am and he is very healthy. Congratulations upon your successful labour!” and I walked slowly towards the lady. The whole crowd clapped and cheered. I swear I heard a few , “Way to go doc!” a few times. The woman held her baby and all, I mean ALL the ladies were crying. Few of the men cried too. Bet it is magnificent to witness such significant happening. Well, it is my first time outside an operation theatre so I can’t say I wasn’t touched at all. The baby made a few cry and the woman say to it, “You are blessed. You are protected. And you are special to be born in the borders of the country. Thank you, for bringing my child to this world,” she said after looking up at me. Her husband grabbed my hand so hard and showed his gratitude by hugging me. I was half way suffocating in his arms. Suane chuckled when she saw me. I gave her the i-am-dead-soon look form the man’s back. By the time the man released me, I felt a sudden weak jolt in the back of my head. Unnoticed, I landed on the carpet and blacked out.



Haha thats about it for Zen 2, hope you enjoy it~ I m so out of ideas right now

Signing Off,
Kurozakura~Binn

Of Os, Bs and ABs Zen1

I know my language suck but just wanted to drop a bomb shell in my blog hahaha... Hope i do not bore you people.... Anyway... I'm the one suppose to be entertained(syok sendiri~)

The bustling air in the air-conditioned dome was quite disturbing. I maneuvered the trolley towards the registration counter for my ticket. “The flight to Narita Airport, Japan is taking off soon. Passengers please be at gate 12 in 45 minutes time. Thank you,’ Oh, that’s my queue. My increased my velocity towards the registration counter. The ticket was imprinted with the details of the flight to Narita. I checked my pockets. Thank goodness my Xperia was still with me. My wallet was still intact too. Can’t be too careless nowadays. I checked my camera album in the Xperia. The picture taken 10 years ago not only saved in the memory card but also engraved fresh in my heart. How I wished I had told him what I felt back then. Everything would be different by now. I slowly motioned towards gate 12, where the other passengers hustled around the man-made corridor leading to towards the aircraft. Boeing 747, I presumed. I presented my ticket and marched in with my luggage into the cylindrical magalunium structure and headed towards my sit. The people were really interesting though. It has been 3 years since I went to Japan and also been in an aircraft. My business class ticket was really meant for employees in the business field. Almost 98% of them were holding PDA’s and laptops in their hands. The others were families going for holidays or just lonely travelers, and I was one of them. I stepped to my sit, G91, a window sit finally. I excused myself the lady around the her 20’s into my seat. Comfortably I sat down after I stuffed my luggage into the upper compartment of the seat. I took out my Xperia and checked the schedule. I should be in the theatre by next morning 10 sharp. This unlucky woman really needed my help though I can’t say that I really wanted leave my other babies in Malaysia for Mrs. Nakagawa’s case. “Attention please. The flight heading towards Narita Airport, Japan is taking off in 30 minutes time. Passengers please switch off all telecommunication and electronic devices to prevent interruption to the aircraft’s system.” I pushed the “off” button and waited shortly. “Good evening passengers. I’m the captain of today’s flight Sein Carlos Lscent, may you have a pleasant flight. I lifted my head.

I couldn’t believe what I’ve heard? Sein Carlos Lscent? It have got to be the same one I’ve known since ten years ago. There aren’t many Lscent who wants to be a pilot who stays in Malaysia. The lady sitting beside also shut her book hard. She glared at me, with her determined eyes and confident lips.Before I knew it, she spoke, “Young Binn Trelance? Class 4 Ginzakura 2007 and class 5 Kinsakura 2008?” I was shocked. How’d she knew which high school I’ve been? I gave a really hard stare on her face and finally realized, “Suane Tissle Teafle? The counseller Madam Lee’s daughter?” I couldn’t believe it. Amazingly after ten years we manage to bump into each other on the plane. “I bet you have your stethoscope in your pocket, right?” She said as if she have been stalking me. “Yeah, how’d you know I became a doctor? You haven’t been sneaking around me for ten whole years have you?” She giggled and replied, “I knew you wanted to be a doctor and I knew you would be one. You have all the traits since I know you,” I nodded and thank her. “Did you realize the captain’s name?” I asked. “Sein Carlos Lscent? Yes, he was our classmate back in high school right? I wonder how is he now…” “ Didn’t you stay in contact? I mean weren’t both of you kinda sorta together or something?” “I told you, I didn’t want to start the relationship. And in the end he didn’t give in and we lose contact,” I nodded and excused myself to the toilet. I walked to the cabin and waited quite a moment. When the person came out from the cube, I saw his badge on the left pocket, shining in gold and engraved with the letters “C-A-P-T-A-I-N”. I examined it for a few seconds before he asked, “If you don’t mind, I would be back to the cockpit, gentleman.” “Owh, sorry I was kinda checking you out,” Oops, checking you out? What am I some sex maniac? “He stared at him with the ‘what-on-earth face and then rested his right arm on my left shoulder, “Young, its you right? I recognize that tone of yours! It’s me! Sein Carlos!” he said. I smiled, “ I though you have forgotten how I’ve looked like. Lucky for you I still remember your funny face, hahaha,” We laughed for while and talked about our lives after high school. He persued piloting and became a full-fledge pilot. I has also finished my medical studies and became the life bringer in the pit houses. “Really? Well my future wife ought to consult you in the future!” Sein reacted. “Didn’t you get married these ten years?” “I’m only in my 20’s and I think getting a stable income is essential for me to start a family. Pus, I would have invited you to my wedding!” he gave a laugh after his statement. Wow, he didn’t get married after ten years. “Why are you flying to Japan?” I answered, “There is a lady in Chiba which needs my proficiency to recover her health. So the hospital decided to send me as the main doctor and Malaysia’s representative for an international medical conference in Tokyo. By the way, the girl you had a crush during high school is on board too,” I said with a naughty tone. He gave me frown. "Anyways, wanna join me for dinner in Kindori for dinner?My treat," asked him. Weird for a guy to ask a guy though, but i accepted and asked him to call me upon arrival in Narita Airport. He slowly glided towards the cockpit. His back was really strong and dependable...Wonder if i had that kinda shoulder?

By the time I sat down, Suane asked about my trip to Japan, I explained like how I did to Sein and asked about hers. "Well, I'm an accountant now, like how I pursue it ten years ago. I have stablised a firm in Malaysia, if you need any help or reference in the future, give me a call," as she handed out a name card. Suane Tissle Tiffle, Director, Calculus Acc Sdn. Bhd. Whoa, I had never imagined her to own a firm all by herself, not before she get married. "So, hows you boyfriend? I asked." In astonishment she replied," How did you figure? Owh well guess you didn't see any ring on my hand huh? Well, lets just say I wish to focus on my career before I start my family hehe..." I heard that some where else, just now out side the cabin. But i kept quiet and replied ,"Well that is really new style of you. Women now adays are very ambitious and that is simply amazing," She gave me a funny look and loosen up, "Binn, i think you should stop doing that.. I'm more comfortable talking to you as a friend... No need the formalities," I sat up straight. Take a long breathe. And replied,"Can't agree more.. I guess my middle name is much more easier to call eh?" "Yeah, dust bin and long beans and Mr Bean.. Owh all sorts of funny names we've got for you last time," giggled Suane. The whole journey was full of laughter.She was going to Chiba too to meet a client to establish a contract fr her company's service. She has got to be good to have a Japanese company as her client. And the company was GenkiDenki!!!! The second largest electronic chain around the globe after Sony! We discussed about our path of life, our daily lives, hobbies and all the memories we have shared in high school. We were never out of topic. Until when Suane got tired and fell asleep. I stared at her hard. What would have happened if both of them were together? Will they be what they are now? Questions circled aorund my thought and I couldn't sleep, even when i took sleeping pills. She has great feautures. Great smile, fine confident lips, strong, charming eyes, long slender hair, great smile and she is the typical devil's body and angel's look catergory girl. She was out batch's most "wanted" girl but she didn't give in to anyone of them who were trying to impress her or ask her out. Instead she stucked with me, haha, I was such a girl magnet back then, not because of my looks, but my sensible side of approaching girls. But, something pulled me back. I thinked really hard. What was the factor? What was my problem? All the busy work after entering the medical school has blinded me from thinking about all lovery dovey for ten whole years. I looked at her while she was asleep. Such graceful face, she slept without any funny noise or sound. She was practically sleeping without any movement. I adjusted her blanket and went for a drink. The waitress at the cabin was shocked when I appeared for my latte. She fixed me a cup of it, and i strolled back to my seat. I saw a white figure standing beside Suane's sit. It was him, Sein. He knew she was on board. He knew she was sitting beside me. He is the captain anyway. After he stood for around 2 minutes, he walked back to the cockpit. I watched him, without saying anything I went back to my sit, sipping up my hot, creamy latte.

The whole place shooked hard. My latte was spilled all over her blanket and she woke up out of the horrific atmosphere. "Oh my goodness, faster get the blanket away!" I grabbed her blanket. She pushed her long sideburn to the back of the pixie-looking ears, just a little more curvy and took a sheet of tissue and started wiping her skirt. I took more sheets until another shake occured. We were both confused. "Attention passengers. Please do not panic. The aircraft is having slight interference with the unexpected clouds in the air. Do not fear and we will be reaching Narita Airport in 30 minutes. For your safety, please buckle up your belts immediately. Thank you" The Japanese-native slanged English was noticable enough for me who have mastered the language for 7 years in Kyoto. We both buckled our belts and started to discuss about the incident. "You think the captain is capable enough to bring us to the airport safely?" she asked. "Don't worry, its Sein as the captain! His was one of the best students in Physics back in Hanabi High," I assured here. Wit a cold tone, "Yeah, and he had always ran away form complications. No matter what he do other than homeworks," "Well, this has everything to do with his homework! So, have confident in him ok?" I reassured her. She nodded and stiffen her body. She was really scared. Obviously, she has no one to depend on this trip all the more reason to panic. I held her hand and said, "Look, I'm right here ok? I will make sure you will be alright, ok? At least have confident in your reliable brother!" Yes, Madam Lee has always treated me as her son, like I have to take care of every single family member in school grounds. I can feel the shiver and shake form the hands and I grapsed her hard. Sein Carlos Lscent, if I had the chance I will punch you right in your face for doing this...

Alrighty, I guess I've typed alot for today, i should let ideas jolt my mind for whats gonna happen to Young and Suane, thanks for reading if you have reached here. Hope i do not bore you... If you are bored, feel free to comment or leave, im an amateur anways...

Signing Off,

Binn-Kurozakura